I was a kind of violent, intimidating guy. I never beat up chicks or anything, but I had a period of about 2 years where I lifted weights to rep. I was generally impulsive and relied on this to make it through high school, and I remember the feeling of physically dominating other boys being a high i've never felt since. I was happy to lay this down when I transitioned, I had been a diminutive child so it wasn't exactly difficult to relinquish, but sometimes I miss it. I hate being overpowered by men, and every time it happens I think about how if I was a little stronger I could kill them easily.Does anyone else have these thoughts? They feel so masculine, it disgusts me slightly.
>>41517756>overpowered by men, and every time it happens I think about how if I was a little stronger I could kill them easily.I'm in the same boat but I played like water polo every day instead of working out but you get it. I think ill be in for a rude awaking when I get into a fight with a man cuz I still think I'm stronger than them>4 year hrt troon that only does cardio and leg workouts
>>41517756i totally get it i miss being able to stand up for myself (boymoding in hs rn)
>>41517767>(boymoding in hs rn)you have to be 18 to post here and don't hang out with the boys hang out with the girls fag
>>41517766It's very jarring, I was a prostitute for the period I was working out the most and got into it with a couple johns. Never had any problems getting out of it.Fast forward, like 3 years, I'm 18 and a year on estrogen. I get into a scuffle with the tiniest twiggiest little guy, absolutely no chance. Kind of interesting. human metabolics are miraculous >>41517767>hsGTFO
>>41517773>>41517777Im 19
thought hs is the american equivalent of the school im attending atm guess not oops
>>41517756ESL? Post hand.
>>41517767You have to be 18 to post here.
>>41517796English Second Language? ha, no. I grew up in los angeles.Here is a picture of my hand. Are you racechecking me?
>>41517802refer to >>41517783
This thread makes me want to take T
>>41517756usually i love the idea of being slender and weak, but something about this absolute unit of a man (a bossfight in elden ring) makes me kind of relate to what youre saying. when i look at him i can see it in my head how awesome it would feel to be fucking massive and impossibly strong and intimidating, being able to carry your entire village across a river, wrestle a bear and beat back a whole band of looters all by yourself. but then i realize id actually much rather be the dainty femboy straddling his back and get to experience the might of this man through being protected by him as his concubine, over being him myself. when it comes to strictly missing feeling powerful, i cant relate since ive only ever been strong in imagination. i was an underweight twink with twigs for limbs pre-hrt
>>41517756i was always a weak intimidable soft spoken faggot so no i never got to know that feeling
>>41517756No. I was once strong and muscular and now I have the body of a skinny twink with boobs, but never did my strength feel related to the feeling that I could physically dominate anyone.Not being able to carry heavy things I used to be able to is a bit annoying, but not the end of the world or anything.>>41517879Do it dude
>>41517756i still feel stronger than most people, despite having never worked out my upper body
you wanted to be a soft, delicate little femaleyou made your bed, and lie in itnow find a strong man to protect you
>>41517756i was never very strong but my bf pinned me down the other day and all i could think was how little power i had
>>41517756Emulate female bodybuilders. You can be muscular/strong while looking feminine. Google Janae (formerly Matt) Kroc, the famous powerlifter.It's probably easier by far for a biological male to achieve something like this.
The only kind of dominance I have asserted was verbal dominance. Physically I am and have always been a twig.
>>41517756You still are a man.
>>41518020This. Tried gymcoping when i was trying to hardcore rep and literally no matter hos hard i tried i couldnt really 'man-up', my small bones didnt help but really all i managed to do was make myself ugly if im being hon est
Never had it
>>41517756That's basically the only reason why I detransitioned. I dislike testosterone and don't really care about using my strength, but having a resilient and unfeeling body is very useful
