why even bother trying to live as a tranny?no matter how many procedures i do or how much i try, deep down i'll always be a moid. i can fool people but i won't ever be able to fool myself, so happiness is a forever unachievable thing. an incomplete woman that can't bear children and doesn't even have a way to have hassle-free sex.i hate the constant hugboxxing. i hate literally all my "friends" telling me i pass when i still get stared when i walk down the street during the day. i've avoided going out because the paranoia is too much. everyone knows, all the time, and they are disgusted by my existence. male attention and validation only goes so far, maybe if i wasn't autistic i would have an easier time.this past week i've been so suicidal and it feels like the time to end it is closer than ever. having a gun would be so much easier, i'd have done it by now. i have to resort to either hanging or SN, even though both are effective i need a way to do it impulsively.i had one shot at life and this was my miserable experience, yay
>>41536922I have decided to throw away my life to be a rich dudes sex slave cuz idk what I'm even doing anymore. He's probably gonna throw me to the dogs when I turn 40 or sooner but eh I wanna jump now I can just jump then.
>>41536922waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawaàaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame want milky and nurture by world waaaaaaaaaaaa me make 500th thread complaining on tttt waaaaaaaaawaaaaaaaaaaaa look how much of a useless faggot I am
>>41536926yeah that's what i've been doing lately. i downloaded tinder and have sex with supposedly 'straight' men so i can feel desired and less disgusting
>>41536936nice contribution retard maybe you should kill yourself too
>>41536922>>41536922The best cope is to eroticise it and also a little ketamine a few times a year just as a treat
>>41536922How do you know people aren’t looking at you because you’re pretty
>>41536922You lost your moid rights when you transitioned. At best you can be a soft castrated third gender, at worst a woman. Deep down you can never be a man.
>>41536922>doesn't even have a way to have hassle-free sexsrs does solve that problem at least
>>41536922im feeling pretty similar. all of my friends tell me i pass and most of the time i seem to pass to strangers too, but then every now and then someone clocks me or looks at me weird and its like whats the fucking point if im just gonna be some weird genderfuck freak forever
>>41536922So you're faketrans then
