In 8 days, I'll have been on hrt for a year. I still don't know if I'm actually a tranny or not. Idk if I was ever actually dysphoric or if a just hatted my body and myself so much that I convinced myself this was the right thing to do. I have no plans to stop, but it's constantly weighting on my mind. Idk how I can ever prove to myself that I actually should have done this or if I'll just be blowing smoke up my own ass.
>>41542978It’s not going to get any better I’m 3yr hrt and I still don’t know if I’m a tranny, in fact I’m leaning towards believing I’m just a confused normie cis dude
>>41543047That's great, wonderful, even. I'm going to lose my mind because of this. I don't know what the hell to do. I've got to get past this
>>41542978im approaching 4 years and yeah idk. i dont hate myself as much but like im still a boy my body is just a little different
>>41543299God, I'm sorry, Anon. I hope things get better for us all. It's kinda calming yo know that it's somewhat normal but still maybe I fucked up.
>>41542978I felt this way for 6 years. Eventually I had my doctor switch me back to pills, no spiro, to see if a bit of testosterone was something I needed. It wasn't, the changes I experienced toward the end of those three months were largely awful and not only am I back on shots but I'm considering SRS more seriously than I have in the past.
>>41543437Interesting. I've never heard of something like this. Thank you for sharing.
>>41542978>>41543047>>41543299I relate a lot to this as a 3yr hrt 'moder. It's so fucking confusing and I'm thinking myself in circles about it every damn day.
>>41543759yea I try to just not think about it at all so I can still function but occasionally I’ll just go into these thought spirals and go insane for a day
I only made it 2 months senpai - the "reverse dysphoria" was pretty fucking obvious so I stopped. Now I feel fucking awesome and I love seeing my body become leaner and musclier every week. Used to hate my body and avoided mirrors and photos my entire life.THERE IS STILL TIMEI would be a pretty hot tranny but have absolutely zero chance of ever "passing" btw.
>>41543759>>41543786Yeah, the thought spirals are the worst part. I'm sorry, anons. I wish there was an easy way to figure this out.
>>41543803Idk I don't think I'll ever stop hrt. I quit like the changes it's just mentally excruciating to not know for certain. Two months is insane desu. Good for you tho
Perhaps I should detrantition and see how I feel. At least that way, I would really be able to know. What do yall think??
>>41544128I’ve tried that twice, still don’t know
>>41544161Well shit. Hmmm, idk. I'm happier this way, I think so regardless of if I am a tranny or not I'm gonna keep taking hrt. So, really, i guess it doesn't matter. Or at least that's the cope I'm going to tell myself
>>41542978yup im 10 days out from a year rn lol. i dont know. a lot of things are very different and i look quite different but i dont really think i look like a woman or pass.
>>41542978just visit whatever e-cult and they will feed you very effective cognitive dissonance and a narrative you can repeat as a mantra everytime you experience discomfort for falling for this mass hysteria
>>41544773Sounds pretty boring desu
>>41544773no i was raised in cults theyve always seemed a bit dumb. i got what i wanted out of transitioning in contrast which is not being horrifically suicidal
>>41544697I'm sorry, Anon. I hope you are able to figure your shit out. Good luck. I'm sure you'll end up passing like most of the other people here
>>41543803What was the reverse dysphoria?
>>41542978>Idk if I was ever actually dysphoric or if a just hatted my body and myself so much that I convinced myself this was the right thing to dothat's dysphoria you stupid bitch. i almost pity you but i'm more in awe of your density
>>41545685Im not dense. Can you not hate your body for being male and not be a troon. Like idk is it really?
>>41545821if you're amab and don't like that you're at the very least not cis, which is basically being a troon to the wider world
>>41545821You don’t have to identify as a transwoman you can just view yourself as transfeminine and that’s fine. Tranny brains seem to be intersexed instead of cross-sexed anyways.
>>41542978>In 8 days, I'll have been on hrt for a year. I still don't know if I'm actually a tranny or not.Then, honestly, stop! How you even got on HRT is crazy, especially since all you baby trans all use doctors when first starting. Really talk to a doctor and work on your life. Going down the path of transitioning and you don't know you are dysphoric is going to lead to a path of possible regret, putting you in a worse mental place later in life.
>>41546058>You don’t have to identify as a transwoman you can just view yourself as transfeminine and that’s fine. Tranny brains seem to be intersexed instead of cross-sexed anyways.You enby type fucks are such trenders. You pretend and make up shit terms to identify as, but you're not trans. Stop hijacking the term, being the fucking degen you are, and doing it under the label of 'trans'
>>41546091Well, for one, I've been dying the whole time because of where I live, and I don't know if I want to stop. I quite like the changes. I'm just well, I don't know. I feel like because I didn't go to a doctor, I can't know if I am or not, ya know. If I did go to a doctor and they told me I wasn't trans I'd probably still keep taking hrt
>>41546058The label itself is not the problem. That doesn't really fix anything.
I'm crashing tf out rn
>>41545619breast buds/gyno progressing freaked me outi liked all of the other changeshad a realization (or remembering) that i'll be alone forever and so will only ever be able to depend on myself. i can better depend on myself as a man with the strength and energy of testosterone. and my hatred of my male attributes stemmed from my hatred of men - i still hate most men but no longer hate myself.
>>41546153anon y are u in tears over other people it's cringe
>>41542978im like 6-36 months in (dose changes) and at this point i just enjoy being an hrt femboy (not a tranny though)
>>41542978i made the jump to be a hrt femboy no intentions to be trans. became super cute, men and women are into me everyone is kind and want to get to know me better. HRT also helped with my paranoia and anxiety. i don’t think im going back so fuck your stupid labels trannies
>>41547533what sort of women are into you? ive only been pulling men but im trying to get a gf...
>>41548024lgbt coded, alt, kpop/jpop, and anime fanatic type of girls. honestly, i don’t like women genuinely, men make me feel loved, cherished, and safe nothing a woman could ever do. plus im addicted to cock
>>41548246honestly same, im too cock hungry to give up men... but ive been curious to get with women
>>41546153I’m not a they/themmer, I just recognize that we aren’t ontologically the exact same thing as women which is why I struggle to call myself that internally.
>>41547023>>41547533Do either of you have any negative feelings towards any changes you have experienced?
being an hrt femboy is just boymoding without bringing up the fact you plan to be a troon within a year or two. it doesn’t actually change the reality of u looking like a troon it just fails to inform people in your life. this works for a couple years or longer depending on your genetics but unless you’re a gigahon the concept of doing this in the long run is comical
HRT and tranny ideation is self harm.
>>41542978I was like you, but after 3 years on HRT, I just understood I'm a bit of an enby and stopped worrying about itGender is fake, anyway, all that matters is if you're satisfied with the changes that your current sex hormone profile provided you with
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>>41552143quite the opposite, granted i did also start taking much better care of myself... in the end im just getting cuter each passing day :3>>41552275basically this, don't overthink the gender part... (its all fake)treat hrt as a way to feminize your body and have realistic expectations>>41552234boymoding is ultimately the best choice for transitioning imo... you get the benefits of being treated as a man and looking like a woman + you don't burden people with pronouns/gendering, just let them guess or use (he/him)
>>41552541> boymoding is ultimately the best choice i agree. you're supposed to look and dress androgynous for a year or two while your tits fill out, laser does its thing (if you need it), and your hair grows longer. obviously go right into girlmoding if you want but its much safer to just wear baggy clothes and look like a teenager
>>41552275I guess that's fair. There's no point in worrying about it if I'm happy, I suppose. Just wasting time and energy. Thanks anon
>>41552541>>41552555Boymoding is pain. Someone calls me he/him, and it sours my whole day.
>>41552630well yes thats because this is still much better than being called he/him when they KNOW youre a tranny lol. stealth to stealth is probably the most chill transition if you can manage it
>>41552630i used to feel this way at the start, because i was so set on girlmoding laterbut fast forward almost 3 years and i actually prefer being called he/him because i dont have to worry about passing/voice... im just being me and looking feminine and cute :3
>>41552646being a visible tranny (95% of all trannies) is social suicide in almost every environment... its really not worth it imo
>>41552652some of u are not trannies like the rest of us it seems
>>41552646Yeah, okay, true.>>41552652Odd. But good for you. Idk I don't think I could be comfortable with that. Hell, half the time I go out in boymode, people still call me a woman even when I use my regular voice. I was shopping for clothes the other day in the men's section, and some dude was just starting me down like I was growing a horn on my head. I hate people. I think I might stay inside forever >>41552736So it seems
>>41552736most likely true, but it took sometime to realize it (and be at peace with it)
>>41552865ik its odd/unpopular but being gendered female while boymoding is so peak...my end goal is to physically look like a woman that sounds like a man and dresses like one :P
>>41552911u think this works till you’re just a normal hon and everyone is screaming at you in the street
>>41552143just breast growth and some of the mental effects
>>41552922yeah there is a big genetic lottery aspect of it all (as with passing in general w/o surgeries)i was lucky enough to look fem before hrt so ill take it
>>41552937Do you have any plans to combat these effects, or are you going to just cope with it forever?
i cut my hair short so i look like a cute feminine boy, but i know i do confuse a lot of people because of my height
>>41552985prog silly and gyro surgery later
>>41552966Curse you and your feminine appearance
>>41552986i need to do this so bad... but i also wish i could swap between shoulder length and short hair U_U
>>41552999Gyro surgery, yumIn all seriousness, good luck, Anon.
>>41553019I prefer the short hair because ive seen troons irl with unkept long hair a lot and i want no part in looking visibly trans. i also don’t wear the classic boymoder clothes
>>41553031Thanks?
>>41543437yea i felt the exact same as OP after 2.5 years of hrt. I went a step further and injected high supraphysiological doses of testosterone for a year. the changes were horrible and it feels much better back on hrt. im not any less confused though. i still feel like a boy
>>41553061agreed, but i feel sad cutting it off given the time ive spent growing it out (1.5 years) but i love both hair styles :(
>>41546726Fuck i might be real trans because that doesn't bother me
>>41553508He probly was just ugly. if i was ugly or mid i would’ve detransition not point in transitioning if it’d make life harder
>>41553374if you can pull it off that’s all that matters
>>415537006'4" etc.
>>41552652>>41552275i basically feel like this. i wish i could meet people like you because i don't relate to anyone, and it makes me feel lonely as hell :(
>>41542978>Get rid of dysphoria using HRT>Chat am I still trans?Idk, do you want to go back to being a man and everything that comes with it?
i got on hrt thinking i wasn’t a real trans woman and then had a panic attack when breast buds popped out of me very painfully 2-3 weeks in. anyways i am pretty happy now with being a girl
>>41555855Well, no i don't, but in all aspects, I am still just a man on Hrt. Ig that is my own fault, tho.
>>41555954Good for you, Anon. I'm happy for you
maybe you just have an endo issue bro, some kind of intersex thing
>>41556597Idfk, maybe. I think I'm probably just retarded tho
>>41543047nobody who identifies with the word "normie" is a normie. or maybe things have changed. hehe
>>41555855Okay maybe I'm retarded. I'm sorry
>>41555572aww im sorry :(i tend to hang around people that love/appreciate femboys, so i feel comfortable with my identity there
