overbearing editionprev: >>41523278qott: how about that winter weather? do you like the cold anon? tolerate it better than heat? got enough blanket anon? i know im hogging it haha
Winter definitely hasn't arrived where I'm currently located, I yearn for it deeply. I just wanna wear my nice coats and scarves and layers and thick wool sweaters and...
>>41546635QOTT: Not in the southwest with this climate change>pic related
Is it bad to feel like there is a sexual component to being trans?Like, I feel like I'm proving chuds' points when they're always like "lol AGP" to discredit trans women. But I feel sexier now, I feel more comfortable having sex now than I used to feel. I've found sexual joy that I didn't know I was missing out on.
>>41546753no you aren't proving chuds' point. of course you feel more comfortable now.i am beating ray blanchard to death in your honor.
qot: it gives me an excuse to dress in muted and earth tonessssss
Lowkey wanna give tinder another goMaybe this time I'll get more than 2 messages in 5 years lmao
>>41546947loved how nobody replied to his shitty art pickme post in the prev thread
>>41546753>tranny realizes how harder it was to be sexual in a body they weren’t comfortable with, as opposed to one that they feel more attuned towow it’s a shocker why suddenly it feels better exploring sex now.
>>41546635i love the cold. i bought a really nice patagonia parka last year but never got the chance to wear it.
>>41546947let's see your face
my health insurance for my career actually kicked in todayI bought a new gun within the last monthhow are all of you doing? neet? hungry? happy?
How do I let my golden retriever boyfriend know it's okay to just hold me down and fuck me already without seeming like a slut?
>>41548012concentrated & hardened carbon
Idk I feel like my meds are making it easier to sui. I dont have any emotions anymore so I don't care about making anyone sad.
i think this nigga unironically got raped/frotted to dead by maiq. FBI needs to get into his inbox
Are there any trips here that with consent I could write a fanfic post about?
don't date people on meds (take your meds please)Don't date cutters, check for scarsDon't date draw fags or fanfic shippersavoid those with TDSavoid the commiesenjoy the rom comsflirt with neocons
im still personally insulted and hurt that you commies hated on me while you were ridin with bideni hope ur all in fentanyl withdrawl rn
>>41548102brandon didn't do shit and was a sleepy retard. at least trump is funny and keeps things wild
>>41548110thanksbe well anon
>>41546947LMAO t-t-totally
>>41548079run away from the BPDs
https://www.youtube.com/live/ZG2EyignuVM?si=722Es3mKHfOjZERL
>>41546947did he try to draw himself? god he would, that's SO pedro
>>41548063what a beautiful woman
>>41548243we finally have a graphic definition of his delusion :^)
>>41548776Wont scream only whimper. Also youll just get blood and shit on your dick
genuinely how the fuck do you guys get boyfriends i'm such a femcel
>>41548826by looking decentish
>>41548844i've been called pretty and have good hygeine but no one approaches me
>>41548850my voice dysphoria would not allow it, sorry.
>>41548861no one is approoaching a pretty girl with good hygiene?
>>41548861no one approaches you in social events/areas? or are you one of those autists who expect to be approached randomly irl?
>>41548888The latter. The only social events I can think of are parties and I never get invited to those or going to a bar and I'm too young for that (19) and scared to get a fake id LMFAO
Lost the 50/50 on birth, but I won the real important role though. God I love being white
>>41548917ur supposed to be approached during social events/areas that allow it to happen naturally. when it comes to actual irl day to day life, most people are just trying to go from point A to point B. for your age specifically, I suggest making popular friends that’ll invite you to parties, joining clubs if ur in school, finding events (raves, festivals, etc) in ur area, maybeee try dating apps. when you get older, you’ll get access to bars and clubs
>>41549054>>41549154this is awfuljust flirt with everyone or youll be 40 and alone
>>41546635why the fuck that bitch only got one eye for
>>41548965based af white bro
stopped taking all my meds so i can do acid again cause its the only thing that makes me perceive any kind of meaning in reality desu
>>41549195grim af
>>41549195You dont need to stop E for that. Just antipsychotics.
>>41549217oh no of course i didnt stop the e as a matter of fact i increased the dose. just no more antipsychotcs or antidepressants for me
>>41549225Nice. Feels good desu
>>41549233the feeling of being able to deeply understand anything is something i haven't felt since i started the meds, and every other time ive stopped taking them the feeling never came back unless i did acid. i just waant to be able to feel like i really know something, anything, i dont care if its true any more
>>41549304WHATS REEAAALLLLLAHHHHHHHH TITTY JIGGLE AND DICK WIGGLE AHHHHHHH
>>41549304Is kinda funny how chemical psychosis can work so well at connecting you back with your body and physical space around you. While meds make feel so detached from it all.
my penis yerns for your buss
>>41549337finally someone understands
gays and cutters is not a good place for transsexuals
>>41549365"gays and cutters" does not sound like a good place for anyone
I wanna be a dominatrix for fucked up transgirls
On weekends I lay in bed playing on my phone for like 2hrs before I get upWhat should I do instead of bed rot
>>41549470yoga
>>41546635figured out I'm a lesbian, don't know why I'm like this, what's my best path forward?
>>41549567srs
>pov: youre not a lesbian goonette
non of this is very helpful, I feel like I'm so much pain.
>>41549628get a job, doomette
>>41549796too busy getting that paper
sometimes ffs doesnt work
>>41549874not too much to tell, just got done using my exercise bike which sucks im so painfully unfit rn Gonna start preparing stuff for dinner soon :)
>>41549927>sometimes cosmetic plastic surgery gets botchedriveting discovery
>>41550030What are you cooking?
>>41549927thats facial feminization if i've ever seen it
>>41550068Roasted chicken with a bunch of herbs etc, roasted potatoes,carrots, gravy typical brit slop. Not my favourite but my gf wants it today
>>41546635I really hate the transitional periods of autumn and spring where you just end up sweaty or cold time to time, there's no good universal amount of layers. I like summer because I hate when it's slightly cold, and I like winter because I like the aesthetic of everything being white, gray, black and blue, and also having to struggle with stuff like if your car gets some minor problem, out in the cold, is good for my masochist tendencies.
>>41549927Tbh it looks like mustacheswadow in the second picture, so... I'm tryna find what might be wrong otherwise, because every detail looks fine or very fine. The nose a little wide?
i am so happy i don’t work on mondays anymore
>>41549927At least they no longer look like steve harrington
kinda
i can afford ffs i'm just too scared and ashamed to get it
>>41551430giwtwm fugg
>>41551999wats a seekingcom daddy
>>41552078idgipost ffs result
fake?
nah dawg
I might take a few days off to recover a lilwhat do u think chat??
>>41552419are you ill
>>41552484yeh I was born ill tbqh
>>41549470go for a run
>>41552419it's a good idea
>exam literally had "check the 5Ps" as question>P stands for pulse,pockets, position, penis, pulse>penis>check the penis>passed the examI'm literally a licensed penis inspector now
>>41551430 im covered by insurance and i waited like 8 months to schedule intake but i never followed up because surgery is terrifying.
why are men like they are....
>>41552887biological necessity for evolution. they have outlived their usefulness.
keep me company on my last day, nonas
>>41552987your last day of what
>>41552987don't do it bitch
>>41552587that's a really good point ngl>>41552887iunno, god made them from dirt ig>>41552987why not keep u company every day for the next 70 years? it's possible, no laws of physics rules it out tbqh
>>41552887did you get bullied again
>>41546635>qott:I love cold weather because I like sweaters, cardigans and coats.
>>41552887you don't have to put up with it.
>>41552666>but i never followed up because surgery is terrifying.i am too stupid to transition so i diy and have never gotten my levels tested despite being insured
>>41553377my guys fucking raided my clothes and then stood around loudly describing my underwear in publicfeels a bit more like harassment than anything at the very least I guess I won't be seeing much of the handsy one anymore
>>41553908order a blood test online its easy
>>41554017why? you kicked his ass?
>>41554035don't i have to show up and get blood drawn tho
>>41554017>when people pretend into fake porn they saw online
>>41554055wha? nohe just made the mistake of fucking with someone who isn't me or a woman i guesspeople who "actually matter" to the guys at least
>>41554106there are at-home finger prick draw options
>>41553908getting levels tested is waste of time unless you're like 40yo. u have a pcp right? on ur next checkup tell ur pcp you're diying. they'll order tests.
>>41553293good to rest when you can
>>41554191whats the significance of age in knowing your levels?
>>41554191rightoid brain rot has done a number on you
>>41554430higher estrogen levels contribute to dvt which becomes more of a risk as u age
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UcRpOn9k1ms
>>41554494no value in knowing you're in range at ages under 40?
>>41554512i’ve known i’ve been in range since I was 16, lol.
>>41554529ohh ok so knowing your ranges is valuable but no need to re-test so frequently after you know themmakes senseanon said shes never had her levels taken
>>41554541thats why i recommend they visit pcp. i retest multiple times a year i don't see the point anymore. chill out.
>>41554578im feeling p chill just checking that you're giving reasoned guidance to the noob
I waaana date someone why do I have to be a tranny hon instead of having a relationship with a twink or just normal cisoid life.............
>>41554448lol im so sick of hearing abt politics
>>41554180are those accurate enough>>41554191>getting levels tested is waste of time unless you're like 40yo.i need to know i'm injecting enough estrogeni've never gotten my levels tested i just am taking whatever the diy guide told me to take
I gotta buy some more sex toysWhat a pitiful world no one wants pussy
>>41555291need ~1ml of whole blood generally at minimumthe one i've used was a 1ml vial and 3 spring lancets that you poke your fingertip with and then squidge it into the vialreading seemed accurate based on my dosage and previous testing from normal draws
>>41555291>>41555456a small thing to note tthough is it can be worth getting your own lancing device, they like £10 usually. I've heard some people say they struggle to get blood out at times and the lances they give are single use
It's crazy how dead this thread is nowadays lol
>>41555538ngl entire internet feels a bit dead these days
I cut all my hair off earlier this week and it didn't help.
what fragrance oil should I get to mix into my homemade soap
>>41555809vanilla and lavendar would be cute
>>41555809namat vanilla its really good
I have done very little this past week aside from browsing and posting to /lgbt/ to figure out if I should transition
>>41555916what kinda retard takes mtfg advice to transition?
>>41555916What do you hope to gain from transitioning?There are two rules:>you must reasonably expect transitioning to improve your life >you must not fuck it up for the rest of us
fard
>>41555927you cant know in advance. it can make every part of your life worse except how you feel about yourself. then you fuck it up for everyone by acting out.
>>41546635qott: i hate it :/ i grew up in chicago and there’s no sunlight from november to april and every year i associate it with being alone while everyone else has relationships. i get so cold now after hrt too :(
>>41554941i don’t like trump
death can't come soon enough i deserve worse i deserve so much worse
>>41555456do i just mail it back to the lab?i'm like scared of having it on record i guess
>>41555815oh like mixed together or separate? never tried them mixed...I do have both in my stash>>41555900gonna look this up
>>41557410i was thinking mixed, they seem complimentary scents
>>41557356>i'm like scared of having it on record i guessthe lynch mob is gonna see you regardless of whether you get a blood draw lmao
jasmine and sandlewood is my current jam>>41557603Those fucking tranny's are always trying to lynch me manEvery time I put on my Trump hat it's fucking over for me
essential oils give me a headache
>>41557697you still need to work and get a job
>>41557764ive been at my current job for 8 months
>>41555921Where should I get advice then?>>41555927I wanna be cute and feminine and save myself from twink death and wear cute outfits and yeah. As far as ruining things for the rest of you, I plan on being completely closeted outside of LGBT spaces. And not to brag, but I'm not nearly as annoying as some of the people in those spaces.
I was feeling a little gay and wanted to pretend to be a woman. I have always wanted to be a woman and I had a real bad drinking problem that inhibited my ability to process these emotions. I joined discord as a secret femboy and want everyobe to see me as the girl I am deep down inside. I joined Scampy server since i knew they liked women and I could get validation as a woman. Scampy flattered me with cute compliments and started to privately dm me. We were on phonecalls everyday and slowly he pushed our conversations sexually. He started sending me dick pictures everyday and asking for my nudes. Since I didnt transition yet and still had my cock, i was scared to showing them. The i showed him my bootyhole. After he got that he would masturbate to me everyday. I felt so dirty knowing he fapped on his phone screen thinking the nutt was in my butt. I have since distanced from him and finally transition. Im a real woman now
>>41558813did you send pictures of your hymen
>>41546635Is there any hope for me as a femoid or should I just rep and take up drinking or something? I am early 30’s and I have never used the magic girl drugs except if you count tap water and the pill bottle of pureria mirifica I secretly bought when I was like 17 (it did nothing). I have dysphoria about big torso and there is nothing I can reasonably do about it I think.Here are my measurements:Shoulder circumference - 42in (106.68cm)Chest/bust - 37in (93.98cm)Waist - 30in (76.2cm)Hips - 38in (96.52cm)Total height 5ft 9in (175.26cm)Will I ever pass or am I destined for hondom if I try?
>>41559014Just take your pills and manmode, if you make it great if not atleast you stopped the bleeding
>>41559059That sounds reasonable. I am kinda scared that one day people at work and my family will start noticing I obviously have some…unusual features. How do I like…hide that?? From family especially. Particularly any chest growth. I was even considering doing targeted get just so I can stealth forever and only have smol chest. Smol is cute too so…
>>41559129*targeted hrt
big jilm
can I make you some sandwich sandwiches
My bf thinks i should go on hrt and i want to but i know i'm not a women
>>41559924Why does estrogen induced breast growth have to take like ten years I want it to happen right nowYou can hardly see anything even if I wear a bra right now, and I feel AGP wearing pushup bras
>>41561265Sorry, I didn't intend to reply to your comment in particular
>>41559014i tried to rep hard as i could, didnt work breh
>>41546635>qottwinter has most certainly comegood ol deadly canadian winternot the worst situation thorn we have 4 adults, 2 kids, 2 babies, and 3 cats think we'll survive even if it comes to huddling for warmth
>>41554158>>41561382What was the story here?
>>41561434my cousins friend decided to steal booze from my cousin and also bailed on a favor he said he'd do so they're having internal dramai just find it funny that my cousin basically let him do whatever he wanted otherwiseguy was showing up drunk harassing and punching me, calling random women shit like "shrek" to their facesbut its the little drama that makes him see that it's just not worth the trouble to deal with assholes
>>41561461>stealing boozeoh the trashiness lol >punching meprobably his way of flirting then
>>41557603tbhon i don't even know where my nearest mailbox is to drop it off is
:pensive:
>>41561512are you this helpless like actually
voice training but still sound like a breathy twink ;_;https://voca.ro/1fhJTnFaIQ9Kik it sucks but any tips or pointers?
>>41563089>are you this helplessyes i don't even know how to drive somehow i have a job that pays well enough to cover my bills but besides that i'm completely useless
So Carol was Blobby this whole time...wtf
>>41563735just search 'usps' dropbox on google maps
>>41564226fmstl idk how i ever convinced myself that i would ever look like more than a dude with tits wearing a bramy torso is so wide and squareit's over, idk how im gonna live for the rest of my life like this
>>41564505mommy chill
>>41564505sorry im nta btw
>>41564505>how i ever convinced myself that i would ever look like more than a dude with tits wearing a braidk thats how i turned out and its iite
>>41564724somehow i thought i could be a passing trans womanbut i can't idk how that can ever be alright
>>41564869and while pre hrt i was just numb and depressed, now just thinking about this stuff makes my eyes water
>>41564869>>41564882prob need to chill out its not that bad
>>41564893it's not so bad if you enjoy being extremely male looking, which i don't, maybe you do
>>41564928rude
>>41564932you're the rude one
>>41564928like i said its iitejust sayin you gotta pull up the doom spiral or you're gonna end up hurting yourself
>>41564944IT'S RAPING TIME
>>41564977wat
capital one keeps trying to get me to sign up for a credit card it says instant approval it might be a good way to build credit but it seems predatory they send me junk mail literally everyday
>>41565150if you have one around that you qualify for try a credit union for a first cc their rates are usually way gentler
I'm sure an ftm would be happy having my straight rectangular body with no hips at alli wish I could lie down and die right now
why do so many chuds seem to crave mtf dick?kohlchan net/int/res/27334624.html
>>41565246I'm also tired of people trying to make me feel better by saying that some women are completely hipless. they usually have something and aren't so wide chested.
>>41565340yeah plus they're actually women regardless
>>41565370yep
>>41565241that’s a good idea. thanks.
i got mango thingie from indian restaurant
>>41565825oh like a mango lassi??? but it looks more like tea iunno
>>41565936ya its one of those v yummy
>>41565825ugh nice, luv me some mango slopI didn't go to the shops today to refill my icecream box, now everything is closed and I regretti :(
>>41565973oh yeh, mango is quite nice, up there with the good fruits tbqh>>41565987the universe conspires to make u diet tbqh
>>41565825Send nudes
>>41566037>the universe conspires to make u diet tbqhidonwannadiet I want my sweets!
so anyways
>>41566061kys creeper
>>41565150when I was in the US I would sign up for the bonuses and never use the card
>>41567145>when I was in the USsince when did you leave the US, especially with an alleged autoimmune disease?
>>41567334if u wanna chat add me on discord :^)
>>41567145what kind of bonuses do you get signing up for a cc
>>41567434fuck no, I hope you kill yourself or that whichever country you went to mistakes you for a terrorist and sends you to prisonthat'd be poetic justice for falsely claiming others are literally terrorists in order to ruin their lives and drive them to suicide
>>41567457$200 usually or one time amex gave me $500 but I had spend 4500 on that card in a year. I just put my bills on it
I'm a 23 repressor.Is trooning at this age even worth it?, i'm still undecided but i know that the chances of passing are hopeless.
>>41567133>t. Blobby
Carol called me a slant eyed n word among other terrible slurs. I hate her
Is it okay to transition just because I want to be a woman?I probably don't have "gender dysphoria", I'm OK with living just as a effeminate man but I want to have long hair, put on makeup, wear dresses, etc.
>>41567910Yes, but the chances of passing obviously depend on geneticsSome people are more fucked by age 16 than others are at age 23
>>41567958>have long hair, put on makeup, wear dresses, etc.none of this is what makes a woman, a woman. that's just performing feminity, and it's ok for men to do it.
>>41567958yes? that's how the vast majority of trannies are?
>>41567958good luck having those things look good without transitioning oomfie
>>41568155Is this what gender dysphoria is? I thought it was an actual mental disorder where you feel like you don't belong in your body or something
every single passing second i grow more convinced that im trans and it slowly eats away at me, its like finding out you have a little hole in your chest that steadily eats away at your insidesand like fuck it i would try anything to feel good for once but ive discussed it with my wife and she just can't come to terms with it and i love her so much, more than i could ever love myself, so i'm just sitting here thinking that maybe i can be fixed but i can't be fixed and be what she wants in her lifeanyway i hope every single one of you has a great day and appreciates the opportunity you have if you do have it because i think i'm going to live my entire life wondering why i had to lose a coin flip at conception until i ultimately end it i think
>>41568247that is that it is, the other anon is a lying agp snakeif you don't feel a massive aversion to your innate masculinity and male features, you are not trans and are just a normal gnc guy. transwomen are gnc guys too, but they're ones with dysphoria
social anxiety therapy is hard when you can't figure out what causes the bad feelings exactly...usually it's a fear of judgement or fear of making a mistake ..
>>41568720maybe it's that you're a terrible person and should be anxious bc nobody likes you
>>41568674Knock it off. Spooky season is OVER
>>41568739pooge it's been five years and you are still sneeding
>>415687962023 was 2 years ago
>>41568813what did the fpd person do
>>41568796plus who knows how many other victims you havesociopaths like you never only have one victim
>>41568825someone she knew irl saw her Nazi reposts on reddit
muh sword group... muh fwends....
>>41568825used fed tier tools to soft dox a severely mentally ill vulnerable transwoman, tried to ruin their life by telling people they knew irl that they were a recruiter for terrorist Nazis, and tried to push them to suicide after the fact, just to feel like they had power over someone
>>41568834nice compulsive lyingkill yourself ASAPif you do have an autoimmune disorder I hope it ravages you and ends your life before you can hurt any more victims
>>41568856that sounds rough
>>41568882and none of it is true
>>41568908damage control harderalternatively, drink bleach
>>41568908then why do they hate you
>>41568924see>>41568834
>>41568930and how did the irl friends see the posts
>>41568930totally falseI had the group leader tell me you reached out to them, showed them Twitter posts, said I was recruiting for a neonazi on the dark web, and that if they didn't kick me from the group that you were going to post publicly about that group letting neonazis inzero reason he would've made any of that up and it totally fits your mo
>>41568948he was browsing blackpeopletwitter
>>41568943>>41568840were the Nazis known for wearing cat ears?
hitler was a furry
>>41568957why was she doing that
i love women.pooners will always be inferior to real men and to non-delusional women. grow up and find a valid cope. you are seen as even more as a joke than troons. your existence is a billboard showcasing exactly what your insecurities are and what you're trying to run from. i'm so tired of this delusional larp being treated as legitimate. sex and gender are not feelings. you are women and you know ywnbam. try loving yourself challenge. this shit is so embarrassing. i hope you learn to love yourself and don't feel the need to hide behind an extreme, contrived persona. i know you're tired.
>>41568982um i think this is the mtf thread
anyway I should find a new manga
I'd feel bad for paige if he didn't make it impossible to feel bad for him
>>41569126I don't I'm nice and easily lovable, just mildly possibly autistic occasionally
>>41569139>mildly possibly autistic occasionallyskill issue i'm full blown retarded
>>41567906Youre still sucking dick that was in her butt
she needs to go on his IP range and airplane mode over and over and see what bans he's been handed
>>41569224what
Who is Kaylee?
>>41569139Quite literally the opposite is true. You're not nice, noboy really loves you (mom = pity, not love) - and you're extremely autistic all the time.
>>41569139I did love you but you took me for granted and now I am only an occasional shadow here, and this has become a reservation for you and the blobster
trip on nomi
>>41569253rizzle is a known harasser itt
>>41569316:(
and no I am not Nomi
>>41569375then who are you
i'm the juggernaut bitch
>>41569388this is what I mean by being taken for granted but there was a time when I looked forward every day to talking with you
>>41569426grim
Paige nobody would ever masturbate to you let alone love you. Get real
it is always cold in Belarus https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mdk8n2CInVU
I have busted to the thought of Paige artistically lolling around my dick in her mouth
Has everyone had plesant bowel movement experiences today? I certainly did, and am quite grateful for that!
>>41569685i've had 9 packets of instant oatmeal today and i can't stop farting
should i donate to wikipedia.
>>41569838no they have like a quarter billion in the bank
i fell 12 pounds of weight and then gained it all back in the same week. My body image is in shambles
>>41569838I drop them $50 a year and treat it like a subscription. I feel like I definitely get that much value out of the site.
>>41569910use grokpedia it's better
can any tranny friends help me :/ i want to stop boymoding since i feel like laser has made a big difference but im really worried about asking my stylist for a girl haircut, and also about getting my eyebrows done which i havent done before (besides on my own with tweezers) does anyone have any help for this first time i am really stressed and ive been putting it off. my hair is long rn but in a boy way
>>41569884that's water weight. I'm not even overweight but I did the same thing after a couple months of strict eating, except it was ten pounds. I went back on my diet, held back on sodium and sugary food, a couple of hours spent walking each day, 400 calorie deficit, it wasn't enough to lose ten pounds of fat, but it burned through the stored sugar and salt, now I'm back to where I was before my week of pigging out. I'm not an expert so interpret that as you may.
>>41569963>my hair is long rn but in a boy waymake it long but in a girl way first, it's easy as fuckhttps://www.wikihow.com/Do-a-Layered-Haircut
I've been crying nonstop ever since i found out ;-;
>>41570020found out what
>>41570025That there are more Indians in India then all of white people combined throughout the entire world. It's so fucking over ;-;
>>41570043lmao
>>41570043it'll be fine
fpd only ever got what she deserved and thats a good thing :)
>>41569987ive been asked about layers by my stylist before but is there anything in particular youre meant to ask for besides just layers or a girl haircut? id really prefer to not say the latter if possible lol just because its not really like cis women walk in and ask for a girl haircut
>>41567947you do are insanely uglytm tbf
>>41570043do u ever think about how in a decade itll be even worse? :) think about all those nigerians and indonesians and pakistanis and congolese too
>>41570043Only 40% of Indians are currently on the internet... just imagine how bad it's going to get
>>41570059i meant to do it yourself first lolthen just go in girlmode and ask for whatever
I found a big rat in my attic and i panicked and got so scared that i had to febreze it until it stopped moving
Hello, I've been doing that hormone therapy crap for a while now. I know I'm not a woman or anything like that, I just wanted to have more feminine features. Recently, my brother told me I look like a butch lesbian. Should I be offended or flattered?
>>41570126Flattered. That means its working.
>>41570126a butch lesbian is what cis people call a boymoder as "we can tell youre a girl larping as a boy"
>>41567910the real doompill is theres no difference between 15 and 25
>>41570209I think anon means you suck rizzles dick and his dick has been in carols ass.
>>41570209did you find bestest dick
>>41570265She has a boyfriend that she shares with 3 or 4 other trannys
hi i cant say this in real life so i have to put it somwhere and. why not here.I havent posted in a long long time now or been in any related spaces. I made it to the other end . im stealth at work and have been for years. I got everything i was supposed to haev wanted. i havent been misgendered for two years. but, I'm still miserable. I'm horribly depressed. I haven't felt like this since when i was 18 just before i transitioned, at the bottom of my depression. I noticed that same feeling, like im alone at night in a blizzard in a remote mountainous location and nobody can save me but im just clinging by a thread to my life, this half-lucid dreamlike state . I never thought this would solve all of my problems but i at least thought my depression would get better.even though im stealth i dont feel like a woman. I transitioned because i wished i were female; i didnt want to become a "trans woman." i just wanted to be a "woman." I have female friends but i feel like im deceiving them. My dysphoria has nearly been completely eliminated and yet i feel isolated and alone. I haven't spoken to a person outside of work in 3 months. im sorry again to just put this here, but i can't say anything to anyone in real life. im very tired (and high) so im just. im writing. im sorry
>>41570304i dont think being stealth is actually any easier on your psyche than being a boymoder. the stress will literally drive u schizo and give you panic attacks. find at least a couple people around you to come out to even if it feels like youre asking the world to end by doing so.
>>41570314i can't do it. passing has taught me that even self-proclaimed allies can't be trusted. i trust nobody to not subconsciously categorize me into a third gender or something woman-adjacent if they knew. It's embedded in the human psyche. No person sees a trans woman as truly female. This is my ultimate conclusion after being around and hearing cis people talk about "trans women and women" or "real women" without even meaning to come off that way
>>41570330i know. i agree with you. but if you keep doing what youre doing youre going to have an anxiety attack eventually. it happened to me
>>41570304stealth is just another form of repping
>>41570337cope. she can come out at any point and thats the only change. the repper has to look like a woman first and for all intents and purposes this is probably impossible for HIM
>>41570325He says you are
not even close to copethe fact is, a trans woman is a woman but will never be a cis womana repper pretend to be a mana stealth passing tranny pretends to be a cis womanboth pretenses are suffocating
>>41570330its fucking true though we aren't, its just a biological fact
>>41570333then what's the point? what was the point of any of this if i can never be a "real woman" or just "female" it's all just compromising and how am i meant to be okay with compromising on something so fundamental and existentially important to what i am? was there never a solution? gender dysphoria may be the single evilest curse ever cast upon us. we will never find our relief even when we believe it could be ours.
>>41570330What if the person you talk to is also trans. Could find a trans guy so don't worry about like for like transition comparison envy.
>>41570359tons of people are cursed besides us nona
>>41570359you were born with the wrong chromosome, you can't be XX but you can be close enough™
things change very quickly tbf. the world was rather horrific to lesbians barely 20 years ago so who knows maybe instead of tranny macht frei we'll be seen as normal women soon
>>41570365It's the existential nature of it and the fact that there's no cure. We can walk straight up to it, but we will never be THERE. It's not like a sickness or something where you could be cured, and even then a sickness or a genetic mutation or any other curse out there doesn't deal with the nature of your identity, your existence itself being so awfully wrong, the world around you thinking you're something you aren't, every interaction you ever have is tainted by it, i can't think of any greater mental anguish you could so modularly apply across the general population
>>41570373I still see gay love as different from straight love, I think trannies in reality are just like that, whatever our gender is, is different from how it works for normal people
>>41570377nigga u need to chill out fr
>>41570373>be seen as normal womenI think this may happen depending on how straight men act
>>41570377you could be some mad scientists experiment where he cut someones head off and keeps it alive with machines, that would suck too
>>41570377there are cis women who get horribly disfigured with acid attacks. there are cis women who spend their entire lives being raped. there are cis women who live as slaves. you have Your Lot in life but its actually much freer than you might think and you have an ability to reshape this world radically if you desire. even if you despair burn brightly
>>41570359the solution is you are a trans woman and not a cis womanliving a life centered around hiding something indelible about who you are will never feel good or right, it’s the same as never transitioning at all
>>41570387i genuinely think there is a very real possibility that the world of 2040 america is one of many many youngshits and men being very fine with this. i think cis women are harder desu but still very doable since feminism has had a lot of forms and older feminisms really really hated black women and lesbians
>>41570404But everyone else is so violent towards us and makes it hard to survive financially if that indelible thing is known.
>>41570404i don't want that for myself. it feels like the moment i fully accept this truth i will have an overwhelming urge to die. I don't want to be different from women
in the wider span of things 2024-2025 is horrifically bad to be trans but 2010-2025 is actually quite incredible all things considered. the societal reaction and gaze you see now was always an inevitability once we reached a certain tipping point. its dialectical and i do think thats demonstrable
>>41570413u need to find cis women who actually see you as as a woman no different from them and will talk to you at length about this. it may seem incredibly difficult but it is possible. lesbians and black/brown women have been incredibly kind in my experience. obviously there are terfs in both groups but all of humanity is a coin flip lol
>>41570413well too fucking bad, cis women don't get forced to look like men if they have bad genetics or start a medication too old
>>41570425well tbf some cis woman do look like men and movies/books have made fun of this for decades
>>41569955lmfao take ur meds>>41570209ahhh I wish I could figure out what each one of those videos in the bg are
>>41570424there are few things more healing than you being able to be dysphoric and sob in the way you can with trans women with other cis women and them not minding or seeing it as unfeminine. to be a woman is to perform
>>41570430fair enough, I am just mad because>wah wah people don't seem me as a woman once they find out im a trannynigga I wish I looked like a woman
>>41570412There is a big gap between being stealth in this self-suffocating way that drives women to despair and crisis von the one hand and being out to people with whom you are close (meaning part of life is getting close with at least some people, I.e., not hiding who you really are)>>41570413>I don't want to be different from women>from women>womenthe problem is you don’t recognize yourself as a woman so being stealth means living with this oppressive secretIf you could just realize you ARE a woman, i.e., that trans women Oat least some, by whatever means of discriminating) are women, including you, then the sentence would be>I don't want to be different from cis women>from cis women>cis womenand while that is still an issue to work through, at least it is something that you can actually work through
>>41570439youre moid ensouled. the other manmoders complain about it in their thread respectfully
>>41570444we are one and the same, i just have a bigger skeleton than you and grew up in redneck town so I have to be ugly and you don't have to be ugly
>>41570460Spread close up YESS
>>41570424they don't exist. I'm convinced they don't. Each and every cis person i have ever met (and i pay attention) when they end up talking about trans people has some sort of subconscious subdivider happening where trans women are women adjacent but not the same thing. Because the human mind will always autofill cis and bio females as the baseline for "women." Even people who i've known as allies show through their language that they make a distinction. Markedly, I remember two years ago when i was open about being trans, a coworker told me on the first day she met me she was "unsure if i was just a really tall woman or if i was trans." Until that point I had known her to be 100% supportive of trans people. She thinks of trans women as women. But there's a subtle distinction which is revealed through how she talks, where they are still different categories even if related. I am absolutely convinced these people you are thinking of do not exist
>>41570458i dont deny we're one and the same!! i also dont think youre very cool for commenting unnecessarily when she's just sharing her thoughts like everyone else on this site and honestly a lot more politely than most
>>41570460trip on kaliaura
>>41570465idk girl theyre few and far between. i totally understand u feeling the way u do. i did for a longggg time. this is really all i can recommend you. even a few cisf friends who care about you on text and are willing to chat with you regularly make a huge difference. you need to be able to place your being trans into a broader context of femininity without this horror and shame
Nick when are you getting back together with Mono?
>>41570466well sometimes the answer to things is "tough shit", I can't say anything nice because the answer isn't nice
>>41570440I know trans and cis women are both women. I know. I see myself as a woman, or at least I want to. I think I do. The reason i used that language is because that is how normal people think of it. The word "women" implicitly is meant to be referring to biological females who were born and raised in that context. When people want to include trans women, they'll say "and trans people" or even say "women and trans women." A lot of people only say "cis women" as a mental synonym for "woman -- normal / real." When I say I don't want to be different from women, it is not a reflection of my subconscious but rather an intentional decision because I am referring to the physical and original definition of a woman. I wanted to have been born female, or at least have a truly female body and social experience from that point onward, not try and just get close and remain separate.
>>41570498socially, you did have a different experience growing up which is a permanent divider imo
>>41570486Does mono even want a 40 year old cheating whore? She should just be beta bux for some 18 year old young shit.
what's a good horror manga
>>41570498ok but this like like tranny 101 lol. u dont get to be cis. you can pass. you can get srs. you can surround yourself with loving cis women who see you as a woman and dont actually care that youre not cis even if you worry about it forever less and less each day. you can marry a man. you can move to a different country or really do anything else to affirm your idea of being a woman and disregard this difference which hopefully will come to be less of a stain both societally and internally
>>41570506this
>>41570537i think typing this out made me realize why i come on this site. it inspires me to keep going honestly even though there's some of the worst people in existence here too. i also get to see some of the very cool lives u girls live and dream about my own and see your problems and maybe even help u a little.
>>41570537i've only gotten this far because i tricked myself int othinking it might be okay if it did but now it's been long enough in the other camp that it might have just been doomed from the start. I dont fucking know im just gonna wait to kill myself until a bit post ffs and if my outlook is no different then i'll probably do it. i've got a couple more years to figure this out i guess and ir eally hope i do because sincerely, i do not want to die. i want to live
>>41570566> i want to live i know nona. me too :(
>>41570566you will be fine, i hate my life too and i probably need ffs but theres better things to it than what gender you technically are. I think your about as much woman as anyone else here, and maybe that's not saying much but its who you are and its just the right amount of woman god wanted you to be
>>41569426is this doug? why not just say who you are? it's hard to know who a totally anonymous poster is, especially when they vaguepost and won't actually sayidk who I would've taken for granite, doug is like the only person bc I stopped talking to him after eating disorder recovery bc he encouraged the anorexia and I had to stop talking with him or I may have relapsed. or ginger Sophie? they really didn't like that I could be critical of transgender orthodoxy, it's not that I took them for granted I just can't not think what I thinkif you say who you are then I could apologize but it's impossible otherwise>inb4 oh you don't remember so it's proof you took me for grantedI've been here for so long it's hard for me to remember every single person I was on good terms with, of you're willing to you are not nomi then idk what the issue is with saying who you are, unless you're actually nomi and just saying you're not to get me to interact. he certainly would say the things you're saying, at least
>>41570588i just want to be normal
>>41570594talking to infertile women has helped me a lot personally :( they are very nice and understanding and relate to the feeling
>>41570594You are normal, being trans is nothing bad.
>>41570591cut the nazi yapping
>>41570411I think you’re right about this, I think straight men are already warming up quite a bit to the idea of dating trans women because trans women are women (sexy, smart, cool, funny, feminine, desirable women)And then there is also the issue of how trans women will react to this
>>41570606cut your jugular
>>41570610no ty
>>41570594youre probably a very pretty girl irl. please just find people who will stay to hold you and tell you nice things irl. its all we can do. i dont really think this century is the best time ever for humans even if you're cis lol. plenty of them mightve wanted kids in a different world
>>41570609>trans women are women (sexy, smart, cool, funny, feminine, desirable women)
>>41570618my friend is a tranny and i think she is very cute and cool and smart and funny and feminine (idk about desirable bc we're just friends)
>>41570465Let me tell you something, normies don’t think about things in terms of trans women and cis women. They just think of women or not women (men). So yeah, sometimes that comes across as trans women are not seen as “real women: by normies, but I think that will change in the coming years generally — and I know some people already think this way.
>>41570625billions must become cute skinny twinkhons
>>41570134>>41570162I see thanks
>>41570615im fairly ugly but i look female so i can accept it. i think i will die alone because im straight and asexual and every man i ever date eventually expects something sexual from me and i just hate it . nobody will ever be there to hold me, and i will never be content with my body or place in society. this is my lot in life, and i will either suffer to the end or i'll cut it short myself.
>>41570623dont take this the wrong way but are you on the spectrum?
goodnight nona(s) it was lovely chatting but it is very late where i am and i have work in 5 hours. i wish you the best of luck with ur shitty tranny lives and i do think i have been inspired a lot tonight
>>41570641yeah very much lol. i think a lot of people on 4chan at 3am are though
>>41570631>twinkhonsSo this is a good example, because some people use the word twinkhons disparagingly to emphasize manliness. And other people use the term in a complimentary way to mean attractive people like Hunter Schafer.But I think what it really means is pass as a trans woman. That is, to be considered a woman who is trans — not a man larping as a woman on the one hand or a stealth passer on the other hand; but rather someone who is passes as a woman just not as a cis woman.Being pretty (attractive in a feminine way) certainly helps, but I am 100% convinced it is not required.
>>41570653that's fair. i wish your attitude was more common lol. i assumed you were being sarcastic
>>41570661i dont know if i can ever pass but maybe i can look like not a man, i dont know why i hate this so much im not even bad at being a man its fucking retarded. A few months ago I was just happy that I could be a nonpassing tranny to get any femininity at all but now I feel like all the passoids are laughing at me and all the chuds are cheering my failure on and I don't know how to cope with that so good, im probably just paranoid
>>41570676maybe i could pass, every time i get like this for a few days the reason its joever seems to be different so i think i might just be delusional
>>41570676the passing to obtain is passing as a woman specifically as a trans woman>>41570687yeah it’s dysphoria, I believe
>>41570696cool, i feel better now i just needed to get that out of me so i can focus on this motherfucking test tommorow shiiiiit
BRUH
my boobs hurt does this mean i should stop trying to lose weight and fatmaxx instead
>>41570758could be cancer
>>41570763it's not a tumor
>>41570817NO go to horny jail (chasergen)
>>41570745don't u get tired of being a complete loser and wasting hours and hours of your time when you could be doing literally anything else
>>41570834Despite these very words written from your fingertips, not once did you ever stop to self-reflect or see the irony of it all. Truly astounding
>>41570834OH the lack of self awareness my LORD
>>41570871I mean I come here to chat and such. I'm not obsessive like this freak https://archiveofsins.com/lgbt/search/image/g55VS6dPQtxbVfJYL9_psw/
>>41570890when you are not a toxic piece of shit you are the most boring, unfunny, uninteresting poster that can be you literally don’t have a single quality and yet you keep running that ugly and disgusting mouth of yours why are you still even alive fr
>>41570894when have I been toxic? lol your whole premise begins with a lie
>>41570890>i'm not obsessed>links archiveofsinsuh huh
>>41570930lol you're mentally ill, nothing can be done for youjust keep going, you will never have friends or anything meaningful anyway
>>41570938I mean...I have friends
>>41570932https://youtu.be/LpNVf8sczqU
>>41570962LOL
>>41570890>about 30 times in a year>obsessivekinda a good point tholike if it was a grudge u could say ok maybe they will post it 10 times or maybe 15 but mostly at the start showing someone posts so much in a year or over an average of once a month for so long is like yeh u win the argumentnothing else anybody posts matters compared to the stats tbqh
i like fpd i like the games they post about and their life updates. i like fpd in the way i like parrot because they clearly care about something more than this inane chamber built to house the students of anarchism https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lo9CPTHTxm4
fpd is like if mado was not on crack i think. if they'd organize and live to their ideals (who knows if they actually do!) i'd like them 10x more too. i think the anti fpd stuff is bizarre because even if it's blobby they have good intentions and an obviously good soul
>>41571536yeah those are both me i wasn't really trying to hide it lol. is this paige. fpd is interesting because if you actually read their posts its clearly different than how you all talk about it so its like there's some kind of giant cognitive dissonance
>>41571605i read your post multiple times and it doesn't make sense at all and frankly you should try reading some tolstoy or something because i have no idea what you're talking about and even his lenin-style run-on sentences are more understandable than whatever point you just tried to make
it's okay though i don't blame you everybody who posts here regularly enough to know What The Fuck Is Going On is probably not okay so i hope you get a hug or something
oh actually hey on the topic i think you'd like a channel called "CCK philosophy" he put out a great one about soviet architecture in Lithuania recently that was both informative and interesting
>>41571658>CCKCadaverous Charlie Kirk?
>>41571723that's right anon
new thread when
you guys ever put fingers in ur butthole? feels kinda nice!
>>41571799man you are really really upset and terrible at hiding it
>>41571787not inside, but I press against it and a little before it. when I was a kid I used to wipe really aggressively bc it felt so good to have that pounding feeling hitting the prostate, but I didn't know that's what was happening. sometimes I'd do it in public and say I was scratching my buttI was such a fucking retard
>>41571837that was my 1st post here today, but it's super obv how big mad you are lol
Ugh need a boyfriend to take me on a date to applebees ughugh then takes me back to his place and takes my bussy to gapplebees ughughugh
>>41571858not lying and tbqh didn't even comprehend your posts / back and forth with other anon. it's just p funny to me when i spot seethers trying to hide their seethe (poorly) :)
lmao even the janny knew how big big mad he was hahahahaha that's hillarious!
le sigh I missed the book signings this past weekend because of being in hospital
>>41571891what does that even mean tho...>>41571975true, never get upset, just wasted energy ngl>>41571999aw I'm sorry to hear that, hope ur doing better now tbqh
>>41572109MEANS I WANT TO BE TAKEN TO POUND TOUND I'M JUST A TRANNYCAT IN HEAT OVER HERE
>>41572418scandalous! how do ppl meet other ppl seriously these days???asking for a friend tbqh
>>41570661no there’s a very big difference between a troon feminine enough that nobody cares she doesn’t pass, and a woman who actually passes
>>41570669i mean i had some weirder opinions a year or two ago lol my buddy trooning out and becoming a normal chick really made me rethink a lot of stuff. she is very cute and normal now which i didnt expect
>>41572797you should date her
