Have you ever had the perfect person in your who actually treats you how youve alwats wanted and despite being nothing but sweet and loving you still self sabatoged it all and are now completely alone because youre a filthy coward?I miss her :[
>>41550845I'm sorry.
>>41550845There was one person that treated me exactly how I wanted to be treated and liked everything about me the way I wanted to be liked, but he didn't love me. I loved him, but he only wanted some kinky sex from me. He married a cis girl and I've been left never meeting another person like him. Instead I get weak and lonely and I say yes to people who love me even though I don't really love them and then I hurt them.
>>41550845yeah. dont think i will find anyone that will treat me the same. honestly might become a loner. im still sorry for what i did.
>>41550845No I haven't, but I had someone who was at least better than all the others. I still miss her too.
>>41550845yes i dont think i'll ever forgive myself for treating them so absentmindedly i want to die
>>41550845>>41552045>>41552079>>41552603first time?
now imagine how it felt on the receiving end.
>>41552792and the last. i dont think i can handle another situation like this one.
>>41552792No, I'm almost 40. It will probably be the last time. Though I have been getting hit on by more young men with mommy issues. Maybe we can break each others hearts.
>>41552821i have been on both ends with the same person. i dont know why they did that. they're probably wondering why i acted the way i did too. whatever lol. only if i was competent enough, then we couldve actually stayed together
I'm too ugly to be bpd
>>41552917YOU DON'T FUCKING PASS
>>41550845can u ever trust a bpdemon? any success stories of taming one
>>41550845YupVow never to do it againGet in therapy. Emdr, dbt, whatever it takes. Practice, practice, practice. Learn about your attachment style and how to with with yourself and others. Learn the difference between independence and isolatoon. Interdependence and codependence. You can undo the damage to your synapses and learn how to love and be loved. When good love comes your way again. Which it probably will. Aim to be someone who can make a lover feel just as safe and loved as you wish to feel. Learn what makes them feel safe. Learn what makes them feel secure. Learn how to feel and regulate your emotions. Learn some of the science behind how your nervous system responds to all this stuff. There's a lot to learn basically.But if you do. I can guarantee you. Whatever life throws at you, you'll be happier. It's worth the effort.
