i have no gay friends to talk about this but im a closeted "straight man" and i just auditioned for Rupaul's Drag Race. Now they are asking me to send in a tape with me cross-dressing wearing AT LEAST 10 outfits.I've only done drag like 2 times for halloween but since halloween just passed i managed to get 20 different wigs for like $2 and i have a bunch of random fabric i've bought over the years. I think i can learn to sew in a day or 2 but whats stressing me out is I need to make 10 dresses at least and wear 10 different makeup looks and i only have until the 16th of this month.what's more stressful is i live with my family and the only privacy i have is late at night when everyone is asleep but i didnt realize how smelly makeup was so i always have to open the window to let the makeup fumes out and i have to always whisper or speak softly or have the TV on as background noise to not wake up anyone. Should i just get a hotel room and film my tape there?
i dont have any real friends either in real life only online so i cant go anywhere and have someone help me film it. I was considering going to a gay bar and just filming in the parking lot but i've never cross-dressed in public. I also still have to find shoes that fit, im thinking getting at least 3 pairs and then just covering them in fabric sleeves for the different looks, but i know women shoes make a lot of noise so i cant wear them at home unless i skip work and have the house to myself. I have size 12 feet so its almost impossible to find women's shoes at thrift stores the biggest ive found there is size 11 which is a men's 9. I could probably find some on amazon but the few i've seen that are men's size are like $60 each and i work minimum wage i can barely afford my car payment.All in all this is very stressful and i have no idea why im so obsessed with this, its completely taken over me the past few days, i've already spent like $400 on makeup and wigs/fabric. I've also been wanting to buy a breastplate but theyre expensive maybe i just need to buy a bra and stuff it.i know theres thousands of drag queens auditioning who are openly out with supportive friends and family helping them, who actually perform on stage and have amazing costumes and im just a neet loser with so many anxieties and mental problems but for some reason im really proud of this little dream i have to someday be on stage openly being myself.Its going to be tough but imagine they pick me instead of all the thousands of professional drag queens that have been sending in their tapes for years... that would be hilarious lol
>>41562589the tape has to be 7 minutes long talking about myself and showing my looks plus 2 UNEDITED lipsyncs to rupaul's songs.both songs are like 3min long so i have to be lipsyncing and dancing for an extra 6 minutes.I dont know where i can do that and actually make it look interesting, it has to be outside or somewhere i can move around, i cant do it at home i have no privacy and i dont have any friends where i can do it in their backyard. I'm wondering if i can convince someone on Grindr to let me do it at their place, but alot of gay men arent really into drag so idk how i would get ready and wear my makeup and wig/dress to get there.maybe i can just get a hotel room, but it would be lame to do the lipsync in a hotel room, thats why im thinking maybe the gay bar parking lot, though it will be very embarrassing i've never actually performed lolThere's also a sex club i used to frequent and you can pretty much do anything there, i've seen a lot of trans girls there sucking dick in the gloryhole area and they have a dancefloor, maybe i can do during the week when its mostly empty and just do my lipsync there, its private and its deserted during the week during the day and it would look cool in a video like a nightclub.
i just saw some audition tapes from some of the past contestants and apparently you can use the same makeup for some of the looks, just gotta change your wig and costumeso this might be easier than i thought, i could probably do 5 looks with the same face, then change the eyeshadow color and do 5 more and the next day do another 5 with another mug
>>41563085it's not happening dude you need an atelie
