sup lgbti am at a bit of a crossroads in my life and i want advice + a little bit of a place to ventim a 22 year old tranny. i have a 23 year old ftm bf. on paper, he is perfect. he treats me like a lady. takes care of me, pays for everything (even my healthcare,) does all the opens-doors-for-you, orders-for-you stuff, everything. I don't pass very well yet (3 years hrt), but he helps me with girl stuff when he can and supports me in every way I could need. He buys me new girl clothes, makeup, and protects me when I'm scared to wear it out. He, on the other hand, passes extremely well and has been stealth for almost 8 years. He's shorter than me by a bit, but I couldn't care less. He is just such a boy/young man. He loves me, so much. I love him. I love sex with him for the most part. We're both switches so PIV is fun for us, and easy. He straps me when I want it, and is actually really good at it. He indulges me in my stupid degen fantasies. He goes to the same college as me, and is from a city I've always dreamed of living in. His parents own property there, so if we move there after school, we can live rent free. Its perfect. Really perfect.I just sort of am... bored? This feels like the easy, safe route. I'm 22. I shouldn't be taking the safe route. I should be having fun, moving fast and breaking things. Experiencing shit. Part of me misses what it was like before him. I kinda miss random hookups, walking out of their house in the middle of the night or morning, getting coffee from 7-11, sitting in the city, taking it all in. I know the before-times were bad. I had bad, terrible hookups. I got raped. I was unsupported. Uncared for. Lonely. No one to go on adventures, or trips. No one to buy me food, or clothes, or hormones. I love him, he's everything I could want. But...
You will hate me for this but I miss being with other trans girls. Its a really special thing, having that connection with someone whose been through exactly what you've been through, even if you're strangers.. My roommate (also a trans girl) brings over trannies sometimes and they're all so cute. I long for these people carnally but I know we wouldn't in a million years be as compatible together as me and my boyfriend. But I still long for it? How soft other girls are..how they feel...laying in bed giggling together. We are open to threesomes, and he's expressed interest in having one of my tgirl friends join us, but I don't think its sex I want. Maybe it is? Maybe I just miss cock? Sucking it sure as hell is alot more fun than eating pussy...Sometimes I think I long for a cis girl, or a cis man. But then I think about it and realize being with a cis woman would make me jealous and she'd want me to be the man. For cis men..I'm scared of them, and grossed out by them. But it sometimes would be really nice for someone bigger and taller and rougher than me to just take control. But then I see cis men in the world and I am disgusted. Plus then I'd have to bottom...I dont really know what to do. I don't think I'll ever break up with him. Its a nice life. But im angsty.
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>>41569906Great song
>>41569762Dumb womanbrain trying to make you fuck up a good thing
>>41572295i think your right
>>41569762will you regret losing him more than your freedom? he does sound perfect but you're youngshit. there's a lot of fun to find out there but fun is easy, finding and maintaining love is hard. I wish I'd fucked around more when I was younger but I also thought I was in love and that made it worth it. you need to do what will make you happiest in ten years time. but part of that is factoring in how happy you'll be both without him, but also with the knowledge that you hurt him to get some dick.food luck either way, nonnie
>>41569762>>41569777if i knew my partner was talking about me like this, or viewed our relationship this way, i'd want to break up.be honest with him so at least you aren't being disingenuous towards him.
>>4157240519 is not a youngshit. he is though
>>41569762well you soulpass at least, all women are basically whores who wanna sleep around and get rapedjust break up with him and ruin your life so you can go get raped by some 6'2 ogrehon, you clearly aren't good enough for him anyway
Someone post that pic of the lady who slept with superman and she's sitting on the bedside asking herself "is this the best I can find?"OP is a retardDO NOT TALK TO YOUR BF ABOUT BRINGING OTHERS IN THE RELATIONSHIP YOULL RUIN EVERYTHING
