After months of hormone replacement therapy and extreme weight loss, I believe that I am beginning to lose my ability to accurately perceive myself. Do people still see me as a man? Am I feminine? Am I some peculiar, third thing? I am no longer certain. When I speak to a stranger over a phone or microphone, I am a woman. When I meet a stranger in person, I become a man. When I ask people I know well which I am more like, consensus is split; some believe I am distinctly, and perhaps irreparably, masculine. Others believe I am quite feminine. This schism has cultivated a deep disruption in my self-perception that I struggle to manage. What is the difference between a "boymoder" and a "manmoder?" How can I tell? And more importantly, how can others tell? I am not certain of much, but I am sure that I do not "pass" at all; my in-person malefails are infrequent and quite rare. If I were to "girlmode" as I am now, I may be perceived as a "hon." Nonetheless, I would like to be certain.
>>41572234You are 100% mentally retarded. Good lord bro. Get help
>>41572234They probably see you as a little sissy, maybe even a very cute little sissy, possibly with a tiny adorable clitty, although that last part is just speculation.
>>41572234You are a man who is pretending to be a woman. Thats it. Its not that deep nigga
>>41572234>When I ask people I know well which I am more like,you out yourself>Others believe I am quite feminine.they're called hugboxers
>>41572672>you out yourselfOnly to a handful of people, none of whom know or speak to each other.>they're called hugboxersThat's what I suspect, but it's complicated because on top of my dysphoria, I have struggled with dysmorphia in the past.
>>41572234I guarantee people dont think you are quite feminine. People will lie to trannies to avoid weird conversations or try to build up confidence that feeds into the tranny delusions. It actually hurts a lot more than it helps
>>41572752This is kinda what I was thinking, but I wasn't sure. Thanks, anon.
>>41572652>>41572657holy repper
