pensive victory editionprev: >>41631026qott: have you won lately anon? does winning even matter? are we born with a randomly predetermined number of wins and losses, fulfilling them through fate and not our own effort..? qott 2: do u beweive in aliens :3
>>416457291: i believe in determinism and my bf come over yesterday so ig thats winning2: yeah but because of the sheer size of the universe well never meet them. earth is a closed system imo
>>41645783Did he rape your little sissy hole? Your sissy booty? Did his being go inside of your boypussy????
>>41645813ok bro what
>>41645829Did he put his penis in your boypussy?
>>41645835yes
>>41645840Did it feel good?
>>41645848yeah :>
>>41645857Did it make your little clitty come?
>>41645858not awnsering that (yes)
>>41645865>>41645858ok but did you eat his ass?
For fucks sake... SHEEN! You can just eat, I don't know... A fucking apple? A glass of water? WEIRD idea! And I know already, now you're going to sad post "boo hoo, nobody likes me because I've had" - no, nobody likes you because you FUCKING DON'T IMPROVE ONE. FUCKING. BIT.Ever since I've been here in 8 fucking years when my life went to shit, and I crawled out of the gutter over and over again, you have been here eating shit all the time, putting your fucking money towards a fucking graphics card. Because you know, that's exactly what you need right now. A fucking graphics card to sit more on your fucking ass and play fucking video all day. While shoving fucking burgers down your fucking hole. Right? Fuck.I'm trying to like you, quit making it impossible. Please. Like a fucking clockwork. Sheen, nobody is fucking angry at you for posting about fucking foods. People are angry at you for wasting money on graphics cards, video games. Fast food. A car, as I've been recently told. Instead of you selling the car, getting some fucking vegetables. Eating your fucking veggies, drinking some fucking water for once in your life (without added sugar I might add) And I don't know sell your fucking car get a fucking bike.Like, yes, you are depressed. Wow. 90% of us are fucking depressed. 90% of us have some fucking mental issue we deal with. Yes, we are here to support you. But you don't want support. You just want a fucking pity party. About poor old fat sheen. Who will never be liked. Nigga You look like a fucking middle aged woman. And you do fuck all with it. It's infuriating, it is sadOh, and I'm not done yet. Sheen. We've been over this for like, how many years? Like fuck? I've been fucking pre op. I had a fucking dick when you started posting here. And what changed? What did you do in all those years? Fucking nothing.You did nothing. Despite people constantly offering you help, offering you advice, constantly offering you to do shit for you and WITH you.
>>41646707That will depend of your opinion on ass eating nona
>>41645729>qottI'm in a state in which I can't tell if the things that happen are wins or losses>qott2Believe in the sense that they exist somewhere, yes, mathematically plausible. Believe in the sense that we'll ever interact with them, noBut if aliens were real, and wins were possible, I'd wake up as a girl tomorrow, with the correct bodyparts
>>41645729My bf is inviting me to Thanksgiving to meet his family so we'll see if that's a win or if I get knife murdered. And I think life is pretty much gambling you can put yourself out there or be a pussy loser
>>41647111Make sure to thicken up that sissy gyatt before you go to thanksgiving, you want them to be impressed.
I've realised I'm not actually into degradation or masochism. I just feel like I need to project this image of always being slutty and horny when having sex, no matter how uncomfortable I actually feel.
>>41647209Very good, anon! Have more self-respect and go look for some proper lovemaking.
>>41647209Vanilla is hot af and it makes adding just little hitting or choking once in a while actually feel exciting. Having a full bdsm sex life is kinda boring having done it, which leads you to increasingly fucked shit. And at least for me ruined my self esteem and led to my ex "legally" cheating on me
for me it's not having sex. that is so cool to me. love that
>>41647832can you just leave please
Which phone and laptop do I buy to pass as a woman in tech choices? Unironically.
am i allowed to wear mom jeans without a uterus or ovaries or a female soul or
>>41648351android and an x220 haha just kidding you need an iphone
>>41648365What about a laptop?>iphoneIs it actually true or is it just a stereotype
>>41645729>QottWon an electionDon't think there is a karma system, would love there one to be tho>qottThe existing kind, yesThe visiting kind, no
>>41648376well how old are you
>>4164848120s, why?
>>41648686do your part and have sex (lol HAHA)
>>41645729>qottI've won recently, I got to the semi-final of a negotiation competition at my law school. I don't think there's any reason to believe it but I believe that you kinda run out of perfect for a given amount of time. >qott2No I don't believe in aliens. I mean if they existed it would be cool but I tend to adopt a we are the first account of the fermi paradox.
>>41648686>In 1900 white population of world was 36%, today it is 8%. How did it get this basedFify yw yw
I just realized I don't want to get on HRT to become a woman. I'm also not AGP. It's because I want to be like Sonic.He's very direct and confident while still being cute and having a bit of a soft side. I'm already very direct and I'm very confident whenever I present femme. I also feel like I'm pretty soft and sensitive, in a good way, whenever I really put my mind to it. The only thing is I'm going to be hitting twink death in a couple years. I will no longer be cute. I see a future where I look like Eggman (fat and balding) and I don't want to be that. It feels like a huge mismatch between looks and personality that makes me uncomfortable.Is this a valid reason to start HRT or am I schizophrenic?
>>41648892Schizo.
>>41645729>qottMatter of definition>qott 2Yes, 3i-Atlas is DEFINITELY aylmaos
good afternoon>>41646347Be nice to sheen, she was always very nice to me>>41648892I mean, if it gives you the results you want, who cares if other people think it's valid or not?>>41645729QOTT1: I am simultaneously winning and losing at the same timeQOTT2: Yes but I don't think they're near us
>>41648943Good evening, how was your day
how many hours a day is too many hours to be thinking about penis?
>>41648979it's 1pm all I've done today is wake up and go to psychiatryI feel a little chopped today hoodiemaxxing but it's cold and cozy
>>41649034well you should probably sleep for at least 6
>>41649093Ohh that's p nice tbqhShould get a shrink again at some point>hoodie I love itRly wish we had them as part of our uniform
>>41645729what was this girl's disability exactly? BPD?
>>41649103nah I stealth pass irl I'm chillingalso I don't care about validation or insults go ahead>>41649111Yeah I have a psychiatrist, a therapist, and a doctor and some other help because I'm an autistic spergTy, I love hoodies too, it's entering The Cold Zone in Wisconsin a little so I'm bundling up
>>41648351iPhone and MacBook
>>41649201I barely have time for a doctor lmaoBased a f tho tbqh>bundling upYeah our uniforms are worthless in the coldNot like we work a bunch outside lmao
It’s way too calm.....
https://youtu.be/6OHMcLVNoEg
it's not too late to say sorryit's not too late to say i regret hurting youit's not too late to say i still love youit's not too late to say it's not too late
normal pills
>>41649682what do you know about normal
>>41649682thank you lexapro
taking my abnormal pills
>>41649884wish I had benzos I need to dissociate
>>41649869my penis smells really really good today
>>41649906did i miss any good drama??
>>41649980this nigga thinks he's not embarrassing himself lying that no cap lil nyggi i know the truth cope and sneed
>>41650036>this lying bozo is still shitting and pissing himselfSNEEEEEEEEEEEEED
>>41649933you don't have to announce your arrival
>>41650237>shit and piss still flying everywherethis nigga big mad fr bruh
when I hear other trans girls voices I get either turned on or extremely jealouswhen I hear my voice I literally want to DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE even if other people like itwtf
>>41650352i sound like a man which is funny because i am one
>>41650352I used to have a deep bass voice for like a couple years and it gave me massive dysphoria, so once I got on HRT I just practiced singing in my car for years, first with lower range men's vocals like Alice in Chains then I worked my way up to tenor vocalists like Muse, then relaxed from that a bit until it sounded like a register I could use as a natural voice. You have many years to mold and temper your voice even after puberty.
holy shit my dick is so bruised fuck
tlf
>>41651291mine always feels masculine :(
>>41651568you are doing a heckin transphobia to me >_<
Had FFS 2 and a half months ago and I regret it so much. I lost so much hair from shock loss and my hair was perfect before, it was my pride and joy. Now there's a visible missing patch on the top of my head and a worrying amount of hair is gone from behind behind my ears where the hairline incisions end. I can cover it up at least but I'm freaking out. It's like 11 weeks out from surgery and I can't tell if it's even growing back at all. I feel like a monster now, way worse off than I was before the surgery. I can't find anyone else online who's had hair loss like this post surgery. I don't think I can do this. Waiting is agony and I'm still shedding too.
>>41648686You're a self-castrating white so your feelings on this are less than useless
"if you're not happy alone you won't be happy with someone else" is gigacope created by the eternally unloved
>>41651212He looks so British what a total cutie pie
>>41652036hmmmm ive spent most of my adult life in relationships and a good chunk of the problems could have been avoided if i had better self-esteem and less anxiety.if i had those things i probably would have spent a lot less time in relationships though.
>>41652036agreeI'm only happy with someone else, and that's okay
Good evening, fellow trans ladies.
>>41653157that's what makes our man boners hard though luv, mimicking the girlies
>>41653167i haven't had a boner in 3 months
>>41653177want mine? It gets hard daily, nightly, and noonly
>>41653195no thanks you gay sissy retard
>>41653211You're a woman tho so it's not gay. It's straight anal sex now, as long as our balls don't kiss lol
>>41653228you have balls???
>>41653302um yes. is that unusual?
I fucked like 4 different chasers and a puppy girl at a hentai convention in houston like three weeks ago and I've had a cold ever since, do I have fucking aids or something?? I thought it would be pretty safe seeing as only sexless losers would go to such a thing
>>41653304yeah that's weird
Well instead of killing myself Ive given into cutting myself. They feel distracting through the day instead of thinking of suicide. Doc just wanted to throw more pills at me after i had a mental break down last week. I dont know what im doing with my life anymore. So no I dont think im winning. And theres aliens we just aint seen them yet. But can they even make it to us? Or answer our broadcasts? Will they hear us and think we are just another sound of the cosmos?
>>41653591>theres aliens we just aint seen them yetme when ICE asks me to snitch
>>41645729I'm tired from repressing.I will go from being a depressed suicidal autistic moid to being a depressed suicidal autistic transbian. Still a gynephile because unfortunately that illness is incurable...Whatever. The chances of me not killing myself in less than 10 years are slim. I might as well at least try this before leaving this rotten body.
>>41653675never rep never moid
Sometimes I wish i was a soft ethereal beautiful trans girl instead of a disgusting ugly flabby dickless manlet, one can dream tho
>>41653733you are beautiful!
>>41653742Thank you, you too. (:
>>41653733kiss me
I'm dying, but that's fine, got stronger meds tbqhwho will die first, me or thread, nobody knows, taking bets ngl fr fr tbqh
>>41653875Fucking zoomer text
>>41653908ayy lmao tru fr fr ngl tbqhyet some would say it's an improvement over how I used to type ngl>>41653915shush stop being so angry at everone, life is no so bad chill lmao
So what do ya’ll think of shallow stuck up cvnty hypergamous cis foids? Opinions? And also cis jocks?
is it over
>>41653974total cis death
>>41653994i look like this
>>41653994It’s never over because Dan loves you!!
so like I just figured out while in slight pain and discomfort... what really matters is like the portion of ur life that u spent as a woman, woman identity or mail fail or w/e ppl call it these daysso like how old will u be when u have lived as a woman for the majority of ur life???so like someone that passes and lives as a woman at 15 it will be 30, and for someone at 35 it will be like 70 lmao>>41653974no opinions, I don't think about it, I got not brains tbqh>>41653994wait what's over? what happened?>>41654033who or what is dan???
>>41654058I'm 30 and trans'd at 25, feels like life didn't start until thenalso it was just a joke with the kitten image, dork
>>41654058>who or what is dan?Who is Daniel Howell? Well, he’s more of a idea than man. He’s beauty, but not the loud kind.Not the kind that shouts for attention,but the kind that *happens to you* —softly, unexpectedly, like a sigh that turns into a smile.There’s a sort of quiet magic in his face, angles that shouldn’t be gentle, yet are,eyes that hold both storm clouds and starlight,a smile that feels like the sun breaking through sarcasm.His cuteness isn’t polished; it’s *earned*.It lives in the way he laughs at himself,in the way his awkwardness becomes art,in the way he tries to downplay what everyone else can see that kind of radiant, human warmththat makes you want to laugh and cry at the same time.Daniel Howell’s beauty isn’t about perfection, it’s about honesty wearing a hoodie,kindness hidden behind a witty grimace,and the strange, irresistible glowof someone who’s real enough to hurtand still brave enough to make it beautiful.
>>41654058>so like someone that passes and lives as a woman at 15 it will be 30, and for someone at 35 it will be like 70 lmaowhy you gotta post this Shit
>>41653974Besides incels.is. What other insane websites are you looking at?
>>41654083oh yeh I'm kinda out of itso like 50 is not a bag age imho, like as long as u have years left before retirement ngl>>41654093oooohhh okay not really my type... but I see...do u like watching dramas??I like dramas like hatsukoi and tokyo tareba musume>>41654099yeh like the existential dread of thinking will I make it until I have lived the majority of my life as a womanlike u can't die before that or it was never real u know?have to keep struggling on to get that checkpoint ngl
>>41654157Ooooh good question. Lots of conspiracy websites, effedupmovies, old geocities websites, newsgrounds, i dont use tor tho cause the cia invented that and sometimes looksmax.org. Do you have any recs?
>>41654182I feel like I stealth passed around 27 or 28, maybe more 28
>>41654058Your ability to say things that make people feel bad in roundabout ways is very endearing. Never change, Kira.
>>41654186I know I recently found a agora road and trashcan.XYZ. Lost the right wing YouTube alternatives I was watching during Covid and now my list is full of dead links
okay someone recommend me a good and recent jdorama I haven't seen yet...>>41654221oh yeh, but I figure anything before the age of retirement is good for some reasonbut like if someone transitions at 60 ... they will probs never have lived past that halfway point y'know... it's interesting to think about iunno...>>41654327awww ty anon but waaahh.... ty or sorry that happened ig??>>41654248true
>>41654368I'm a housewife so I'm retired already
>>41654374a wife the size of a house haha just kidding
>>41654380I'll work harder losing weight just for you anon
>>41654383no don't i like fat women
>out of prog>call GP>puts it on my insurance cardBlessed
>>41654374waow that's really cool ngllike finding someone that wants to build a life together, like that sounds really special mhmI was never lucky at love, my doctor told me not to date opportunists that just want to use and manipulate me, but that sort of narrows my dating pool down to nobody lmao
>>41654385I'm 260lbs but it's distributed well in an hourglass figure with a fat ass thankfullya lot of people like my body, but I still want to lose 100 more lbs. I've lost 60 so far.>>41654398I have a lot of diagnosis like anemia and health issues and autism and I dropped out at 15 with lots of life issues and stuff so I get neetbux, can usually cover enough to take care of myself, state benefits cover groceries and I've never seen a medical bill- I can be a stay at home loving partner on government assistance. It's not so bad. Working on myself.I've met multiple people that accept my issues and lifestyle, but my last like 3 relationships I met on discord
>>41654425>'ve lost 60 so far.well where did you last have it
>>41654438stomach mostly, help
>>41654440put it back
>>41654397waow nice, mine only gave me painkillers incase I start vomiting from painhow are u??>>41654425ohhh I see, but that's not bad, right??I'm also losing weight and dropped out and have health issues, well mine are mostly related to and comorbid w/ my immune system issuesu seem very nice and relatable ngl
>>41654478Ahh fuck, what's the issue>how are youFeels weird to be the elected womens right rep in my union other than that I managed to sleep well tonight
>>41654425>260lbssorry how tf tall are you
SEEEEEEEEX ;___;
Hey....how yall doing tonight? Anybody know of there still a half Asian half white mtf that posted here and in random passgens from 2017-2019 ?
>>41655232Oh yeah, was he that little sissy with the tiny clitty?
>>41655291I mean.....yeah it was small lol.>>41655215 Posted in passgen as well cause she used to post there too. Just drunk and reminiscing on a time where I met one of yall and legit met some1 awesome.
she wants me dead and she wants me assets
>>41655315god i hate people who leave their houses so fucking much
>>41655405?????
ive been drinking milk by the pint, i feel so girly
>>41655472Real shitI made myself a cup of coffee with my own milkGodly brew
>>41655478its well good. but im struggling to afford more milk because nobody is buying the big issue from me, everyone in my town hates me and my landlord has kicked me out with 3 black lads who took all me stuff and cash converters have all me other assets and wont give it back because i owe them 700 pounds because i gave them me assets for a loan but i lost all me money in skegness and my landlord kicked me out and i cant get a new home because nobodsy buys the big issue from me and i have no more assets
>>41655503What
>>41655578me landlord has taken all me assets and that because he wanted me evicted but i couldnt do anything because ive been really poorly with me bowles and that and had a big surgery but me landlord evicted me and 3 black lads stole all me assets and that and i lost all me oney from cash converters because nobody in my town will buy me big issue and i gave them me assets for 700 pounds but i cant get me assets back and jodie left me for someone else and that but i dont have a home because ive been evicted by me landlord and that because i dont have enough money and i cant buy anymore milk and that so i wont be able to feel girly anymore
I'm a transbian with a need to dominate
They took the L and finally fucked off?
You can't unrape the raped.You fucking ruined her life.
I feel sorry for the person who's going to get involved in this
i sold a big issue but spent all the money on a black pearl scratcher and that but i lost the londis guy is keepiong all the winning scratch cards and that but i cant do anything because i dont ave any more money because i dont sell enough big issues and that and jodie wants to bvreak up with me and that because she wants a man with a bigger rodney and that but i cant do anything because ive been evicted and all me assets were stolen by 3 black lads because me landlord evicted me because i dont have any money because the guy at londis keeps all the winning scratch cards for himself and i spent all me money from selling big issues on loosing scratch cards and that and i dont have any money
>>41656408Can't be as bad as jerking your "girl" penis to scat pictures, mmm?
>>41654058linear time fallacyage 0-20 are worth more than the next 80 combined as far as socialization goes
>mtf>complete autist>BA in fucking music>wanted to go to jobcorp out of hs but parents made me go to college, didn’t care about the major>recently estranged from family>fired from 2 jobs in the past 3 months under mysterious circumstances with no explanation >no real job skills, negative social skillshow do I get a job that pays enough for me to not die? I’m getting scared, anons
>>41657097have you considered buying black pearls and selling big issues and that , sell some assets to cash converters and that
>>41654504yeh just poor health, story of my life ngl>>41656791I haven't said anything about periods of critical development, what are u talking about, that's a whole other discussion fallacy lmaocalm down w/ the fallacies!!! citation needed?!?! lmao>>41656983it's normal, ppl overdo everything here, fixate too much... but as long as it's not like lilith or crystal or w/e it's fine>>41657097sorry anon, maybe ask ppl u know are local??? otherwise u might need to move iunno
>>41657139>yeh just poor health, story of my life ngl:( sorry to hear if you need an ambo just give me a call an I'll weewoo over
>>41657139move where? with what money? I’m about to run out
>>41657191awww ty just pick me up and hook me up to the iv w/ painkillers tbqh>>41657273real answer is iunno where u are or other factors so it's not like I could give a good answer>>41657287must be expensive ngl
>>41657300I got something better, it's a pipe that you smoke and it makes you high a ffunniest medication we have tbqh
>>41657424what's your brain feel like
>>41657340Hello, I hope you're doing well!I'm 30 years old, on HRT for almost three years, and 176-177 cm tall.I weighed 187 lbs a year ago. So I starved myself and cycled to get my body back on track, and I lost a lot of weight. On the right is my weight 4 months ago, 136 lbs, 2 years and 6 months into HRT, and on the left is now 152 lbs, 2 years and 10 months into HRT.I don't know if I should continue eating a lot to strengthen my thighs, or if, paradoxically, it makes me look more masculine? Since I have broad shoulders, I'm not sure.I'd like your advice on this (I also tend to bloat quickly, especially my stomach...). I'm afraid of gaining belly fat again and getting a "dad bod" like I had a year and a half into HRT (I don't know why I was gaining feminine fat and then my upper body started to bloat).Thank you so much! Sorry for my English.
>>41657436Sry misslick on >>41657340 didn't want answer
>>41657340you ever hit one in the back of the ambo
>>41657457nah, if the patient is too high to exhale into the pipe we get hight too, hypothetically that happened a few times
>>41657462omg
What's it called when you absolutely do not pass, manmode, yet your ""straight"" bros keep making you compliments, inviting you out to restaurants where they insist on paying, keep touching you, etc.I think these guys are not straight at all are they??
>>41657547they just want their dick sucked anon
>>41657675okay but when or how do they announce this to me??
>>41657688while they're making you watch a wes anderson movie or something
>>41657764But how do I go from eating at a restaurant together to his bed?? Sorry I'm really not good at dating.
>>41657774usually in my experience by car or busor if its a reasonable distance, by foot
>>41657825>Stop being autistic, just go along with whatever happens. That's it.:(
I wish a nigga would
I forgot this was a thing lmao
I feel like this place used to be one of the only spaces on the internet for transhets, and now it's completely overrun by the most annoying type of transbian
>>416581303 niggas came and took all me assets when me landlord evicted me because i dont have any money because i lost it all in skegness and because nobody buys me big issue and that
Is it possible to be horny from just estrogen? I have a really high libido lately and it has me worried. I even added cypro on top of my monotherapy again and I'm still horny
>>41658594'overrun' when it's like 1/50th of how active it used to bethey all went to discord/twitter or got lives
>>41658633Being horny is normal. Women are horny. Chill the fuck out and save your brain from further rot
>overrun>literal ghost townlol
>>41658594well, they were always annoying, but that doesn't mean that hets are less annoying here, every weird rapey green text story thread proves that tbqhthe only thing that used to distinguish this place is that there were a lot of ppl living a real life, and now most seem to be living in their head or w/eI also found that ppl throw around 'annoying' and 'boring' a lot more to just describe anyone or anything not relevant to them or they dislike for any weird reason, making them both annoying and boring themselves so ymmv
good morning>>416549985'9" / 175cm, like I said, it's thankfully distributed well, people never guess I'm the weight I am- idk>>41654478Thank you, yeah it's not so bad
>>41658655I think you both need to shut the fuck up, but that's just my 2 cents.
>>41658733You can come hang out with me in real life if you'd like, we can go to the beach even, I have a nice swimsuit
>>41658679Please explain how this is agp?>>41658668I'm not used to it anymore, I was on pills for years and was practically asexual on those. It makes me uncomfortable
>>41658712not judging but what causes ppl to be like this ngl4chan or internet or where they grew up?
>>41658751>4chan or internet or where they grew up?neither its retardation
>>41658712aaah why is the tie so short and why is the shirt not properly tucked? ackshually awful
>>41658765I'm on season 3 episode 12 of the sopranos, good show so far. Watching it with a friend who put me on
>>41658712Is that that Nazi girl that used to post here? Paige I think? Lmao
>>41658820You rang?
>>41658765listen!!! I don't want ppl to hate me for being mean and judgemental again lmaoevery time I try to be nice, they keep pulling me back in...>>41658788I binged it a while ago for similar reasons, it's okay I guessI need more 90s tv to look up and binge tbqh
>>41658788its great , ive almost finished it but its taken me like 2 years to watch it all. pretty much forgotten earlier seasons at this point x.x>>41658855>need more 90s tvive been watching star trek voyager a lot when im going to bed, great show to fall asleep to
>>41658712is that a boyscout uniform
>>41645729>qottno, I guess not,freewill is guaranteed by God for as long as we're strayed from Edenbut luck is very real or at least as real as probably which is to say notbut influences of the divine and unholy sway outcomes which appears like luckso no predetermination but you could essentially be unlucky enough to seemingly never succeed >qottyes! yes! yes!but they won't look like people and likely won't have complex socializing and communication
>>41658918In a way it actually is
>>41658855I fw it, I like slower shows sometimes, and I like how it's getting more psychological over time>>41658911Yeah I get that- my memory is horrible>>41658820Yes, she was around last time I was around here (3-5yr)>>41658898Did you use lubricant? If it hurts at all put more on. Also make sure to test different angles, and make sure it's not a cheap super hard plastic toy or something.
>>41658848
>>41658947in what way, as specifically as you can manage
>>41658971In a way, the Hitler youth was the equivalent of the boy scouts in Germany at the time
Looking forward to a brand new day unjeetifying code tomorrow, I LOVE MY JOB
>>41659009Do they actually code like that?
>>41659020no that's just zoomers
>>41658961Didn't you say you left forever every day this week?
I have my first full body laser hair removal session coming up. How much pain am I going to be in coming out of that?
>>41658961I have never done the Mr house ending in new Vegas in 700 hours of playing since 2010. Dude always repulsed me
>>41659084Not enough
>>41659059Next crash in; 3days.
>>41658911oh yeh, I started watching twin peaks a while ago but never finished it, I think there is something kinda weird and cozy to 90s stuff iunno>>41658950yeh, I want to try house md too, but it's just too much thosome shows work with a lot of episodes, but iunno>>41659084waow probs less than face right???
>>41659009why do they be coding like that tho fr ;-;
>>41659134People keep trying to get me to watch House but it seems really predictable/samey throughout so idkHouse as a character seems neat/funny I suppose that's why
>>41659134Most of season 2 of twin peaks is just unbearable unfortunately. Fire walk with me is goated though and makes it worth sitting through all of it
can you please take your tripfag back. she's posting pictures of herself on /ic/ now instead of here and flooding the thread
>>41659134Surprisingly, full body includes face. I thought for sure that would be a separate procedure>>41659149Oh dear.
>>41659195no tag backs
>>41659209"Marina" she's been posting pictures of herself in the beginner general
trying not to explode myself with my mind
>>41645729i lose every day that i gain another 10 pounds on my journey to being a fat unattractive fuck
>>41659222his real name is pedro btw
>>41659156yeh exactly, like i would watch for the character drama of how a doctor guy develops over time or w/e but iunno if I want to watch like 50 episodes of guess the diagnosis each season to get there...>>41659187waow, okay I might get back to it then ...>>41659197ohh neat, I guess ur just starting then, well like sensitive areas and thin skin to bone areas will probs hurt the mostcan't really see how lasering fatty legs will hurt much, but maybe around the joints and def the lips???
>>41659243>ohh neat, I guess ur just starting thenIn every way lol, I realized I was trans in September and started HRT last month
>>41659306ohh i see, obligatory advice of leave this place and only come back when ur stable and confident again tbqh
i have 3 microscope cameras i just bought 2 more i need to sell them
took my mom to see a film at an art school theater and this was deadass the trailer playing when we walked inhttps://youtu.be/jXT8ZKZboCQ
>>41659328Oh yeah I have much healthier places to talk about this stuff now. I just like to drop in occasionally to see how everyone's brainworms are doing.
this place kinda sucks as usualhow've you all been?
>>41659246>its actually really goodHe's such a smug little bitch, thinking he knows better than everyone else when he's turned himself into beef jerky to hide in a refrigerator for 200 years. Also, these days he's even more tainted to me because he reminds me of elon. I have never been able to see any reason to choose him over anyone but the legion
>>41659020>>41659035so many of them do, they are by far the most inept group of people in this field. its only made worse when you give them access to ai , i honestly have no clue why my company employs so many of them>>41659134twin peaks is so good. its one of the shows i like to throw on in the background when im doing stuff , so comfy >>41659421atleast its slightly active now, eu hrs are even worse
>>41659419Holy shit I didn't expect to see you here still
>>41659419That movie was great, be grateful they weren't playing the trailer for part 2
>>41659289true, I figure it's just the other anon that hates her, but iunno why she can't let her just exist somewhere else in peace>>41659420good! my brainworms are okay, but honestly at this point in my life it's more related to my health and feeling worthless cos of that lmao>>41659421trueI'm alive hru???>>41659444wow, good endorsement then, any other recs???
>>41659444This is EU hours
>>41659444way more slop tho>>41659512also alive if barelyi miss my wife tyhru?
>>41659515let the 12 stars guide the way
>>41659512Oh man, I had a good run there after I accepted I was trans where I was feeling optimistic and hopeful for the first time ever, making positive moves for my own future. And then got hit by a big unrelated family emergency and had a miniature panic attack.I'm trying to spin a cocoon to become a beautiful butterfly over here, I shouldn't have to deal with regular life crises at the same time! It's not fair!
>>41659540
>>41659498castration movie is W faps?>>41659465I'm only here to harass and bully transgender people
>>41659727No idea what that means, I likes the movie though
>>41659749yes
>>41659749no
>>41659536my organs are failing me, what can u do tbqh>>41659558oh no, sounds awful, just don't lose focus or stagnateeasier said than done but that's life>>41659615don't resist it, let the 12 golden stars in the sky guide ur heart, become a fire drunk daughter of elysium, one world, one union, one global europahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wssFOFrXqNs
>>41659958I mean, she didn't flood threads with those old looking pics herself, right? so who are u trying to convince?
>>41659959What's wrong with your organs?
>>41659959sorry to hear, hits close to home desu </3
pls be nice to legoober
>>41659986She posted pictures of herself in the thread under catbox links, which is a big no no on /ic/
>>41660147just breaking down I guess, years of 'free' doctors telling me that my levels are not great but not to worry, or do more tests that are inconclusivenow it's causing painful internal problems>>41660161awww yeh, sorry to hear that for u too, thanks for the support friend>>41660189okay just sounds more like ur eagerly announcing it to even a casual observerif she's really just doing stuff against the rules then report it and move on ig??otherwise u see how it could make u seem a lil obsessive
>>41660385are you being nice to gooner bc u heard she dates old skinwalkers
>>41660612does she? iunno how u remotely get to that conclusion tho lmao
>>41659727>I'm only here to harass and bully transgender peopleSame I supposeIt's nice seeing you again after all these years and I hope you're doing well
I've made alternative plans, and I think I'll be able to save my careerwe're back on schedule...also should I talk to one of my old stalkers??? seems like they might have had good careers so maybe one of them can take care of me ngl
>>41660385is oki, its less me and more my gf which makes it a different kind of painfulstay safe <3
>>41661070awww ty pill pup anon, hope ur gf gets well soon mhm
>>41661102hopefully, shamefully its not really something that can be cured or gotten over but her condition has improved a lot since it got diagnosedim just glad that things are looking upI miss her desu
>>41661070bro who tf is on 60mg of prozac, 100mg of lamictal and 400mg of seroquel lmao couldnt be me
People who flirt a ton and then hit you with the "Erm... I think we should just stay friends" are the worst
>>41661282I'm only slightly crying
who is umaruchan and why does she act like that? is she really an old boomer?
>>41661344yeh basically true and real
>>41661043>should I talk to one of my old stalkers???are they men?I don't fuck around with creepy men anymore learnt my lesson violence is common and nowhere near the worst thing that will happenI was talking with my mom and her experiences seem to be pretty similar trust the ick
>>41645729>qottlosing a lot. losing hard I guess. I don't believe in determinism. generally feeling like a total and utter failure because I'm doing very poorly academically. I think I need to go to therapy and ask a shrink if there's anything legitimately wrong with my head (apart from being transgender) from all the trauma>qott 2yeah aliens are fun to think aboutit's been a long time since I came on here and it's probably for the best, website just tanks my mood despite how much i like the place. I'll hit 2 years HRT in just about 96 days. I'm happy I haven't killed myself. I've gone to uni for almost three years now and I still haven't made any friends. it's really embarassing. turning 21 was scary, I'm still very young but I feel like I've been wasting my life. I picked up art very recently, I want to prove to myself that I can be good at something, I've been mediocre or worse in everything, i don't expect to get good quickly, it'll probably take me something like a decade or more.
If u want ur gummy worm sucked by a dude hit me up
>>41661822>pussydevourer>wants someone with a cock
>>41661822I want my dick worshipped
>>41661794Kat why do you keep larping like you're some kind of edgy villainess top on the hunt for fresh young girls. Deep down you are 100% a faggot bottom who constantly has neurotic bottom meltdowns in the thread, fantasizes about being raped, wants to get fucked in the ass and throat. While also getting pushed around by creepy masculine rapehons like mono.
>>41661889lmao
https://youtu.be/hNzIDhEfOr0?si=B8aRI2wwEyBD2TN8>it's been 10 years since I heard that songSides
>>41661414it's cool, I just think 'guess what my thread enemy is up to in some random thread on another board' has kinda weird energy to it nglhope u can see what I mean iunno>>41661435yeh I probs would not contact the one that said he wanted to murder me to preserve a perfect memory of mebut iunno, how about the one that said my mind is necessary to rebuild society after the apocalypse and he will not let me die???>I was talking with my mom and her experiences seem to be pretty similar>trust the icktrue tholike he was young and says he got better so iunno...>>41661822waow what a keeper
>>41662094>like he was young and says he got better so iunno...I hope this kind of stuff works but I know it shouldn't
>>41662110like in his last message he likened his obsession to the saga of denko lmaosome of these messages are kinda long tho, changed his life, he thinks about me often, wants to get rich and become useful to me yadda yadda, but I never replied to any of them since after like 2013 or w/e
:pleading-face: pls do once ur here....
>>41662161Oh if he's been talking to you for 12 years with no response then maybe don't. Not even I'm that mentally ill
I wanna date someone like me but people like me don't go outside ;(
>>41662180yeh lmao... but what if... like to be fair a lot of his more recent ones say he hopes I'm still alive, won't believe I'm ded, and even tho I'm probs ded or long gone he just wants to send his feelings out into the voidlike waow ppl don't talk to me like that anymore lmao
brap
>>41662238that's disgusting lia
>>41662187hey
>>41662234Oh I feel that. I would do that too if I wasn't dumb enough to purge her accounts. Maybe I'm more mentally ill than I realise
>>41662285yeh and I guess I'm kinda also just bored ngllike what is the worst that could happen, some rich guy turns up at my door w/ a weapon??? oooohhh so scared lmaowhat's he going to do? kill me twice? lmao
check out how big this resistor is
>>41662311Would be pretty funny if he hoped you weren't dead so he could do the deed himself
>>41662161>>41662094How do I make a man obsess over me for 12 years?
>>41662283hey... are you autistic about rpgs too
>>41662312waow what is it...>>41662328>>41662328honestly tho, if he arrives when I'm having pain spasms I would welcome it, after i throw up all over him tho>>41662335just like destroy something they like, be a lil interesting, tell them to clean their room, get a job, go to school and work hard to achieve stuff iunno
>>41662403>just like destroy something they like, be a lil interesting, tell them to clean their room, get a job, go to school and work hard to achieve stuff iunnoIf this is true then I hope my 6 years don't turn in to 12
>>41662418oh no anon...
>>41662266no use fighting your nature ykwim
chat do yall ever actually forget?I've been doing this shit for 4 years, and stealth for this past year.but while i get on fine with cis coworkers i avoid queer topics like the plague so i dont have to think ab it. i hate acknowleging that im a tranny.can i make myself forget?
>>41662499idk senpai i dont pass
>>41662479all I do is fight my nature tho>>41662499yes and no, u can forget and then news or ppl remind u and then it pulls u back inbut I guess like u stop caring in the same way like it becomes more of an intellectual exercise or aesthetic cultural thing, like it's there but feels distant???like 'oh right those are trans ppl and trans culture interesting'
>>41662553yeah how do you get to that space where fucking someone mentioning 'gender' or 'unisex' or whatever doesbt feel like a threat anymore
>>41662449I'll just kms at 11 years so it won't get to that
>>41662594like uh... hmm... uh... and the... um.... yeh ...>>41662631noooooooooo but what if she responds in the 12th year?!?!?!?!it could happen, right?
>>41662649I don't think I'm drunk enough to believe that. I'll just try my final shot because honestly I should've moved on years ago as I suspect she did
>>41662718I guess, but hopefully u can find someone else that fills ur heart or something iunno
>>41662746There's nobody that could replace her. I'll just stick with substance abuse and escapismI appreciate the sentiment tho
>>41662797I would've said obsessed but this sounds more romantic
>>41662820anon needs to cool it all loves are special none are rare
https://youtu.be/iOT_zuDHvVk
>>41662783awww, well there are all sorts of opportunities, and really others filling that space in ur heart is really just opening up to see things with fresh eyes>>41662797one for the crossword puzzles fr fr>>41662859https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDMCwSP5nf0don't u ever wonder about how like it's always the ones longing that are like... not finding each other or something???like they could long for each other, but they're doing it in parallel mhm
>>41662887i am p dumb thats true>love doesn't need to be pathologizedright but limerence is :p>>41662902waste of time ngl real shame smhh
>>41662356yes kind of
>>41662920huh fascinating>>41662928yeh, they could be making a life together, if only someone would arrange their pairing up, it would be way more efficient ngl
>>41662972thats not what the definition says fren
>>41662963that's nice...damn I have no game
>>41663007damn sounds like the kinda love that garages get driven into over
>>41663007and i dont want to take that away from you i just think you deserve reciprocation
Need alcoholic gf
>>41662833Only one was real though
I miss her
>>41663100out of how many
sometimes I think about that tho, like basically everyone could technically find someone to be withit's really just that they don't want to be with who is available to be withbut ppl could also choose to always be together
>>41663171people could chose to always be together but they dont especially when it comes to me cant even make friends
>>41663149Idk probably like 8 people where it was serious enough. All my relationships or attempts all ended with them just using me for the time being. She was the only one that genuinely saw me as a person, I think so at least>>41663164No
>>41663180sure it does, like wouldn't that also be an expression of love??'I have meh feelings, but I choose to be there with u thru everything and never betray u'like waow, but I only ever know ppl that say really intense stuff and are flaky after, zzzz boring>>41663189true, I think the hedonism explanation is kinda how it probs is tho'but it feeeeeels good to try different experiences' is real miss piggy brained ngl lmao
>>41659419wait castration movie is a real thing? i keep hearing about it but never looked it up
>>41663268i have lowered my standards to the point where i hang out with criminals and pedophiles and even they are too good for mei must not "feel good"
>>41663320no, not at the moment, but I am talking to some ppl, but haven't really kept up with it tbqhnot that I don't think they're nice but more like just a kind of apathy and distracted by health crisis after health crisis lmaosometimes I just think like, what if u just keep in touch with someone forever and like always just be there to chit chat for like.. 80 years or w/e... and not just friendship, like some more intimate connection and trustgive me that over passionate love tbqh>>41663324ehhh, I can't really comment on that, but ppl really find ways to get themselves into a rut and then can't get outbut it's not really about them, but like... they get stuck in a local maxima I guess iunno
>>41663146Who
Marry me umary
>>41663486libby
how do i woman
>>41663578If youve always been a woman just do you right?if you're like me and you wished you were a girl youre shit out of luck and will always be a boy possibly even a man if you made it that far
>>41663610no i mean like, how do i womanthanks
>>41663619as i said you either are or you aint
>>41663651leave me alone weirdo
>>41663656k i will leave you alone anon i will never reply to you againjust remember you are or you aint
>>41663674you aint
>>41663772ik im a creepy weirdo obsessed with a dead girl from my childhood that i was friends withhow about you be honest toocus you aint either
>>41663837i'm the dead girl >_<
>>41663843erin was so pretty and kind to me she let me sit with her and her group of girl friends for a year and a bit until my mum showed her parents a letter i wrote to god about wanting to be a girl after that i just stalked her from afar until she passed i should have died young instead of her my life has been a waste of everyones time
I have 10 days off and extreme depression and not on hrt and in 30s what shall I do on my vacation
>>41663875oh umi'm sorry your mom did that to you. you're not a waste of everyone's time!>>41663882get on hrt PUSSY FAGGOT
>>41663888I can't due to schizo
>>41663949why would that matter
do you work out?
>>41664103i work out at the library
>>41664596>>41664596>>41664596