Guys I think T is finally kicking in and is destroying the rest of my brain. Been on if for a bit more than 2 years and the last few months have been a mental spiral. I'm fine with my brain getting rewired, except that there's been a problem :x I've begun developing a very specific kink and I can't get it out of my head.What's weird is that I just can't find it online for some reason. It seems quite logical though.Basically it's humiliation... for *not* having a penis. Not "sph" not about having a "t-dick", it's about not having a dick.Like I get off on the thought of not being able to penetrate people. Or them laughing because I can't. Like they laught at my vagoo and call me impotent :(How do I deal with it? Like I need more :( I'm lost and feel ashamed.
>>41674055What if you got a t4t gf and fucked her with a strapon while she just seemed kind of bored and just jerked you off while admitting that a strap isn't the same and that it's just so disappointing that you can't actually dick her down.
>>41674055Nothing has made me believe in the permanent gender binary more than Ftms. Your biology is inescapable, unfortunately.
>>41674102mef is a very male-specific fetish though
>>41674088It's cool and hot, but the strapon removes alot of the appeal. And I'd prefer humping men's asses because they look better and it would be more impactful in the humiliation :x
>>41674102Anon, that's because I am a man that I got this kink ;-)Also fuck you :x>>41674109So that means T is fixing me? :D
>>41674109Immasculating men is exclusively a female fetish. And OP doesn't have MEF, they have a misgendering/misogyny fetish, which is entirely for women.
>>41674055dick shrinking, detachable penis, nullo theres stuff ajacent...also hrt doesn't do anythikg and can't rewire your brain>jk estrogen/prog is totally rewiring my brain and i love it :3
>>41674231Yeah but it's too "penis-centric" and never because they have a vagina (of if they have a vagoo they treat it like it's a small penis). And they never try to mount each other. And the way they speak gives me the icks why do they have to act retarded! X(Like we get chastity sph sissy shit EMULATION, but nothing about ACTUALLY not having it >:(Not sure if I'm explaining this well.Sorry I'm frustrated :(
So uh... how do I "launch" a fetish?Asking for a friend...
Searches online..."penis envy porn">It's about comparing penis size"no penis humiliation">Did you mean "small penis humiliation"?"penis envy">Freud says that you want to have sex with the family's dogffs I can't be the only one with this particular kink in mind no? There's so much strapon femdom online and yet nowhere can I find about not being able to fuck or penetrate! x(It's probably just is the T, but I feel like, I should be happy about bottom growth but nope, my brain is like "no, focus on what you DON’T have" :x
>>41674255>ugh these sissies are too malebrained for me, i need a community for sissies with VAGINAS!ur literally just a woman
>>41674055it could be hot to have a fakemail impotently try to hump my leg with no cock just to make my cock get hard then get bent over and fucked by me
>>41674847Fuck you!>>41674861I often have a very particular fantasy of being raped, and then having my rapist mock me for not being able to rape him back because I just don't have anything between my legs, and pressing his butt on my hips and mocking me :xI think T is finally making me a man...
>>41675049>T is finally making me a man>has fantasies of being rapedthe only thing T is making you is an insane pooner while you fantasize sexually about something that is anathema to a male and can drive men to suicide. Mentally it doesn't get much more woman than that.Just find a man who can fuck your pussy hard and these thoughts will go away I promise.
>>41675081Men fantasize about being raped all the time faggot.Also male on male rape is hot and one day it will be me taking your ass <3
>>41675049OH MY GOD YOURE THAT GUYi cant remember what thread it was but i saw you talking about this and it was keeping me up last night.
>>41675147Yes and it's been keeping me up a month now :(I have to make this kink more common, there's no way nobody ever thought about it
>>41675177im like 99% sure no penis humiliation is a thing. im not on my pc rn but if i was im sure i could find it on porn sites.try harder bro you cant be the only one to have thought of this.
>>41675233I really just can't find anything :(Like even on ao3 and literotica using google with the "site:" prefix, except the occasional mention of 'not having balls' but in the courage sense and not anatomical sense. I'm getting crazy >:(I did find a reference to the lgbt board though. Google probably picked up on my previous thread...
The solution is to ERP with LLMs.
>>41675467ive never used either of those sites (my interests nichemog yours) but if you cant find it youre doing something wrong
>>41675545I'm already doing that but LLMs have a too short memory for long plays, and you kinda have to babysit them to get a realistic content.Also it's not from a real person, the impact of the humiliation is really low :(>>41675559What kind of interests? I'm curious :)
>>41675596im not talking about that on here my irls might be watching.
>>41675545Not op but which LLM? I’ve tried this scenario whit a few and they’re almost as bad at it as the cisoids I’ve tried to do this with irl. Which is a shame because like op mentioned I think half the appeal is from a flesh and bone cis person telling me I’m inadequate
>>41675602Do you know any boards or websites online I could check?Any recommendation?
>>41675643OP here, so far I've used both Chatgpt, mistal, and local ones with koboldcpp (Roccinante and other models). While it's great if you want information, it's ass because we'll, it's not real.
>>41675655i dunno. if i remember this thread later today or something and have nothing better to do i might go looking (and with my superior internet skills probably find stuff)use better search terms. i assume those sites you mentioned probably use tags or something similar.
i think you said youre googling, which is gonna be useless. use built in search features on sites.
>>41674055How does it make you feel to know that I’m playing with my penis and enjoying that you can’t?
>>41675688I've use both, with combinations of tags and raw sentences or terms in quotes, without quotes, the minus sign, the site: prefix, even asking gpt and mistral to search for me :xI did find a link to a website though:https://f95zone.to/threads/innventure-v0-8-joody14.127062/page-15but it's just a bullet point for a porn game.I'll search on f-list
>>41675723ok yea then idk maybe im wrong.you can definetly pay someone to do/write about this shit if youre desperate enough (or find someone whos into it)
>>41674055idk but thats rly hot, if only i didnt actually have a dick, gonna chop mine off and goon to this
>>41675780a match made in heaven. go talk to eachother
>>41675794no thats terrible lol, i want to be him
>>41675716Don't play with my nerves...>>41675780You don't need to cut it, once someone takes your ass it'll be the same >:)>>41675794And do what? Hump my hips on his? Hump his hips on mine?>:)
Should I make some kind of general thread for that kind of thing? Like one for humiliation for having a penis, and another for the humiliation of not having one?Is this board adapted for that kind of shit?
>>41674055> I'm fine with my brain getting rewired,If you continue to let this happen you will ruin any future happiness or contentment with yourself.
>>41676579How come?I have never felt more in line with myself and my body though.
>>41675849but that's no fun, i need to satisfy my agp, id just get actually hard and cry
>>41676702 (dickless)You don’t have a dick. Stop trying to act like you do.Continue and I'll have your cunt fucked >:)
>>41676779giwtwm
>>41676787I don't know what to say anon (nona?), because right now I'm the one doing it and I don't know what you'd like to hear x)I'd help you but it's not like we could do anything more that kisses and hugs, for ovious reasons x);)
>>41676839no it's good i'm impressed, you were good at it, sorry i cant follow up loland yeah im mtf if it wasnt obvious on tttt x)
>>41676954I don't really know how to read and get feedback from the other sideIt's not like I could see an erection telling me you're liking it XD
>>41674055>be retarded>take arnold level of steroids without working out and while eating like shit>confused when brain and body deteriorate
>>41677719Wrong thread
