>have HRT finally ,be ready to do it transition.>my partner grooms my best friend and disapears>what the fuck?>my best friend accuses me of secretly being my partner and grooming them>show them the pages of evidence>they have confirmation bias (they want to believe it despite the truth)>the convince all my friend i'm a pdf>i'm not but whatever>spend first half of the year trying to track ex partner down them down so i can get revenge for screwing me over via police >can't find them , they've disappeared >i am alone >i am isolated>decide i have nothing else to loose so might as well transition>realize i feel empty and void of emotion after this whole even and don't really care about anything anymore.wtf do i do? was i even trans to start with? i am at a weird state where i've lost everything so i have nothing not even my identity i still call myself a girl in my head but i can't bring myself to transition because i might feel again and i know i'll feel too many emotions too strongly and part of me likes this state i'm in right nowlike i know i am sick in some form but idk in what way that i am sicki feel nothing like i'm void of emotion or cares that sounds bad but its like a sort ofi have nothing to loose and i feel nothing and i care about nothing and i have nothing that i hold value to like if i lost my stuff it wouldn't matter so i have nothing i'm attached to and i erased my online identity ages ago so i have nothing attached to mei have no Job and am living off savings now it might sound bad but its weird like i'm for the first time in my life at peace. i have nothing and i am nothing and i want nothing and i am at peace
>>41675990You're a pdf file, bro? Lol sounds fake and retarded
>>41676296i'm not my ex is just a fucking prick
