> Be me > 26> Boring ass office job> Get depressed> Put into happy meds by my europoor doctor> Lose all my libido> Can't get hard anymore> Shit happens> One day online around here i find a thread about drugs> There's a tranny talking about meth> I've never done drugs, not even alcohol or ciggies> For some reason, i throw my coin and ask for her discord> She accepts> We talk for a few days> One day at night, i ask her about her addiction> I snap and jokingly tell her i'm gonna pay for meth so she smokes on camera> Silence> She agrees> I send her the money, she goes to the dealer and buys whatever> She started doing drugs on camera half naked while i masturbate for the first time in ages> Best solo orgasm of my life, but hit with instant regret> I apologize all i can, she says it's okay, that it's nothing bad and she is super grateful for it> Block herTime goes by, i still don't have libido and the only thing that seems to tickle me is to watch trannies taking drugs. I should be ashamed but i can't hide the feelings... What's wrong with me?
Nothing is wrong with you, you get off on edgy sex stuff like most people. You recognize that this situation was exploitative and morally dubious, but also hot. Perfectly normal reaction. Also you should probably not make a habit of that. Find something more socially responsible like BDSM.
Oh, also. If the SSRIs killed your libido you should mention to your doctor that you have that and it's causing you distress. Obviously, don't mention the meth part. They could try a different SSRI, or they could try a different class of antidepressants, like Bupropion. Bupropion also has some side effects but limp dick isn't one of them as far as I know.There are no psychiatric drugs that are completely free of side effects, but there is probably something out there that you'll find more tolerable in exchange for its mood improving effects.
>>41677641I don't think BDSM is going to tickle my brain the same way. I've tried, but it isn't the same for me.
>>41677668Thanks for the advice. I'm actually on my way to fully remove the meds, so i think it's gonna be okay. I don't have a partner either so i don't care much about the lose of libido
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