I have a spiritual aversion to doing/being the right thing. Among other situations in my life. I've been repping for 5 years no HRT no nothing bc of how disgusting this thing of ours is. Been trying to live my life by what people think of me but it's instead made me isolated and farther from their good graces. A lot of my newer friends are starting to realize my self hatred probably includes them as well and distancing themselves. Always wanted someone to tell me how bad things are but recently I've realized they will never get that bad and even if they do, I won't like it. So I'm giving up while I'm comfy.>you should transitionI don't want to transition>but it will make you happy!I don't want to make myself happy and I don't want to become a living joke to others>but who cares what people think!?I do>but what about right wingers! don't give into their liesI already have and will be for the rest of my life by sheer proximity to them. Who cares if they won?>but then you can find similar people to you!!I've found similar people like me and am disgusted by them, don't want to be friends with them at all. They are not good people and I can not become a good person. And anyone else will eventually reject me for who I am.>your ideology cancels itself out!exactly, which is why I'm giving up and probably ending my life within the next 5 years. >this is attention seekingwell I have no other place to talk about it so...
>>41683553By disgusting I mean AGAMP and AGP to the heart, like ultimately being trans came from paraphilias and disgusting carnal desires, ultimately these sexual paraphilias will persist in the unconscious as new fantasies, and ultimately all of reality will not live up to those fantasies. By trying to act out those fantasies I will put myself into a deeper mess than I already am in.
>>41683553bob dylan is male brain just trans u tard
>>41685051I'm a fucking man already you dumbass
