Slight context, we are both men and this entire thing takes place over approximately two and a half years. But I will try to keep it concise. I am sure I will miss some details. I will refer to the friend as Ethan. He and I remind friends until the point I say so.Ethan starting working at my grocery store job around October 2022. At first glance, I thought he was cute. He was pretty quiet, but I got this feeling he was into the same things I was (video games/anime, nerd stuff etc.) it was slow so I strike up a conversation. Turns out I was right. He likes video games, anime, etc. I was excited because all my other co-workers were okay, but I was never their friend because we just did not share any hobbies. Ethan and I grow close over the passing days and weeks. We share so much in common, same sense of humor, personality traits, world view, hobbies, etc. However, I lost my best friend of 13 years to suicide about two months before I met Ethan. Losing my best friend devastated me, honestly he was the only person in the world I cared about. I could have lived the rest of my life with him being my only friend and I would have been fine with that Ethan reminded me A LOT of my dead best friend. I was filled with a lot of negative emotion. I was very volatile, most days I felt like two different people. Sometimes I could feel it in my head the mood swing coming. Unfortunately, I directed all of this negative emotion at Ethan. I would flip out on him for the smallest things. Not returning my text message, not helping me with something at work, not asking how my day was... I would bully/tease him a lot about things. He was really into hentai(which I find disgusting) so I was harass him about it when he upset me. Honestly, it gives me a headache trying to remember all of the psychotic shit I did/said to Ethan. I remember one thing and then three more pop up. Despite all of this, Ethan and I were friends the entire time we worked together.1/?
2/?He knew about my best friend's death so I think he was cutting me some slack and putting up with me. We grow closer over the passing days. Mainly bonding over video game, we played a lot of the same games. Losing my best friend to suicide made me think if I try really hard with Ethan then he won't leave me/kill himself. So I tried REALLY hard to make Ethan like me. I took an interest in the games he played and I didn't started playing them so we could have more things to talk about, I would help him with whatever at work, financially, buy him gifts, all sorts of stuff just to let him know I was always there for him despite my frequent mental break downs. Soon we start hanging out together after work for ~10 minutes, we would sit together and just look at memes on his phone. Each day sitting closer to each other. Eventually, I started putting my head on his shoulder when we were sitting together, I did it absentmindedly, and the next day I asked Ethan if that was okay and he said yes. So after about a week of that, I start linking our arms together, again I ask if that's okay and he says yes. We start hanging out outside of work, he usually would come over to my house. We would cook lunch together, watch a movie, play video games, watch videos together, all the while my head was on his shoulder. I would go to his house and hang out there, we would go out to eat and the movies, one time we went to the park. I started catching feelings for him, but I never said anything because I didn't want to make it weird or risk losing him as a friend. But how intimate we were together grew. I started scratching his back when he were together, when he sat together he would put in leg through mine so we could sit closer together. Eventually I started rubbing his thigh and then inner thigh. All the while asking if it was okay (for consent) EVERY DAY I would ask him for his consent and he always said yes.
>>416926223/?Eventually I started rubbing the grazing the side of his dick and balls with my hand, not full on grabbing. We would hang out at my house and we fall asleep together cuddling each other while watching a movie. We took out breaks together at work. We would call each other on the days we didn't see each other at work to catch up. The time spend hanging out together after work grew to 30+ minutes (which was when I would mainly rub his inner thigh/dick) I was there to support him for any reason. Basically, we were really close and intimate with each other. Even customers at our job would be shocked/surprised if they didn't see Ethan and I together. I'm paraphrasing a lot but in summary, we were very close/intimate with each other.Now on to the beginning of the end. One Monday Ethan called off work because he wasn't feeling well. No problem, he was off on Tuesdays so after work I give him a call to make sure he is doing okay/to catch up. He is hanging out with his friend which he does every Tuesday. We are talking, then there is silence from him for a few minutes and when he gives his attention back to me he says "Sorry, I was talking to my friends."I reply "About what?""Blah blah blah and about my new girlfriend."Needless to say, I was quite shocked when I heard him say this. Given how intimate him and I were. I mean we cuddled and feel asleep together a few weeks ago while I was rubbing his boner. And the day before they started dating (the Monday he called off) I was rubbing his boner after our shift ended when we were hanging out. So we talk and he says he was uncomfortable every time I touched his dick even though I asked his consent before EVERY TIME I touched him and I always asked if he had any problems with me he needed to talk about and he always said no. I forgot to mention this earlier but he would always say I am the most beautiful/perfect person in the world. There was always a lot of flirting between him and I.
>>416928884/?We tried to remain friends. But, his new girlfriend is a walking red flag. Controlling, a liar, manipulative. Also, this girl he is dating has been mentioned ONCE the entire time I knew Ethan and this was like a year before they started dating. They never talked to each other. I know this because we were always on our phones together at work and the only person who would regularly message him were his brother or mother and occasionally his two other friends. She took his phone and blocked my number from it without his permission. She knew how intimate him and I were so she was just doing it out of jealously. She says that I raped him. She does not like that fact that I got to touch her boyfriends dick before her. Anywho, obviously I am upset over this whole ordeal because I was very attached to Ethan because he was the new focal point in my life after my best friend had died. And now that was gone so it felt like I was back to where I was when my best friend first passed. And it hurts seeing the person you love give all of this attention to someone else. We move past this, he unblocks me, we even hang out outside of work, we work things out. He's still okay with us cuddling, he still calls me the most amazing person in the world AFTER he got his girlfriend. He just says I can't touch his dick anymore. Okay, cool that's perfectly fine. But, of course this new girlfriend is controlling him. She starts restricting what him and I can/can't do. He can't come over to my house any more. We can't talk on the phone any more, we can't hang out after work any more because "she doesn't want him to." Mind you, they have only been dating for three weeks at this point. The nail in the coffin.So Ethan has been planning to move in with his two friends for months (way before he started dating this girl) which was about 40 minutes away. No problem, that's not that far. He needs to get transferred to this other store that is closer.
>>416931345/?He eventually gets the transfer,(he texted me the day he knew about it) which means that we will not be working together any more. After two and a half years of seeing each other almost every day, that's come to an end. We make plans to catch up after about a week. I'm going to paraphrase this next part to keep it short. We call each other after work, he's laughing, I'm laughing but he randomly walks off and starts talking to his friend. For like 10-15 minutes. Completely ignoring me. When he gets back I just quickly say "I don't appreciate you just walking off like that and leaving me here." Mind you I was not mad he was talking to someone else or anything like that, I was mad that he did it without informing me that he was going to talk to someone else. But he just doesn't say anything for like two mintues so I say "Are you going to say anything." and he replies 'I don't know what you want me you say." and I say "You can say anything, you can apologize. You can tell me what you two were talking about, you can continue on with our previous conversation before you walked off." He says something along the lines of "I don't really feel like I have to tell you what we were talking about." Like it was some personal thing that him and his roommate were talking about when I am pretty sure they were just talking about fried chicken. But I reply "That's fine then talk about something else." but he just doesn't say anything so I reply with a "You are starting to piss me off." And he replies "You are starting to piss me off too." and I reply "Okay, then lets work it out, lets figure out why we are both mad and fix the problem." But then he just hangs out. At first I thought it was a joke/accident so I call him back and he doesn't pick up I try several more times to no avail. I send him a text saying that I am sorry and we can try to talk some other time when we have both calmed down. I call him back next morning but it goes straight to voicemail.
>>416933396/? Which means that he blocked me. I am very upset over the prospect of losing my friend for good. A week passes with no contact from him. So I do a crazy thing and I drive to his new job to talk to him in person. He is there and we talk, and eat lunch together as we had done so many times before. And it's fine, there is of course some tension in the air given the circumstances. But, we are laughing, joking, talking about what we've been up to, how he likes his new job, etc. And when he part ways he make plans to talk. I say lets give it a week to calm down and then we can catch up. And he agrees. A week goes by and I call him, the call goes through which means he's unblocked me, but he does not answer. Okay, he's busy, I try again in a week.A new week, I call no answer...a new week, I call no answer... I try once a week for about a month and nothing. I am confused because why even unblock me if you are just going to ignore the calls? I just wanted my friend back. I am confused about a lot of things. Why spend all of that time with me just to throw it away. If me touching his dick made him uncomfortable why did he put himself in the situation to let it happen so many times? He knew what was going to happen when we sat together after work. Why not say no when I asked for his consent EVERY TIME before I touched him?
>>416935167/7I asked him so many times if everything was okay and if there are any problems he has that he needs to talk to me about. He always said no. Maybe I'm partly to blame, maybe I didn't make it easy to talk to me, but I wish he would have tried. I regret the way I acted toward him. Looking back I realize that the way I treated him with my mental breakdowns early on into our relationship probably put a wedge between us that only grew bigger and bigger the more it happened. I hate myself for letting my grief control me and ruin my friendship with one of the greatest people I have ever met. I hate him for not trying to talk to me about the problems we had so we could fix them and him holding onto them until they completely destroyed our relationship. It's been five months since we have last spoken. I still think about him every day. I still miss him like crazy. I would give anything just to talk to him one last time.
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>>41693889TLDRA guy did a lot of intimate things with me, but then got a gf out of no where and let our two year friendship fall apart shortly after.
