I am beyond lonely and touch starved. I feel disgusting even tough everyone says i look good. The things I love are not hitting anymore and even the people that I love are barely ever reaching out to me. I have no future I work a dead end job and I doubt I'll ever be truly happy. I'm trying everything I can to feel happiness but nothing works, it all loops back to sadness and misery. Who would miss me? My twitter followers? My twitch viewers? My friends? I doubt any one of them would care much beyond an "oh my god thats so sad!" I just want to know what I did to deserve this? Why do I have to be this mentally ill, incompetent, skill-less, friend-less loser who can't be happy no matter what? I am so tired of this. The worst thing is if I do kill myself people will think I did it because I regretted transitioning. Which I don't but I wonder if things would be simpler. Maybe I'd be able to make friends, just maybe.
try heroin
>>41693089drugs dont make me happy they just numb the pain sometimes, but even when im high as shit on substances i can feel my heart being in emotional pain
>>41693070tbhon sounds like you need a transbian gf to give you lots of love
>The worst thing is if I do kill myself people will think I did it because I regretted transitioningthis is the only thing holding me back at this point. but also bc i have literally nobody in my life im starting to think, would it even matter if some people believe that? why should it stop me?
>>41693248are you pretty anon? do you at least try to beautify yourself or attempt to become a better person?
are u by any chance 26 and from spain
Any transbian has endless options for fellow hons
same desu, feels like im just a loser resented by my parents for turning out this way. i just try to be as nice as i can, maintain my own peace of mind, and find my pleasures where i can.
>>41694127Nta but you're creepy.
>>41693070u got it
>>41694127this is me
>>41697504nta, your body is a nice shape so you have to work on your personality
>>41693129fear of being raped, or being accused of rape for things that arent rape are the two fears that prevent this.
>>41693070>My twitter followers? My twitch viewers?we've got a microceleb in thereI have same problem honestly, how are you going to notify them of your sui?>>41697504is this bait? roping cuz I will never look like that if not
>>41697541no, its mostly looks. i dont live in the us so all the pretty girls are kind of locked away from me
>>41697585i dont even really care abt announcing it desu also it is me lol
>>41697593iktf. everyone over there getting insurance covered full body feminisation.
>>41697601ohh, u must be some kinda bpd twitter microceleb then>>41697593I moved to north america thru great struggle but can't hang out with pretty girls anyway because I'll never look like one
>>41697616when you say pretty girls do you mean the gigapassoid model ones, or the cute twinkhon ones? since the latter should be accessible.
>>41697639>cute twinkhonthis>should be accessibleI dont have 5figs for FFS and even if I did, there's no surgery to fix body or autism
>>41697790many twinkhons were in your situation (autism and needing ffs) i would like to think they wouldn't cut you out for being poorer. i hear a lot of meangirl stuff goes on in america so i dont know.
>>41697819im not even in america we dont have free ffs, especially for fucking immigrants>needing ffsthey have people who care about them enough to pay for it
>>41693070I am beyond lonely and touch starved. I feel disgusting even tough everyone says i look good. The things I love are not hitting anymore and even the people that I love are barely ever reaching out to me. I have no future I work a dead end job and I doubt I'll ever be truly happy. I'm trying everything I can to feel happiness but nothing works, it all loops back to sadness and misery. Who would miss me? My friends? I doubt any one of them would care much beyond an "oh my god thats so sad!" I just want to know what I did to deserve this? Why do I have to be this mentally ill, incompetent, skill-less, friend-less loser who can't be happy no matter what? I am so tired of this. .
>>41697504Be mine
