I really feel like I have thoroughly ruined my life and I am struggling to not countenance suicide as a valid and permanent answer to my profound and permanent pain right now and I have some rudimentary but comprehensively fatal plans in mind. I am a deeply defeated person emotionally and my life has been wrought with failure and humiliation and trauma and I feel empty and I don't feel attached to life anymore. I want to leave. I want to leave but I want my parents to know that it was my fault not theirs. I just didn't have the genetic fortitude against my childhood environment and it ruined me. I feel truly alone and I don't think anyone is really out there to listen. I'm laying in the dark watching a computer pretend to understand me because I don't want to call crisis counselors anymore and I hurt people too much when I tell them about my pain. Past the days of light, death feels as incumbent to me as does rain down a roof as it flows by gravity's grace, and I will leave my life knowing that some people will never recover from my suicide but I simply cannot bear a multivalent nightmare that feels like this anymore. Mom and Dad I am not strong enough. I love you and I'm not sure if I ever learned what love was. Goodbye and let there be better children to be loved.Dream on, child of changeThrow your javelin through the sunPierce the heart of everyoneThough we push to slave the daysThis is not realityThis is just formalityThe cup is only being filledFor the chance to have it spilledFlowing just like the daysSailing just like the daysFlowing just like the daysSailing just like the daysFlowing just like the daysSailing just like the daysFlowing just like the daysSailing just like the days.
>>41696679It’ll hurt less in the morning. Drink something hot if you can.
This histrionic prose has the residue of cluster B all over it
what person rejected you op , ;^)
>>41699075im rejecting myself
