I will forever despise myself for being a repper in my teen years. I know im not in my 20, early midshit still. But fucking hell. Im now damn well into masculinization, and i was just scrolling on my ohone gallery, and holy fuck, did that image from like 2 years ago flashbang me. You know in recent days i kinda coped saying that i basically masculinized through quarantine cuz i grew like 8 inches taller so it was kinda always over (I thought). But fucking hell, that image, me 2 years ago, same hips but my upper body nowhere near the linebacker i am now, my shoulders were basically less broad than my hips. If I had the same long hair i do now id actually have malefailed then, and if I knew about DIY instead of believing sneedhons on reddit Id be a passoid. I swear this image has just now irreversably damahed me. I really thought that those last few years, I was always cooked because of that quarantine growth spurt. But oh well, surely repping in the most critical times of growth isnt that bad, right? I am genuinely a lowlife subhuman retard for this.
i repped until 21 and three years later im still in mourning
The worst part for me is that i was in an enviroment that wouldve supported me probably. It was all me beung a dumbass + unrelated traumatic events that made me rep until late teen years where i am now
Nvm it was the camera. It was really over for me ever since I was 14. Still, I HAD A FUCKING GENDER THERAPIST CONSULTATION AT 13, I WAS ON THE PERFECT PATH TO BEING YOUNGSHIT!!! THEN MY LIFE HIT ME WITH UNWARNED TRAUMATIC EVENTS THAT DID IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE TO MY PSYCHE
>>41705309I repped until nearly 36. Turns out im a luckshit. It hurts how much of my youth I could have spent like this.
>>41706090Dont make me cope, dont give me any fucking hopefuel I deserve to rot in my misery and slip further into drug abuse. Im not even making it to your age before I either rope or die of an overdose (could both be accudental or on purpose). Ive already probably lived well over half of my lifetime by now
>>41705309>Actually fucking tweaking rn>look inside>vacuous complaint threadSorry your rich parents didn't fund your transition when you were 16 but you don't need to clog up the board over it.
>> 41706090How does one even make it to 36 repping the whole time? Repping is literally the worst form of torture that a human being can put themselved through alone
>>41706160Mfer it wasnt funding, it was literally because I was such a dumb retard thats all
>>41706169Millennials are just built different
>>41706197When i say its over, I mean it, 6'0 now, v shaped body and the cooked hairline of my male relatives is setting in with me already
>>41706133Anon don't waste your life like that. I regret the fuck out of the years I spent being an alcoholic and later a stoner. Just get on HRT and give it a solid 2 years before you even start to evaluate it for effectiveness.
>>41706233Fair point. If I keep up itll only get worse than it is. My face is the only thing that somewhat salvages me right now. And I cant let ym family MPB gene accelerate
>>41706197>>41706218And if you started transition now (assuming you're in your mid-20s) you'd still look fine after like 5 years. Better than letting your own mistakes from the past haunt your future (while making it everybody else's problem)
>>41706213Fr fr, suffering was normal because I had always lived with it, and have doomed myself so I always will.
>>41706233Alcoholic and stoner took years? I speedran that shit before evn being 18 lol
>>41706252This mindset killed me. It was so normal i soent my most valuable years still questioning if i was even sure about being trans. Even though being male has never guven me one ounce of joy while I wanted to be a girl since age 12
>>41706169>How does one even make it to 36 repping the whole time?By convincing yourself that dealing with this will be worse than continuing to rep. The devil you know and all that. Remember, millennials grew up in a world where trannies were either sissy boomers, deranged sex workers, or self mutilating psychos. It was easy to frame the tranny thoughts as just another bad impulse, like telling your boss off, kicking a cop in the nuts, or going out an emergency exit door. >Repping is literally the worst form of torture that a human being can put themselved through aloneIt really fucked up my personality. I went from being pretty outgoing and friendly to only able to live by myself. I think I have PTSD or something like that from it, because I can not relate to normal trannies either in the same way soldiers can't deal with civilians when they come home.
>>41706244You also don't know how much your body will change. Like I had a ton of muscle around my torso and abdomen. With that reduced I look completely different.
>>41706253I didn't touch alcohol until I was 19, or weed until I was 23. I became a stoner at 25 when I realized life was nothing but going to work. Then moved to a non rec state so started drinking. etc.
>>41706332Nah, 30% enviroment 70% country
