Does my ideal girlfriend exist?>interested in avant garde art, occult stuff>femme but not uncomfortable with maleness>dresses like a Throbbing Gristle member/that whole wave of british industrial>ideally tattoos but doesn't need them>doesn't have to make art but would be a plus if she does>kinky and into domming or torturing me, doesn't have to be a strict top though>would indulge my public humiliation kink :3>doesn't need a penis>literally just imagine noise misato but not all the way edgy>doesn't need all the vain visual shit as long as she's internally this vibe and into weird art idcI'm just stressed because all t4t love seems like forced contextual "they were just there" bullshit especially in the small city I live in. Don't want to "fall in love" (become lesbian fwb) with some random ass transbian when all I want is just this T___T whatever.
>>41709643I have met two women like this but they're so far away. One lives closer to me and I met irl a few times + we talk online occasionally but she shows no attraction and is moving away soon. Whenever I'm near her she doesn't care. The second is a very beautiful woman but she lives even farther away in a city I dreamed of moving to but let's be serious here: I'm 1 step above being a neet (have a job) but I still live with my parents and am broke.Overall I'm affected enough by how far behind my own appearance is from the ideal that I refuse to actually date someone and contemplate just ending it all every other night, then I pacify those thoughts with sexual fantasies of this archetype. I just want to know if anyone has experiences with them actually.
It's so fucking malebrained to have this weird sort of type thing instead of just falling in love with someone. Romance is dead, just generate yourself an AI girlfriend at that point.
im not like this and i have a boyfriend and im not a girl yet so i am not what you want
>>41709643I’m most of these things but less effeminate (pooner) and I also want a Hijokaidan gf
>>41709681I’ve hooked up with a fair amount of trans women that have these kinds of interests. Most of the cis women who like this stuff and have expressed interest in me are kind of uggo though so if you’re pussysexual hopefully you have better luck or lower standards than I do
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>>41709643The fact that your "ideal girlfriend" is a list of interests, style and kinks instead of actual shit that matters in a relationship like personality and long-term goals tells me you've never been in a relationship
>>41709682Ok, so what? I was born male at the end of the day and being fembrained won't make desperate love any less cringy or romantic. The fembrained "just fall in love" shit you think is better often involves UHaul lesbians that immediately throw themselves into the littlest bit of romance and then have a bad traumatic breakup when it's over. Seen it happen five times and the first time it involved domestic violence.>>41709760Nah not pussysexual, most cis women I've met like this are extremely annoying conservatards who are like this only to be contrarian so I don't even consider it, lol.
>>41709723would you strap your girlfriend
>>41709836Ideally. Blessed with the shit luck of being an ayden who hates bottoming
>>41709806Fax lol, this sounds like some 19 year old who just started estrogen like 2 weeks ago. I can't imagine wanting someone over a fucking list of things.
>>41709682>It's so fucking malebrained to have this weird sort of type thing instead of just falling in love with someone. Romance is dead, just generate yourself an AI girlfriend at that point.I actually see this as definitively fembrained. Ive never seen a man fantasize about their potential partner, but women do that all the time lol.
>>41709806Because I haven't and I probably won't for a while. Goals and aspirations are about as skin-deep and fantastical as kinks and whatever else. >>41710406I mean I'm not that but I basically am that. The hell am I supposed to do about it? Suddenly have 5 years of HRT and a 3 year relationship behind me?
