what the fuck do i do now i dont wanna be a tiktok theyfab and spend all day arguing in discords full of minors over who really has other people inside their head or whatever im normal im sane i prommy t. dumb fucking faggot who just got a PTSD + DID diagnosis handed to it picrel is me or something
>>41719481DID is not a thing, retard
>>41719499im cured yay :) undiagnosed via 4chan
>>41719481i also have this, too, anon. learning destabilized me and now im between denying i have it and being tortured by flashbacks that im desparate to never know the full story of.
>>41719551:( i'm really sorry anon. i'm also really in denial right now, i hope i was just misdiagnosed or something. flashbacks are horrible i hope things get better for u soon
>>41719481MtF or FtM? I'm MtF and my therapist thinks I have DID
>>41719481>get ptsd+DID diagnosis>aww now i have to groom kids on discordyou can also just have hobbies and a life within your means.
>>41719481realize that u will do w/e anyway and u always were that stuff with or without the labels
>>41719919anon. they are referring to the phenomenon of DID being co-opted by children who want to look quirky and it being impossible to find people who really have DID because of it.
>>41719513Not saying you aren’t suffering from something. Just saying DID is not a real thing. It’s like Morgellon’s or IBS or Covid. not real.
>>41720046its actually not that hard to tell. fakers dont usually have dissociative PTSD symptoms or dissociative amesia. most fakers probably just have BPD or CPTSD and just call (and personify) their moodswings "alters", like the sad me is jacob, the angry me is jason, i lost my cat so jacob came out. its horrible community wise for people who actually have it.
>>41720046only so much can get from being around other seriously mentally ill people before makes it worse. would be better to travel to irl meetups with actual DID people than sitting on discord being sad with insane people let alone dumb youths going on and on about how they suffer so much.
hi sry was making miso soup >>41719904im MtF. i hope u get that checked out :( >>41719919wtf not what i meant >>41719924yea but this means ill have to recontextualize every aspect of myself :/ it explains some things but im worried things r gonna get worse bc of the diagnosis if its real >>41720046yea... i try 2 live and let live but i find all the children who talk about 'plurality' as a quirky fun thing or spend all day engaging in discourse ovr it kinda annoying desu >>41720071meh i dunno i trust the shrinks on this one ovr some random person on 4chan. maybe it is just dissociative type ptsd or dpdr or something though will be cont.
cont.>>41720086its funny bc if i do have alters theyre not exactly obvious but i have really bad dissociative amnesia and time loss. but most ppl just think DID is the one with alters or w/e. not that i necessarily have it i mightve been misdiagnosed idk >>41720089this is true but i dont know anyone with DID outside of some other internet trannies whom i dont know too well tho
>>41720071wait i missed the bit about COVID not being real anon what did u miss the last 5 years or something
>>41720205was thinking more like if there is a big city with group sharing type meet where people share stuff. at least with trans, people taking on the label will get roughed up enough that theyll have shared experiences eventually even if they thought they were faking. i just assume everyone is american and americans all love those group therapy circles like fight club and cuckoos nest.
>>41719481genuinely my worst fear.
>>41719481how did you figure this out. or get tested for this. can you explain your experiences with therapy?was it scary talking about things or was it easy? how long were you talking about this?t. severely dissociated troon (not DID tho) who might be able to bum off an oomf's health insurance and extremely needs therapy
>>41720245sry this will be kinda long i had a really bad manic episode a few years ago (have bipolar too t_t) and i started worrying i had some kind of dissociative disorder or something at that point. after the manic episode was ovr i convinced myself there was nothing wrong with me so i kind of just rotted for a year or two until i started seeing a therapist and psychiatrist again last year. over the course of this year i'd have episodes where id become really worried that i did have DID or some kind of dissociative disorder or was schizo bc i kept getting like thought intrusions/"voices" and was always worried abt the time loss and amnesia. but then id think i was just faking the whole thing. during one of these episodes i broke down and talked to my psychiatrist about my worry, who was really nice and helped refer me to a psychologist who specialized in dissociative disorders. i just emailed them and requested an evaluation and they sent me some forms to fill out and scheduled an initial session for an eval; but i kinda... didn't schedule the next one bc i thought i was faking it again. you don't need a referral im pretty sure, but it helps. this was a private psychologist bc im still on my father's insurance which is really good and covers a lot out-of-network, i'm not really sure how like getting diagnosed at a hospital or with kaiser or something would work. sorry anon :( anyways a while passed and i reached out again and thought i might as well finish the evaluation for insurance if nothing else bc that shit is expensive ($5000). i was expecting to be told i didnt have anything and was just weird or at worst had DPDR but. nope. will be continued :)
>>41719481Theyfab means afab u kno that right?
>>41720220that was a joke lol unironically tho the “DID” as a thing where you have multiple personalities isn’t real. I understand not trusting a 4channer over a psychologist but like….DID is actually quack shit like chriopractors and allat. it’s just CPTSD not its own diagnosis with multiple personalities and shit. look it up - even Wikipedia says on like the 1st paragraph “The diagnosis is controversial and remains disputed” im not crazy yo your shrinks might be retards
>>41720200maybe, illness narratives and looping effects are a real thing that psychiatrists and philosophers of psychiatry study cos it can have a huge impacton the other hand, also remember that the diagnosis and label is not something 'real' ur still just urself
>>41720245cont. the whole process was pretty short and didn't involve much, which is part of the reason why i think i might've been misdiagnosed. i basically had an initial session/meeting with the psychiatrist (i had to do it twice bc the gap between sessions was too long) where... i actually don't recall anything about what we talked about. and then i had two more sessions which was mostly just me filling out mental health forms while occasionally asking questions about the forms. i'll also be having a final session with the psychologist tomorrow morning at 8am to go over the results of the eval which i'm really nervous for. to answer the rest of ur questions: my experiences with therapy have always been kind of a mixed bag. my psychiatrist has been really cool and helped prescribe me meds and changed meds around when i needed it and listened to me when i needed something, but seeing a therapist didn't really help because i never really remember anything or get anything from therapy - eventually it devolved into me just kind of rambling at my therapist until i decided it wasnt really helpful and decided to cancel. im seeing another therapist now but still doesnt help a ton its kind of a mix between scary and easy for me. sometimes i can sort of "separate" from my emotions/myself (??) i guess and its easy for me to talk about anything about myself without feeling anything. sometimes its really scary talking about things, like there's this fear telling me to not bring it up at all or else bad things will happen to me. i think that should be it? i really hope you're able to get therapy from ur friend's health insurance <3 good luck anon!!
>>41720305I have CPTSD and no DID is not the same... Who told you that...
>>41720301i was being silly for dramatic effect :) >>41720305i know it's disputed, but it is in the DSM and from what i know the latest models of structural dissociation etc. provide an actual psychological grounding for the existence of disorders like DID and OSDD-1 as well as other dissociative disorders. im also pretty sure CPTSD doesnt usually come with the symptoms common to DID. n i mean hell gender dysphoria remains a "disputed" condition in some circles >>41720308thats a good point. ill try to rmember that. thank u <3
>>41719481nice lainthe correct answer is to weaponise it by use of magic
>>41720326it literally is. >who told you thatSam Vaknin, an actual psychologist. hbu senpai?>It is in the DSMDSM isn’t the Bible dude. being gay was a mental illness in the DSM. stop waving a diagnostic manual in my face, it’s not gonna shut me up ok?
>>41720316Tysm nona. This was super helpful. Best of luck to you too(I should ask them about this too i won’t lie i had a very movie informed understanding of this but these are some horrifyingly relatable symptoms im readingNot gonna selfdx though (especially for this disorder lmao not bring one of those people) im definitely a hypochondriacal person.)I’m curious though you said you feel misdiagnosed at first.. what are your symptoms/experiences like?
>>41719481>uses it pronounsmany such cases. im sorry nona, u def got DID.
>>41720554<3im need to sleep soon so this will be brief, but basically while i feel approximately normal in my day-to-day ill end up with massive missing gaps in time and ill be unable to remember, say, most of what happened yesterday or last week or all of 2023. ill be unable to remember if something happened a few hours ago or a few days ago. sometimes ill also be really confused on things that should be basic knowledge to me, or i'll read something i must've wrote and then get anxious/confused because i don't remember writing it and it doesn't seem like something i'd write, or i'll have someone who was apparently close reach out to me and i'll realize i can't remember them at all. i also have a lot of personality shifting, i guess - like i might be really interested in X hobby and then lose all interest and be unsure as to why i was ever into X the next week, although that might just be ADHD. ill also have weird 'flashbacks' where smth will happen and ill get really tense and emotional and feel like im trapped in a situation and ill panic react and then ill be unable to remember why i reacted that way or what the 'trigger' was at all. stuff like that. ill also get "voices" sometimes that kind of feel like my thoughts but also not? that are really confusing and sometimes know things i don't. that's the general gist at least, i might've missed some stuff n theres some more low-level everyday stuff i just missed i think but overall it just doesn't really feel that bad? like i dont feel like i have it "bad enough" to have DID especially bc most of my childhood before like 9 is a complete and total blank so i have no idea what trauma could've even caused it (according to structural dissocation). although i do have some trauma i guess from when i was a bit older. so hope this suffices! if u think u might have a dissociative disorder it may be better safe than sorry n get it checked out by a psych at least when ur able to see one <3
>>41720640cries nooo i would never...
>>41720455all prominent psychologists are narcissists tryna get attention by being "different" and spouting their own oh-so-unique bs takes on a bunch of labels made up to control and drug the masses
