>>41735018
take your HRT, retards

do reppers like animation memes

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>41731487
Had literally this exact same thought this morning. It's weird.

>>41735018
Why is the highbie blue?

is anyone else getting assfucked by mercury retrograde?

>>41735018
somewhere between resentful doomer and BDD boymoder. god I need to kill myself

>>41735018
im online swer :c my old online friend group abandoned me after they found out what i do

>>41735049
too old

>>41735123
what do you do?

>>41735147
online sexwork duhh. basically like a hostess but online, like selling voice calls and such

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>>41735125
no such thing

>>41735155
yes such thing

>>41735049
too poor

>>41735084
finding horoscopes /x/-tier retardation is why i rep, my brain is too male to entertain such things

>>41735184
women in general aren't that stupid, don't be a misogynist

>>41735049
too tall

>>41735153
wanna have voice sex? my voice doesn't completely pass but I'm like 19 and the energy is there

>>41735249
i dont like doing it unless i get paid obvs
drop ur disc if ur actually fr

I fear I’m some unholy combination of doomer, good pervert, and holy eunuch. Am I cooked?

>>41735077
colloidal silver

>>41735018
Holy shit this shit is ass

damn i really thought this thread disappeared because you were all cured, disappointed in you guys
>>41735018
i can't believe i wasted my time reading the whole thing. need to log off
>>41735077
to get guys to pay for her of

what if repression didn't ruin my life i did it out of mef

:3

>>41735411
What if repression actually made my life considerably better than it ever would be as a 6 foot semipassoid and now I dont know what to do because the thoughts didn't go away after 6 years as a successful male

>>41735049
too... repressed

>:3

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>>41735077
For an amazing reason!

>>41735018
where is the horrifying bulky gigahon monster who shakes the earth with every manly step

>>41735049
Too much of a pussy

>>41735231
skill issue. I'm 6'1 and I saw the most beautiful cis woman towering over me the other day

>>41735231
and I'm 5'4" which on paper would be a huge plus, but I'm practically all torso, short legs, and have very wide shoulders for my height with no hips, i.e. unquestionably male

I know one thing for certain: I fucking hate fujos.

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>>41735727
same twin we are ngmi

fuck!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUdP-xQyFmc

>>41735268
I'm a brokie I was only paying in mutual agp enjoyment of moaning in eachothers ears like a fake girls. I thought my youth would sell me.

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being forced to seek employment. Guess I'll save and seek cheap botched FFS if my rent isn't ridiculous

>>41735701
yes cis women at that height can be a stone cold stunner, but a tranny?
with male bones that grew to male proportions? it only highlights those things. the bigger you are the bigger those things stand out unless you’re some freak of nature

The more I think about it, misandry is sort of real, and sort of not real at the same time. I don't mean that at all in the "woman is easy mode" bullshit way by any means, just the strange way that a performance of misandry is so often used to laterally accomplish some other goal.

>feel fine and relaxed for like 2 hours max then the internet makes me spiral down again

>>41735018
i used to be the holy eunuch but now im at a point where i might reach a higher position in my church federation so i might become a weird mix of that and the liberal politician

>>41735270
me asf

being a submissive male is totally hopeless

>>41736886
Oh that's cool. Are you a repper, man/boymoder, transitioned or eunuch?

>>41735084
Ohhh that’s what’s going on? I thought it was just my saturn return

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>>41735018
>Sex worker
>"very intelligent, kind, talented; overall a great friend and person"
So the person who made this is definitely either an e-whore or simps for one, right?

The world really hates feminine people

>>41737663
feminine males most of all

is hrt repping a thing for femreppers?

>>41735049
too mannish

>>41737952
take your t

>>41737952
it is sorta funny to imagine a femrepper who's balding / has facial hair and refuses to try to pass

>>41735049
HRT won't make me the little girl desu

>>41735060
yes and animatics

>>41737952
I assume so seeing the number of butch lesbian artists who are definitely cis but are taking T for benefits, you know?

>>41738488
do you have a favorite animatic

>>41738503
not a favorite but like this one https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8gGQ_hnx3Cc

>>41738516
nice

i wish to be the little boy

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i wish to be the hot anime girl

i wish to be dead

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What's your unrealistic goal body?

>>41735072
I go through that cycle every day.

>>41735018
im like if the BDD boymoder was a girlmoder and just walked around apologizing all the time and was the most awkward pathetic person you have ever met

i could've been happy

>>41739113
I think it was impossible for me to ever end up happy.

>>41735049
too mentally ill neet

i need somebody to adopt me as a stay at home gf and have them buy me titty pills and cute clothes :(

lets be honest, none of us are trans, in fact most trans people are not trans. not in the sense we want it, where its really our identity and we have no choice. we are just the consequence of social forces. we live in the most feminized society that has ever existed. we watched cartoons as children, grew up browsing the internet where we are totally divorced from our physical bodies. our society encourages us to just figure ourselves out without giving us any guidance or role like that has existed in every other society.

Just look at thailand. Why are there so many ladyboys? Answer: because its a socially proscribed and accepted role in that society that often has better life outcomes than not trooning.

None of these feelings are actually you. Im not sure if "you" even exists or if its just the sum of 1000 things out of your control. But at least we can accept that even if we never stood a chance against the conditioning we can recognise it as conditioning and nothing more.

>>41739213
actual wisdom

anyone else feel like even if you did transition the repping self hatred had seeped so far into your bones you'd fuck it up and be unhappy anyway
>>41739213
bars

the goth girl with the Siouxsie and the Banshees shirt is literally me. i am obsessed with post-punk

>>41739267
could i please horrifically butcher you and wear your skin to try to live your life

>>41739213
>repgen don't we all know there is no self to kill?

>>41739213
Anon I was afflicted with tranny thoughts before my family even had a computer, and dial up was so miserable to use I mostly used the internet for help when I got confused in a video game and nothing else. I wasn't even aware trannies were a thing until I was in my mid-teens. Setting aside how stupid your whole cope idea is, it fails to account for people who DIDN'T grow up on the internet like you did, or even presented being tranny as a concept.

>>41739319
Im not saying the internet makes people trans, its just one factor, a big one. If you live in a modern western society then it all applies. The explosion in trans identification in the last 10 years. Do you really think thats organic? 100 years ago you would never see a trans person in your entire life. Now you can go online and see thousands of them, and unconciously you now know its a viable way to live. Its more appealing. And the conditioning has got you.

>>41739508
>The explosion in trans identification in the last 10 years.
lmao okay I thought the whole dial up thing and not having a computer made it obvious, but I guess not. Anon, I'm talking about events that happened 27 years ago. Fuck your "in the last 10 years" timeframe. Your world is not what my world was.

>>41739550
I know, but since we are both alive now the last decade is relevant to us and how we think about ourselves right now. I dont think our thoughts are set in stone, you arent the same person you were 27 years ago.

>>41739593
Maybe, but unless you think internet tranny culture traveled back in time to inflict me with brainwashing when I was young, it really doesn't work as an explanation for my own experiences. Like again, setting aside how I think your entire argument is illegitimate on its face, my point here is that it literally can't apply to people older than the context you're discussing.

>>41739635
I dont know what your thoughts were back then and im not reducing all of this down to the internet and modern culture. For me personally I think weak neglectful parents, being rejected by others, failing at masculine social rituals caused me to lose my sense of identity and latch onto wishing to be feminine. I dont think my feelings come from "me" because they seem to be caused by external things.

>>41739664
And it's impossible for me to tell how true that is, because people, reppers especially, have a bad habit of attaching motivations post-facto to their feelings that fit better into their worldview. "I'm not real, that was just a cope/fetish/brainrot" kind of thing. How early was that, and was there really no sign of anything before then? No feeling more comfortable with or curious about a female identity? No getting upset at masculinizing during puberty? Not even an interest in female behaviors/hobbies/clothing? For me, all of that stuff happened on its own, and I had to actively reject it to try and not be a 'freak' or the kind of person my parents wanted, so for me, I know that it came internally, rather than externally, which is why it ended up being inescapable to acknowledge it.

>>41739785
Sure I was curious about being trans as soon as I knew anything about it and I hated all the secondary effects of puberty. To some degree this is personal. Im probably innately weak and effeminate and bad at being my gender. But thats all that means, it doesnt mean im a woman or even feminine. Thats just a narrative that comes from the outside.

>>41739664
>failing at masculine social rituals
Like what?

>>41735049
too forgetful

>>41739231
yeah, I've been trans and nothing really changed. I was initially euphoric but it didn't take long for insecurity to set in then tying my hair up and dressing masc, then binding, then shaving my hair off, then detrans

>>41735883
sexual stuff doesnt do anything for me, im an asexual weirdo. im also barely older than you so yeah no idk. i get nothing in return. ggs gl on next

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>>41735018
Whoever made this chart clearly has never interacted with this board nor met an mtf transsexual

>>41739213
be that as it may i feel like i'm a divine being and made in god's image and feel great when i integrate my anima as in i'm both the maker and thing being made

>>41737952
god i wanna punch a dyke

dissociated anons how do you feel about emotional songs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-X79Jko9bBI

i'm so lethargic today it's insane. been in bed for 15 hours and i just can't seem to muster the energy to get up

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>>41741471
i mostly listen to music with no singing but sometimes i like more emotional songs.
https://youtu.be/92cwKCU8Z5c?si=A-paolRPCLRVzHxc

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life is shit (not dysphoric btw just the incel kind)
everything is meaningless unless i can become a hot anime girl

>>41741471
How can I even tell whether I'm actually dissociated, or whether this is all there is to life?

>>41737952
I am doing it
>>41738349
I just shave and am not balding (yet)
>>41741465
That's mean anon, I'm nice.

Have you ever tried acting on your homosexuality?

>>41741879
please be my gf. or bf whatever

Hrt manmoder repper here
I think I’m detrooning again
I didn’t do my shot
I’m so fucking stupid I can’t even keep up with that lol
Such a waste of time
I never keep up with my doses abd now I’m a masculinised manmoder
It’s fucking over
I’m over it
It’s ok though becayse im a man deep down :)

>>41741911
>realized estrogen is a placebo and all it does it make you not cum and breaks your dick
>casually forget to keep taking it
>nobody else even noticed you were
I wonder how common this scenario is, once people realize it doesn't magically turn you into a woman like trannies online claim

>>41741911
>Hrt manmoder repper here
just say retard next time it'll save you time

>>41741919
I dont even forget
I just procrastinate the 10 minute procedure and just go sleep or work or watch YouTube instead
But yeah I’m kot really a “trans” “woman” anyway so

>>41735018
I don’t see myself here
Guess I’m a man after all

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>decide to be hrt repper (again)
>have to wait for facial hair to kick in so I don't look queer
I hate this shit, I probably wouldn't have transitioned if I had normal beard growth but I was only starting to sprout hairs on my jawline at 24

>>41735018
I dont think i fit any of these fully but im a mix of "normie girl" and "puppygirl"

Came out to laid back and liberally minded dad at 14, medically transitioned at 17 when still in highschool, was the well trained and beloved pet of the very same man for literal years :D but these days im whichever one is the most chronically depressed because the good times ended back at the start of 2025.

>>41741963
nobody is a trans woman
trans means men can become women, socially or visually, and that doesn't actually happen, or you would see passing trannies posting how even in the worst lighting they still look female

My life got better after I realized I’m not and could never be a real trans woman
If you are only internally repressing like j did then it’s true for you, you are a cis man and always have been and it’s better to accept it early

>>41742065
>If you are only internally repressing like j did
what other types of repressing

>>41742129
External AKA not being able to due to family, society, money etc

being a girl is like instant easy mode and being a male is like instant hard mode
being ugly is like a x999 multiplier so like im in ultra hard mode and its not possible for me to change the difficulty so like im also in ironman mode

>>41742402
Dante must die difficulty: ugly hrt repper

feeling particularly mentally ill this morning
has anyone here tried/found a conversion therapist? googled a bit but only got the media about conversion therapists, idk if they call themselves something else because of the press

>>41741866
have you ever considered doing kigurumi cosplay?

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>>41735049
xd

>>41735018
yay im back here now because its been an entire month of crying myself to sleep every night for being a boy but im still totally cis and normal

>>41741884
you mean meta attraction? yeah everyone's always telling sissies to hookup on grindr and theres the agp threads on /gif/ where they're always telling stories of their hookups
i always wanted to be tied up and nobody has done it for me and only men do it properly

>>41741471
I cry at emotional music in general.

>>41744169
i guess you can cry without knowing exactly why you're crying

>>41741868
if you feel like you're less chippy than other people and fail to express emotions where you should have and see other people effortlessly doing it quite regularly even the sad ones then you're disassociated and repressed as they say emotionally

>>41744218
Thanks. Good to know I've been more or less constantly dissociated since puberty. Nice!

>>41735018
im so useless i cant even attentionwhore properly

>>41744189
Yeah, even happy songs make me cry.

>>41741471
i feel like most of my emotions are pretty normal except anger. i find it extremely difficult to express anger

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my fate is to stay moided

god i want to cut so bad even though i know it's just going to make me feel worse
i keep getting stunlocked looking in the mirror because i genuinely cannot figure out what i look like and it's driving me insane
i've always been kinda curious how bad this will get left untreated, because it's not like there's a physical deterioration that comes with it, kinda wonder if i just start to feel so unhinged i can't function at all. like even at my wfh keyboard job i can only stare at the ceiling and think about how terrible i am. i also just tried to spell ceiling as "seeling" because my brain feels like it's melting
maybe this is just a panic attack idk

i have this thing with men where i'm scared to be close to them friendship wise and accidentally end sometimes being too frank with women even though i don't want to be friends with them but at the same time i look for certain special cool men when it comes to socializing etc but when i do see them i can't do it so easily
is there an element of casualness and effortlessness to natural mates that i don't think i feel i have with men on some close level even though externally i am like them and that makes me feel less alienated around them

>>41744474
try dealing with poos and nigs

>>41742065
>>41739113
>>41744625
remember weather you think you can or you can't you're right

>>41736953
yeah

has anyone here done electrolysis for facial hair removal? is is way more painful than laser?

>>41744730
i think literally any other thread on the board is likely to net you more people who know?

>>41744750
yeah fair enough

>>41744625
doesn't look like a bad starting point

i can't stand being a submissive male any longer. it's torture

>>41744670
what do you mean

I'm still in denial that I actually experience gender dysphoria

>>41745458
Been there. You'll regret lying to yourself about it eventually when you're way too old to actually be able to do anything about it.

>>41744730
way way more painful

>>41745458
it's really not a hard line thing

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>>41735018
>currently The Repressor
>if ever trooned out, would likely be either a Resentful Doomer or Holy Eunuch
>all three are connected
I feel called out...

i'm at my wits' end

>>41735018
I wanted to be the STEM Careerist but I burnt out hard and now I'm just The Repressor.

>>41735018
part artist, part goth (not gay tho) and part bdd boymoder (the bdd not the boymoding)

>>41737013
I transitioned and am stealth

I have man hands

>>41745982
my trajectory too

>>41746030
How bad's your impostor syndrome out of 10 bro? I'm sitting at an 11 right now.

>>41746042
i don't have impostor syndrome because i actually am objectively incompetent and retarded

>>41744625
>I've seen footage, I stay moided, I've seen footage, I stay- (Moided, moided)

>>41743255
figured it out - a lot of the detrans centers will obviously have this kind of thing. hopefully it works out
>>41746042
>>41746054
yea it's weird because it doesn't feel like it's impostor syndrome as much as it makes sense that i used to be good at it and am now bad

I wonder what the point is. The internet just seems designed to completely override your entire personality and replace it with something that isn't you

The Good Pervert, and other classic fables by aesop

the horror
the horror

>>41745633
Maybe I'm right though. Something feels deeply "off" about my dysphoria

had to stop watching today's jeopardy episode because of the unbearable rapehon playing

Being self aware about brainworms, but being unable to do anything about it. Really fucking sucks.

>>41735873
> 5'4"
> #9001 standard pattern hairless twink body
What makes you think you won't pass?
EEN
E
N

sex with reppers

>>41746844
the only times i've gotten close to having sex i've ruined it by crying over how disgusting i am

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How does dysphoria feels like for you guys?
I simply don't know if I experience it because I don't mind having boobs. I'm like fine being a guy except that I wish I had a pussy, softer skin, smaller overall body. But like it's not a dealbreaker. It gets to me when I see a cis woman having fun, and being cheerful, I die from jealousy, but between men am chill

>>41746844
crying and shitting myself

>>41746885
I feel like a swamp monster

>>41746885
no clothes / haircut / etc ever really feels right, I don't really have a concept for how I'd want to look, and I really hate anyone touching me

>>41745310
just don't have too much self respect

>>41746885
I think the mental aspect of it bothers me more than anything. Like. my thoughts assuming myself to be a woman, feeling happy when other people think I'm a woman, but also feeling really upset with these moments of "real women don't think like that"

>>41746042
The first time I heard about imposter syndrome, I thought "You mean that's not just how everyone feels all the time?"

>>41746885
nope not me not never

>>41746885
Started off with being discusted with my penis as a youth but I got over that fortunately, then the most extreme self hatred imaginable while being disgusted with every masculine feature that shows up starting with the Adam's apple.
I had gyno in middle school which made me think I was getting fat so I got a bit of an eating disorder which im thankfully past
Ive never felt like a normal real man. I work hard I help a lot of people out in my community, but im just a broken faggot in my mind.
Now its like a burning desire to be beautiful (and maybe have sex in a certain way) while constantly being reminded of the pain from the past and my dwindling youth.
It was always manageable but the ticking clock is making it flare up harder

>>41744625
BVILT for BWC
>>41746872
I would worry about this

>>41747397
idk it’s fine just have to not have sex

>>41747557
it's fine to just not date
it's fine to just not have friends
it's fine to just never talk to anyone
it's fine to just never live

sometimes i think the way to get femdommed is to just let your femme side take over and looking a little gayish so the stacyesque women just think oh heres a minion and feel free to approach you and say whatever

>>41747644
it's fine
if it wasn't fine then we'd be doing those things
it's fine

>>41746885
Kinda like a thirst you can't quite quench

>>41747557
True

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>>41735018
at least post the full res version