As much as I tell myself that being feminine is bad, that being a woman is bad, that being a man is better, that being masculine is better, that I'm a terrible piece of shit person for all of it, I still cannot be anything else.

i only think and act the way i do because im a blackpilled incel, not trans. for example, i think everything in life is about looks. i find myself to be an ugly man and i wish to be a pretty person that is treated well and liked. it looks just like dysphoria but its not, its just me being ugly and wanting to be someone with an easier life in the dimension i think is most important.

>>41811471
idk why people are so opposed to acting feminine. I’m not going to transition but if at least feels less bad to not have to try to put on some insane macho act
>>41811595
idk man there are a lot of incels who don’t think they're trans

>>41811624
and there are lots of incels who think they are trans. im not saying being an incel makes you wanna troon. its just one of the natural paths "out" of that fate. being bisexual helps me along.

How alone I really are

>>41811624
>why people are so opposed to acting feminine.

I'm not opposed to it. I just recognize it as a universally hated trait.

I'm esl, retarded, stupid, not healthy mentally and physically, neet, porn addicted, I have insomnia, not live in western Europe or us total shithole (war shithole) don't have friends I don't use discord
my wage about 100 lbs
I scared to go outside
Anyone similar? ;)

>>41811634
just a tranny living in her car

>>41811758
But you live in the United States and post your photos here in pass gen regularly, right?

You could be happier as a REALLY feminine man NOT taking estrogen, than trying to be a "woman" and taking estrogen.

>>41811793
Would you fuck skinny small hairy unwashed goat?

You could be happier taking estrogen.

>>41811867
I am taking estrogen and I feel a general unease

>>41811914
stop taking estrogen

>>41811914
take even more estrogen

How fucking insane is it that people can legitimately say "Eating pussy is gay"

>>41812017
>Outs himself as a faggot
Ok buddy

>>41812017
i want to eat an ftm's pussy

>>41812046
Seeing things like that though is what makes me seriously question the entire LGBT movement

>>41811921
Why
>>41811925
Why

>>41812151
because I said so

list some things you cannot do as a male that you imagine you could do if you were a woman

>>41812227
1. be a woman
2. pass as a woman

>>41812227
I was thinking this morning about how I’ll never get to be a mother in a meaningful way. like sure I could go be gay and then try to adopt, and being pregnant probably sucks, but idk something about that in particular where you have your own kid that you get to dote over and hold them when they’re small and cry over their first day of kindergarten and watch them grow up and be proud of

>>41812227
Look in the mirror without being disgusted.
>>41812347
Same, even if I transitioned I'd never be a mom.

>>41811595
the island thought experiment is also useless because you cannot exist outside of society. it is impossible to evaluate if you would have a psychological need if things were different

>>41811279
i dont know any outside of brett cooper and ben shapiro, i dont think i have strong feelings about either of them

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blessed to learn about the existence of anime girls
cursed to never become a hot anime girl

>>41812227
1. be happy
2. live
3. have a soul

>be me, watching youtube
>see a trailer for a steam game
>trailer has good music so I check out the game
>mystery vn about a disappearance in a small town
>sounds interesting so I download the game and start playing
>mc is a girl who seems to be close with her female classmate
>check the tags
>"LGBTQ"
>it's fucking yuri
>drop the game immediately because I don't want to be a sick perverted straight man fetishizing lesbians
why is it always like this? why do lesbians have to be everywhere these days? I just want media that I can enjoy as a heterosexual man.

>>41812870
idk I just play the games I can enjoy as a cishet man like hoi4
have you considered you're seeking this out?

>>41812887
I DIDN'T KNOW THE GAME WAS GOING TO BE FUCKING YURI. I am a good little moid who would never willingly violate the sanctity of lesbianism with his male gaze. I will stick to playing masculine games like oldschool runescape from now on.

>>41812911
okay ms yuri enjoyer if you say so

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Saw a picture of myself that my work took of me and my face looks so masculine and disgusting I need to die violently

>>41812925
I don't enjoy yuri! I'm not some kind of sick fuck who wants to invade lesbianism with his autogynecock. Any time I see yuri in something I immediately drop it.

>>41811731
you live in africa? i always picture repgen posters as white americans, even though rationally i know there are many posters from other countries in repgen and even within america there are probably many reppers of color

>>41812227
be pretty and content with my looks maybe? this is why idk if im just using this as a way to run away from my self image issues

theres this girl, she keeps spamming her picture in trans timelines and transgender surgeries, she transitioned a few years ago and she went from being an ugly guy to being a beautiful woman, she had a job, she is also straight and since she is american she got a job at starbucks and that is how she paid for her ffs with one of the best surgeons in America i think, it just feels like everything went perfectly to create a beautiful and passing trans woman, she is 5'11 but she is skinny and her bones are not really like big, thick.

And i get the sense that this is the first time in her life that she gets a large amount of positive attention, i dont really blame her or dislike her. And i know all of this because of the posts she has made and the descriptions/comments she has made on those posts.


i probably sound creepy as hell, its just that she keeps making those posts, i dont follow her on social media or anything.

any other reppers steelydanpilled? listen to any good music lately? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_5MtGCWImE
>>41812957
look only one of us keeps coming across yuri games, perhaps something to just enjoy on your own time and not let it bother you later ya know?

>>41812974
she took a huge risk by transitioning and also she worked for it, her parents didnt pay for her surgery, she deserves every good thing she has in her life

i sort of cope by wondering if those kinds of posters have something that makes them chronically miserable, i dont want anybody to suffer but i find the idea that someone else gets to have a perfect life while mine sucks less bearable than the idea that they also suffer in major ways

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i could have been a transbian rapehon but then i realized my capacity for delusion is not enough to make me think im a hot anime girl through the whole process

>>41813008
this has only happened to me twice (the other time was Limbus Company which I quit once it got to the yuri chapter). They put yuri in fucking everything these days. I hate it so much. Video games should be for men.

>>41813046
the term rapehon has lost its meaning, no one should be called a rapehon just because they don't pass or they're not conventionally attractive

i've been browsing this side of the internet for the past two years and i think the only positive thing that has come out of that is the fact that now i have the emotional maturity to admit i'm just a cis guy who wanted to feel special and found an avenue by appropiating a medical condition. Transmeds are doing gods work.

Ultimately only a minority of people get to live their ideal lives, whether it is because they dont feel like their body matches their gender, or their body does match their gender but they are not pretty enough in their eyes. Everyone has an idea of what they would need to be happy and its oftentimes unreachable; i could make a bigger deal out of this than it needs to be. Many if not most people die frustrated, like a core wish of theirs never materialized, and the same will happen to me no matter what because im not special, that will not be a tragedy for the living and that is a good thing, scientific progress will lower the amount of things people get frustrated about.

Sorry for the wall of text

I spent all day cooking and pre-prepping (for what I'll cook tomorrow) a ton of food for Thanksgiving for my family that I hate and the entire time I couldn't stop thinking about how every single person I'm going to feed tomorrow would disown me and call me a monster if they knew I was a repper.

>>41813244
there is also this girl on tik tok who is like 6'3 and very far from passing, and she claims to be happier since she transitioned, i think shes fooling herself but not others

im not trying to be mean but how can any of that make someone happy, all of that is artificial, picking a random name that had nothing to do with your birthname, her femme voice doesnt even pass, she is fake trans

Idk, some people have a genuine medical condition that has its roots in neurochemistry/neuropsychology and you can tell, even lesbian women like caitlyn jenner are evidently truetrans, some people, like me and her, are just internet poisoned

>>41813318
you cant know that for sure, some people were raised a certain way but their empathy and their love for their family and friends overrides that

I act and sound and look too much like a man

>>41813366
>you cant know that for sure, some people were raised a certain way but their empathy and their love for their family and friends overrides that
Anon these people are the type to go on rants about how much they hate gays and trannies and think they're freaks.

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>>41813100
yeah whatever man i want to be a hot anime girl and i dont want to be a fugly rapehon moidbeast

>>41813008
not really into steely dad
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTBE3OJ2GIo

>>41813244
even then, the way in which men's way of showing affection or complimenting each other is heavily policed by gender norms will never sit right with me, but its manageable. That is why the love languages cope exists, because some people will never be able to express with words what they think of someone due to social dynamics, but they can do other things for them

>>41813318
that's fucked up. i hope that one day you have cool people that know and love and accept you to cook for (and with!)
cooking for people is fun

Found photo of myself from middle school (like 14 years old). So basically the time I realised I have this thing. I told my parents like 2 years later thinking they would somehow become less bigoted if they knew their child is a tranny. They just told me it's a fetish and I need to do it in my own bedroom with my future wife. In this bumguck of w country (Poland) I can't even go to a therapists without parents concent if I'm underaged and o had no money for DIY. I could have done something but I just did fucking nothing. I'm 23 now and it's like, fully over for me. Looking at the photo I know I could have been w cute semi passing twinkhon. Now I'm just a fat man. Fuck my stupid life.

>>41812227
Get out of trouble by showing some skin

>>41812227
1. Dress pretty
2. Look in the mirror
3. Date men (I am not going into a relationship where there aren't any women. Would make me think about my body way too much)

>>41813046
the transbian fixation stuff is hot until you try it and feel ashamed

i feel so trapped

I just wish gender reassignment technology wasn’t so fucking shit i hope if humanity still exists in a distant future they figure out how to easily change a person’s gender, not these worthless cope surgeries

>>41814120
Like nanomachines shaving your bones

>>41814120
Wish one day we will have technology that allows us to completely get rid of the bodies we are trapped in and get a new, better one

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i wish for moid to hot anime girl surgery to exist and be affordable in my lifetime
>>41813959
and instead of doing transbian shit im going to have hot anime penis in vagina sex with hot anime dudes as a hot anime girl

>>41813966
time to ghost

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Didn't have thoughts of wanting to be a woman yesterday
Have them today
Its never ending.

>>41814509
we're in sync nona
it's probably the moon

My mom can't accept that I'm not a charismatic chad son.

>>41812974
>you live in africa?

Ukraine

>>41814672
wow sorry nona
my father is disappointed in me for the same reason
they wanted chads but got troons
unwanted troons
unwanted

i dont feel like i can go on haha yeah right i still can

>>41814719
transition to dodge the draft

>>41814120
it still won't fix your condition even if the transition was pitch perfect

>>41812941
I'm not trans just pretty ugly and i've gotten into shouting matches over the uni/workplaces taking photos of me without permission before.

I don't think I'm human

>>41814851
>transition to dodge the draft

Lol yeah I wish hrt wasn't expensive and shit
Poon bros doing the draft actually ironic

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>>41815099
nah being turned to a hot anime girl would fix literally everything about me

anyone who watches ben shapiro or his ilk is a drooling retard and i feel contempt and disgust towards you

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Anyone else kinda wishes they were trans? If that makes sense.
I dont have dysphoria in any way and when i deeply imagined a world where i'm a different gender i wouldn't want to change my name or probably wouldnt make my daily routine any different.

I wouldn't want to approporiate a real medical condition and also fuck myself up chemically just for a flight of fancy.
I think ive just psyopped myself because trannies are fairly likeable and i'm lonely and longing for a community. It would also be a straightforward problem to fix. Being a tranny loser is far easier than becoming a proper man and a real person would be, so in that way its escapist.

I wouldnt want to have a vagina or tits. I think i could stomach the traditionally female social role though but that might be just because its an easier deal in general.

>>41814536
Same and I also usually blame the moon, but this time I think its Thanksgiving stress

>bisexual gf says she always pictured herself marrying a woman
Hmmmmmm

>>41815681
does she know anything? sounds like a hint

>>41815715
I waited 3 years to tell her while super drunk, and acted like it totally wasn't a big deal, then mentioned it again a year later while drunker acted like it is a big deal but im totally gonna beat it. Since then she's avoided acknowledging it, but seems to get turned on when I act feminine. All well and good except she likes being dominated in the bedroom.

is there such a thing as agp induced apathy where you wanna do nothing other than cut away from the world and cd

>>41815351
DIY is like 70 Eur a year

>>41815897
It can also land you in jail since you're smuggling in a controlled pharmaceutical

>>41815897
>70 Eur

That's a lot actually. Explain why I'm not trans.

>>41815897
>>41816391
I mean that's explain why I not trans
I'm just too poor for that

Im a cool strong man->im a deeply damaged boy->im definitely going to troon out
Rinse repeat

>>41812227
Double penetration

>>41815904
Truly? HRT is legal in Ukraine and I've only heard of it being controlled in UAE or the UK

I'm too weak and cowardly for this. A terrible person. All successful or successful-looking people have certain external characteristics. For example, being over 180 centimeters tall. And it doesn't matter if you're trans or cis.
Everyone could tell that im a fucking loser.

I'm a fucking loser. I look like a fucking poon on big dose of T and cut off tits. It's true. But still not feminine enough. And it's never be enough.

>You look so feminine. >Do you know what they do to people like that in prison?
>Hahaha >you would been better as a girl lol

It's... it's kind of hard to hear things like that sometimes
People are ok with me being freak or they just hate me. Those who protect me doing it just because of attention. It's really worth than death
Fuck fuck my fucking life

>>41817599
This is the general for males

>>41815580
>fuck myself up chemically just for a flight of fancy.

You said that and posted literal steroid bimbo
kek

>>41815580
right still mogs me

i got scar tissue on my dick from dry jacking too much.

>>41815580
dysphoria is a spook

>>41818173
did they cut your foreskin off?
or are you just a turbo unhinged gooner

Yelling into the void of another repgen because I am a depressed failure that lacks the experience and skills to fix it, combined with a poor upbringing, trauma and mental health issues. I seem to exist to work and then go home. Not even sure the dysphoria is the worst of it anymore. I think I'd settle for a genuine friend or partner of some kind. Oh well.

>>41818299
both

>>41818173
i broke my frenulum a while back from pressing too hard and forward during prone masturbation
who cares it's ugly anyway srs doesn't seem to bad when you go through these incidents and don't care
femininity is about punishing the body anyway like heels, binding, neck stretching etc

>>41818372
it just marks me a moidbrained and fake dysphoric

>>41818372
what the fuck is neck stretching???

Why are gay people so fucking evil to their partners?

Quickly uncrossing my legs when people walk into the room

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>>41818408
they put rings on a girls neck and keep adding them through her adolescence to make it long and swan like
eventually her life depends on it

>>41818451
grand master repper

Just did my first injection since 2 years ago. Still repping though because iwnbaw but at least I might feel better. Any other HRT reppers doing ok?

>>41818759
i feel like i want to cry. im watching the passoids eat the twinkhons alive on twitter and know that i would be dragged through the streets and mocked for saying that its a contributing factor to why i refuse to socially transition. i feel like i cant share my thoughts with anyone so im stuck thinking them on repeat.

>>41818842
I wouldn't give anyone on social media another thought desu, though my standards have slipped from wanting to pass to settling for a weird effeminate twink. Also I haven't been able to speak about this to anyone for years, so I ended up trauma dumping to random guys on grindr as a relief valve.

>>41818892
i have a cisf partner but she just doesnt get it even though she tries to be supportive.

I'm attracted to more feminine guys

>>41818892
it's always fun the kinds of things guys from grindr will put up with trying to get their dick sucked. I had to stop because I felt bad
>>41819003
congrats?

>>41819138
No, not congrats. It feels awful. I feel like I can't be attracted to anyone. I think about it for hours and hours, every day from the moment I wake up. A constant moral debate. And at the core of it, I can't seem to see myself as anything but a woman. The internet just makes me feel more broken.

>>41818892
>trauma dumping to random guys on grindr as a relief valve
and you'd think the guys on grindr would release the valve dump on you

>>41818759
>Any other HRT reppers doing ok?
yeah i'm doing fine. i'm enjoying the effects of estrogen on my body and mood. definitely feel less miserable and less ambivalent about everyting. don't know what the future will hold but i don't regret it so far

Holy fuck, I turned 31 last month. I have ruined myself but I can't bear this any longer. Hitting the gym for multiple years, dressing better, getting a girlfriend, nothing fixed it.
I'm starting HRT. I'm going to tell my girlfriend today when she gets home. The only thing I have going for me is that I'm 5'3". I'm disgustingly masculine in every other way -- broad shoulders, long philtrum, etc. Even if I end up dead, I'll still prefer this over the slow rot.

>>41818759
Recently resumed hrt after a few years off but just monotherapy. It hasn't kicked in yet... Hope I don't have to take an AA on top because it'll probably kill my liver after years of using them and alcoholism

>>41819411
giwtwm I'm 5'11

>>41811279
suppose for the sake of argument that you take your HRT, retards

>>41819574
not taking HRT to own the libs (myself and the people who care about me)
>>41819411
glhf

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Im sooooooo drunk right now, curled up in a ball on the floor in a dark room. I really fucking hate my cartoonishly hyper masculine PSL gigachad features. I need to kill myself. Im going tk buy a shotgun soon and end it all. I cant take this anymoere. Fuck fuck fcukfuck fuck ruck. Life as a moid is infinitely bleak and hopeless

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>>41819574
Hrt wont get rid of my disgusting hypermasculine jawline and cheekbknes. And i cant afford FFS. I am so disgusted by everything in this dirty, unclean, melancholic, dull, depressing, gritty material reality.

I am at a thanksgiving dinner right now. I just reconnected with a family friend's daughter who i knew 13 years ago, when we were both in elementsry school. She lopks thriving and vibrant and full od life, she has a purposeful and bright future. Meanwhile im dying inside, and i will end it all by 2026 because i live in constant agony living as an autist and a moid who relentlessly yearns to reach unachievable feminine beauty

>>41819490
I'm 5'9'' and feel like shit. Can't even imagine.

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>>41819975
Ordering gun. Rn. Everyone in this thread should meet up and do a mass group suicide. Repgen cult like heavens gate

I seriously cant take this anymore

>>41820178
surely if we're doing a mass suicide we can find a better method than shooting ourselves
sodium nitrite group buy?

>>41818301

See? >>41820178
>Everyone in this thread should meet up and do a mass group suicide.

THISSS

It's so fucking stupid. I just keep thinking "why are all of the attractive men with decent personalities gay?" in a jealous kind of way, continuing to forget or ignore that I am a man myself.

>>41820689
>why are all of the attractive men with decent personalities gay?

Nah man gays are violent degeneres
They are horrible a lot of them
But I don't know maybe you find that attractive

>>41820732
I understand a significant amount of them are, they're still men. I just mean someone who puts even the least bit of effort in, someone who isn't an emotionally retarded slob like most straight men are.

>>41820178
should we say we're doing it because we're failed trannies to send a message or we just let the public assume we're just victims of the male loneliness pandemic?

>>41820774
>emotionally retarded slob like most straight men are.

Like Matttt Walsh or something?

>>41820178
group pressure to kill myself is unironically exactly what i need to finally do it

and i really want to do it dear god all i want is the strength to kill myself

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>>41820800
Im a vict8m of mentall illness, combined with autisim , conbined wuth abusive childhood, combined with hypermasculine gigahon bone structure

>>41820869
I wish I could lock you I'm my basement and forcefem you. I'm so sorry.

>>41820800
Why not both?

>>41814719
post ur disc

>>41820946
I don't use that app

>>41821130
I avoided discord as a youth because I didn't want to be groomed into becoming a tranny.

>>41821240
born too late to be groomed into being a skirt go spinny tranny by discord transbians award

>>41821240

And you are here on tttt
That's really not so smart
Ha ha ha ha

Guess you are more true repper than me or something

I don't use that app because I kind of paranoid about government of this country ya know and their rhetoric to LGBTQ+ folks

Grooming it's a fucking rightwing hoax let's say it like that
>Famous ancient greek gay statue
Real grooming begins when you become cuck trad start family kids pay bills and then you need to die in war or hardcore job or something
Left to Ahmed or Abdullah to take care of your family

Ahem

Okay I need to sleep good night

>desire to go innawoods
does it go away?

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>>41821899
I wandered to an unfamiliar place i never been to right now. Soju bottle in hand. Sometiems i bring a rope just to think about ending it on a random ttreee. Fmstl. Fuck my shitty masculine hon tranny subhhman gigaturboultrahon life. Im trudging thru random alley ways in korea on a doomer nightwalk with a soju bottle in hNd drunk AF. Past 3 years its been like this. No irl friends or anything, just pure despair, desolation , despondency, yearnimg for feminine beauty that i will never be able to achieve in this shitty lifetime. I wish i just had the resolve to go through with shooting myself. Logically, there is nothing left for me in this hellish material world. Wandering around my suburban area drunk is what i do every night nkow. At least there is a certain twisted sense of comforting, melancholic beauty in wallowing in despair, longing for a figurative crystal palace, a hinterwelt eternally out of reach, during a winter night. Maybe this twisted sense of comfort in eternal yearning is the reaosn why i cant bring myself to shoot myself

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>>41822112
Itz really not my fault. Everything is outside of my control, therefore failure is not my responsibility. Thats why its so satisfying to be a cripplingly depressed repper. Like tdostoevsky's underground gigahon masculine MAN, who revels in never take one step to reach his unattainable dreams

i will not become a goth transbian i will not become a goth transbian i will not become a goth transbian

>>41822219
we can not be goth transbians together if you want.

>>41822398
you're gonna make me cry

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>another thanksgiving spent desperately looking for an excuse to leave, struggling to keep up the mask, wanting to kms the entire time
and in less than a month i get to do it all over again (but for several days)! yayyyy

>>41818173
I could have it too idk. How does it look like? (No pics please)

He who makes a beast out of himself

this is just diary posting, idk if any of you guys have had to be home while your parents are really actively aging but jesus fuck
my dad slurs so much now and I have to actively work him into conversations / address things to him just to have it happen at the speed he can catch up to it. not like we were on amazing terms before but it feels like i'm talking to a different person now and I hate it so much. will crack small jokes and he just can't get it. described this as starting directly at the sun to a friend, that at some point the diminished version will be all that remains of me and won't have even felt like my real self this whole time I actually could do anything about it. feels bad man

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I like seeing my family. Even though they don't really know me as a person they make me feel like I exist and that's enough.

>>41823104
My grandfather was the strongest man in my family, and these days now I am

>>41819867
I'm 6'2"
I must kill myself

I became a goth transbian and it was a humiliation ritual

>>41823285
yea all of the other men in my family are dead / estranged so falls to me now ig
it'll be fine

>>41823309
why

>>41823291
i'm 6'3"
we could just hang out together instead of killing ourselves

>>41823333
hon

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It's Thanksgiving reppers! What are you thankful for?
>>41819803
I am drunk as well, fren. And likely more .masculine than you. So chin up. Or down.

>>41823655
how long were you on hrt? or were you not at all

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>>41823291
>>41823402
Same. Last time checked, 6'3.
I often compare myself to tall women. I often feel odd scoping out women and their shoes, but I console myself with the fact that I'm a freak.

>>41823672
years

>>41820889
Go watch The skin I live in

>>41823793
sad
i hope you get to one day be a passing goth transbian. if it's what you want in your heart

>>41823782
my ex (cisf) shared my shoe size ... big feet really limits your shoe options as a woman :(
and all of the women in my family are 6'+ brunhildas so being a 6'3" tranny with proportional feet doesn't brainworm me
helping people reach the top shelf at the grocery store is nice

everything decays
why bother trooning even if u become a passoid

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>>41820178
>>41822761
killing yourself because you're sad that you're not a girl is patently absurd and pathetic.

as counterintuitive as it may seem, I wonder if leg-lengthening surgery would actually help men pass better as women, since female height is more in the legs while male height is more in the torso, proportionally
making your legs longer while keeping everything else the same might make that leg-to-torso ratio more female

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>>41823891

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i want to be a hot anime girl

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I wish I had fat tits

>>41823883
Already did years ago. Almodovar is the goat.

>>41824608
true, but having near-constant suicidal thoughts since puberty that antidepressants are barely effective against is also pretty absurd
and yet, here i am, feeling like im constantly drowning

>>41813620
Trip on, Poolish Rapehon Shitza.

>>41822843
lighter colored line running up the under side of my penis where i rubbed the skin off repeatedly

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>>41813620
POLAND MENTIONED

>>41823898
I'm tall and apparently look like I work at a grocery store, so I both get asked to reach the top shelf and if I know where specific items are.
Or maybe I'm just a fatass, and I look like I instinctively know where food is...
>>41823104
I also lived long enough to see my father become a smaller person, both physically and mentally.
Becoming "the man of the family" just kind of happened to me. I didn't ask for it. Really frustrating actually.

I wish I were a woman, not a nondysphoric cis man

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>>41811279
Fuck the Israeli Wire

>>41823898
I have stupid wide feet. My shoes are like 42-43 (European) in length, but 46-48 in width. I have literal clown fucking feet. I don't think women's shoes are made wife enough to accommodate my feet. Even the biggest available sizes. I genuinely considered just loosing my legs completely because they the only chance for my lower half to even pretend to pass as female

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>>41827082
>I also lived long enough to see my father become a smaller person, both physically and mentally.
>Becoming "the man of the family" just kind of happened to me. I didn't ask for it. Really frustrating actually.
Same here, my dad died when i was 15 and taking care of the household was left up to me and my 80 year old grandpa, thank god he's spry and surprisingly sharp witted for his age, but the idea of trooning out and him losing not just his only son but also his only grandson is something i just cannot let myself do, even if it hurts me to my core.

>>41827270
>I wish I were a woman
>nondysphoric
???

>>41828671
It's one of those repper copes that don't make any sense but the poster clings onto like a lifeline. Another variant of the 'my dysphoria is fake' cope.

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>>41828513
I hear you. I've also apparently got a pretty strong sense of duty.
My family kinda rejected signs of innate troonery when I was a kid.
Then, as my parents and siblings needed support, I took on the role. Now both my parents have passed away, and while I'm too old to fully troon out, manmoding is looking increasingly attractive...

>>41827082
> look like you work at a grocery store
hahahaha
nah it sounds like you look like a nice, approachable person. friendly aura. i used to hate that quality about myself when i was a repper :( "masculinity"

>>41827953
i hope we live to experience the crazy robotic body mod era

>>41828671
Simply wanting to be a woman doesn't mean my male form is causing me any distress

>>41829271
Heh. You're probably right. I can take it as a begrudging complement.
Question tho: You say "when I was a repper." Did you transcend repperdom or troon out? If the latter, did that friendly aura follow you?

It worries me how easily your thoughts can just be overridden and crushed by the internet

>>41829397
Nobody who doesn't feel any distress about their body ends up here

>>41829428
early days of trooning out - won't be out socially for a while yet. i am no longer ashamed of the friendly aura and i smile a lot more now so yeah, it has followed me. and i look forward to feeling more comfortable expressing it.

Trying to sleep. I want to cry. can't stop thinking about how i wasted my entire life. Every fucking thing. I should have done this at 15 or died trying, Instead i live a coward

>>41820178
please don't nonny

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I wish I could just labourmax to distract myself with 80+ hours of work
neet bedrotting gives me too much time to think about dysphoria

>>41829835
lol!
you're still alive, fucking do something for once you avoidant fuck!

>>41820178
give address. have money and probably can visit :D

>>41829607
That is actually quite hopeful to hear. Thanks anonette.

>>41830888
I'm fucking trying. Need to wait for a doctor because I'm broke as shit and I managed to lie to my parents enough they they will pay for it not knowing whats the actual reason I go there. Still have to bounce around for couple months but better then nothing. I'm gonna be paleoshit uberhon but everything is better then being a man. I'm already 2 months into doing this shit and probably up to 4 should have hrt. Gonna manmode till I move out in couple years or something.

One of the worst things about being a repper is how frustrating inaction is for me. My inability to DO anything about my problem because I'm too old and masculine grates on me. I know it's the price of my own inaction and cowardice when I was younger, but the fact that I have to live with without any recourse now that I realize my error is devastating.

>>41831863
idk for me id rather partially troon than keep doing nothing. ill always be seen as a guy but i can feel more comfortable and try and be myself instead of trying to kill my soul. all it takes is just taking steps towards it.

>>41831894
That opens you up to the hostility that non-passing brings. I know it's a remote chance but if I wear a binder and someone sees it, or I get the absolutely comedic 'luck' of large breasts in my situation and binding them is painful, that would be socially destructive.

>>41830901
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>>41820831

join the repper server we can all talk more abt it
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the tears well up but none come out

>>41832479
tfw i cry too easily

god i hate being a moid but maybe i just have peter pan syndrome and bpd

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youtube 'randomly' recommending me some brutal repfuel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLN5mgz_PQ0

I already have a little gyno (im not fat)

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>>41832456
tfw not blatantly miserable enough to be asked to join the shady repper server

>>41833564
federal agent doesn't think you sound like a future mass shooter, fembrained ygmi

>>41832456
I already said avoid discord was part of the repping process

>>41833744
This is strangely affirming.

Transbians were just boys who liked girls too much

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>watching stranger things s5 with the 'senpai
>this scene starts
>take every ounce of my willpower to hold it together
>excuse myself to the bathroom after the episode ends and dry heave into the toilet

>>41833987
what explains the transbians who were gay boys before

>>41834274
context?

great news reppers i'm one of us again

Can I rep if I've had SRS?

what is the acceptable amount of times you can kill yourself in your head in one day

>>41835514
the more the better
the brain is resilient like a cockroach

>>41835573
why is that better

>>41835316
letting the boys cum in your vagina because their gf is being moody #justmanthings

>>41835007
He's a depressed anxious (gay) repper and there's a flashback scene of him as a kid shown through VHS videos. It shows how the last time he was his happy, honest, and authentic self was when he was a young child before life trauma beat him down.

>>41834278
I dont think that happened they were just a little fruity

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I wish I could forcefem a bf, that'd help me bottle everything up

bf who hits me extra hard to show me how much he loves me when

thinking about isekaing as a cute girl again

>>41837399
I volunteer

>>41838117
I sometimes fantasize about getting caught by a forcefem cult, but they don't know this is exactly what I want so I have to pretend to hate it or otherwise they might react negatively or something.

And speaking of forcefem cults, read the sisters of dorely. That shit is so good.

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>>41838117
rolling

Thinking about that metalcore band where one of the members was being forcefemmed by another member

>>41838259
i'm too ashamed to play as female characters in games and too lazy to make them look good so i'm a poor candidate for isekai
you might hate it, it could be toxically feminine in ways you might not like

>>41838324
>Thinking about that metalcore band where one of the members was being forcefemmed by another member
what band is it

>>41838520
Llorona. Actually looking into it i think this is a bs story made up as a forcefem fanfic

>>41835253
Welcome back. What happened?

>>41835316
hi Juliana

can i call going innawoods my cottagecore arc?

>>41838706
thank you. i am an ugly disgusting freak

>>41839500
reconnecting with nature (attempting to finish what ted kaczynski started)

>>41839971
Fuck Ted. Worst repper ever

thinking about how no matter what i do iwnbaw

>>41841119
Is it gay if I want to kiss him?

>>41841620
Yeah

kill myself

>>41841620
Kissing is wrong and evil and you should feel right ashamed of yourself. Kissing can spread germs and take action against those who would seek to stop anyone else from having a single thing that is very similar to what one would call a variation of some type of deal so..... basically yeah exactly

>>41841119
kitty :3

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>sighs

>>41841620
ofc
the one downside of posting hole is the deluge of men desperate to gender you as a woman because they don't want to be gay. it's fine just own it

i'm non dysphoric but i've rewired my brain to want to be a man's idea of a woman

what did i do to deserve ending up like this

>>41842695
i wanna look hot too don't overthink it be hot

it's over

wow i'm just drunk and playing cs
totally cis nw )

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how do you all feel about knowing that one day this will be you and there'll be no going back

>>41844101
idk i'm sure it's fine

>>41844101
i don't feel good about anything already

i love having anxiety so bad that i call in sick to work out of panic

>>41844101
https://voca.ro/12nDo9PtGPYD

>>41844538
voicemogs me

>>41844606
genuinely cannot be true

>>41844700
i don't lie

>>41844710
like I mention in that note, cannot imagine sounding more like a stupid faggot which != fen than that

>>41844732
i sound like either a grown man or a shitty Strong Sad impression

>>41844740
sure and I sound like that so

>>41844872
you sound more feminine and easier on the ears than i do. don't argue with me

>>41844894
https://voca.ro/13SbeERxQSWX

>>41844913
>why
i'm lonely and have minimal human connection

>>41844926
https://voca.ro/12tTugo25EX4

>>41844538
>>41844913
>>41844955
I'm a chaser nigga
i chase trannies mynigga
take your shirt off lil nigga

>>41845232
https://voca.ro/1iDsQ6qJuTUE

>>41843590
Did u win

>>41845307
no :(

I repperheart beer

>>41845480
i repperheart vodka more
signs i'm doing very poorly is i'm drinking my feelings in hard liquor
sure it's fine

do you guys (gender neutral) like animation memes

i dont like anything

>>41844538
>>41844955
>>41845273
manvoice
please tell me you're not a tranny

dropped a glass bottle on my foot in a drunken stupor
now I'm in pain
fuck

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another day dedicated solely to thinking about how i want to be a hot anime girl

>>41846077
it's only like 6:30 not day yet

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>>41846107
i want to be a hot anime girl pls

>>41846114
same but I haven't had enough beers or watched enough animes for night to be over yet

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dedicate yourself to the pursuit of knowledge.

need to forcefem a brown repper because I'm so masculine as a tall white man

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i want to have wide foid hips (bc wide foid hip skeleton) and foid cum gutter plus hot anime girl

>>41848148
alas i am too dumb to retain most knowledge unless it pertains to my few niche interests

how does a moid get small foidy ribcage size besides being a luckshit

>>41848804
Advance biomedical technology to the point where such a surgery is possible.

>>41848804
bone size reduction juice helps, my shoe size went down two sizes after taking some for a year

i will never stop being miserable
why don't i get to kill myself

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>>41848804
Advanced cybernetics
Just pop my brain in, i'm ready

>>41849772
go to canada and sign up for euthanasia or something

>>41848209
*raises hand*

>>41848209
No thanks, I’ll just kill myself

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>>41848883
ok so theres jsut no way to become a hot anime girl in this lifetime then

Something I fantasize a lot about is waking up as a girl, and then find out that a bunch of people did so around the world. Most of the time it's get really realistic and unpractical, and I even fear that my family would want to support me in a way that they would treat me like a man and even encourage me to transition back into a guy while I have to come up with excuses about why I don't want to do that while wearing really fem and going about my day as a woman from that point on. I hope that eventually they get used to it. I also think a lot about the legal and social implications of something like that happening, like the aliens crowd would lose their mind and probably some trannies might get giga mad for not getting blessed unlike those "unlucky" random people.

>>41852862
Can AI become smart enough to do it