Hello! Basically, I identify, as a herterosexual cis-gender man. Ever since I was like 16-17 years old I thought about what life would be like if I was a pretty girl. I also found at that I feel very at home and comfortable when I play video games with a pretty girl avatar. Not for dressing her, looking at her or any of those reasons. Basically I feel very comfortable immersing myself and experiencing a game world as my female character. To be honest, I don't see them as art projects or dolls, but as an expression of my full being. Parts of myself I can not show in my offline/real life. And if I could have the body of my character in real life I would probably want it. But I was born as a man and I don't hate it. Being a man is cool in it's own way and has it's perks. Thus I strive to become the best male and masculine version of myself. I regularly hit the gym, try to meet girls, have a stable career and a normal social life. But on some days, I feel wistful and kind of homesick. Longing to be beautiful and graceful and feminine. And that's when playing as my female character is soothing and makes me feel at home. Again, I don't hate being a man at all, and even if I would rather would be a graceful woman, I think being a man is nice too in it's own way. I do assume I may have a female soul - if there is anything like that - but I still love life and wanna give it my best try, no matter what form I take. I am 30 now between, and I am doing fine.
>>41896764Idk about all that, but WWM is BASED.
>>41896764i did this as a female for a year, trying my best to be the best feminine version of myself, but dysphoria got to me and now i have a haircut again and tape otw in the mail. i feel like it could be possible that this deep sadness that requires escapism will not leave you, but i hope you can live a happy life regardless of how you present. i understand not wanting to be trans and not wanting to have to go through transition, to wish whatever makes you happiest was natural.
gender identity was a mistake
>>41896922i guess i better try it ppl keep saying its good>>41896764i guess ppl like that probably exist; it sounds like cope a bit to me but what else can you do but totally throw your world away; and i get that some ppl dont need to do that or dont want to for whatever reasonthat was not my experience i was never a shred of "man" and i couldnt even stand "boy"but im happy now; even though my entire adult life was spent alone in my dark room until i could finally transitionim crippled and every day is hard and painful; but i am at peace with myself more than ever before and im loved absolutely for who i am by my heavenly wife
>>41896764i think most cis men are probably a bit like this
>>41896764>I'm a repressed trans woman who is using video games as a way of coping with my gender dysphoriaYou're going to LOVE estrogen.
>>41900218They're not. You're trans.
>>41896922Yeah it's a great game I really enjoy it.
>>41897849I am not sure it's really a negative feeling like sadness. More like a longing or like feeling homesick, I think.
>>41900224I don't think it's likely I ever would transition. I honor my male body even if it's not my ideal. I don't hate my life. I don't feel uncomfortable as a man. It's just another form of me but still me. And transition could never give me the feminine appearance I would feel comfortable with, so I don't think I ever will. And living life as man has its own valubale lessons I think.
this is a valid way to cope with dysphoria, i think, although statistically ineffective long-term. usually, the 'wistfulness' will compound over time, you'll be faced with the prospect of never getting to even try to be Her eventually, as well as being sentenced to needing to honor something that feels less and less like home as you age.it's not...unbearable, maybe. and it'll be hard either way.and you really will love estrogen, i think. i'm still sort of figuring out if i do, but like....having the right skin, and smelling right, and your hair feeling right on top of your head is...really nice. i think. it's still kind of hard to tell. and i'm still kind of scared of what i'm gonna look like after i waited so long, maybe.anyway, i hope you make it, anon. whatever it ends up being.
>>41896764I experience the same thing. I feel like I am quite happy with how I am though, but like I would trans in the future if I could actually pick what I look like, rather than try to defy my own biology and become a freak.I reckon a decade or two at most before it becomes feasible to do this.
>>41896764>But I was born as a man and I don't hate it.> I am 30 now between, and I am doing fineI think this is the important part. If you truly don't have dysphoria then I think your feminine side is actually a great benefit and makes you a more all-encompassing person. I think people in the past like you were usually great artists and designers.
