what does gender dysphoria feel like for you? how do you know if transition is worth it?i constantly dream about being a male, being born male, living my life, but realistically i could do fine as a female or a woman. i have taken HRT before and i got such bad imposter syndrome and fear of making a mistake & internalizing the external that i had to stop. i want it really bad again, but i don't know if it's the right choice. i'm working through it with my therapist and just working out for now, but what does GD feel like for you? is it enough to just be mildly uncomfortable or dissociative rather than to be fully suicidal?watched "i saw the TV glow" last night. the entire movie was okay, immersive, interesting, but the ending is what really killed me. he isn't dead, he isn't alive. he just is. and that is what he will always be because of the life he built. i also feel like i'm slowly dying in a sense. but i worry that full transition would be a mistake. i'm just socially transitioned to my job for now.i wish i was born male, fantasize about being born with a penis or magically having one, what that would be like, what it would be like to be cis and born just a little bit taller, people suggest i might be nonbinary due to my back and forth, but my mind rejects it. i want to be seen as a man. but what if this is just a projection of my mind due to adverse experiences as a woman?i know there are adverse experiences to being a man, but it still seems worth it. trans women transition to women despite how much suffering there is in womanhood. i really want to take HRT again and look my age instead of like a 15yo boy/twink, but i have to take exploration slow to make sure i do not bring myself neurosis from transition this time. idk.thank you if you respond with any personal anecdotes or advice
gender dysphoria is just internalized sexism
>>41908412troll, or genuine opinion? can you elaborate?
>>41908424He's trolling but he will gleefully write an essay about it if he so chooses
>>41908424you think men and women can only act in certain ways
>>41908387pre hrt, life felt like a blur, I was functional as in I held a job and paid my way but that's about it. I had feelings of self deletion at least 3 times a week and and no ability to connect with anything or reach out. This went on for about 10 years and I was basically a husk of a human being at the end. I think the best way to put it was that I had no self concept.
>>41908387It's very strange. It's cyclical. It's often issues with my body and not with my identity. But sometimes my identity is the issue. It's come and gone since I was 12, but it was never "I am a woman" and often "I sometimes see myself as one."It's very much the body for me as well. I don't understand it.
>>41908665i wish i could stop being a soulless freaking husk
>>41908387I'm this poster >>41908665I think you have a bit of internalized misandry, but that's okay because one of the worst parts of gender dysphoria is projected hate of gender one way or the other, it really doesn't have to be that way. The real truth is that everyone is a individual with their own circumstances.
>>41908590No, *you* are the one who thinks that.
