>be mtf>hanging out with friends at a bar>drunk guy walks in >immediately makes eye contact with me, smiles, comes and sits behind us at another table>leans forward and starts trying to talk to me>ends up being really lascivious and gross>asks me if I have a boyfriend >keeps stroking my hair and trying to kiss me >barman comes over and asks me if I’m okay>tell him that I’m not and he kicks the guy out and then gives me a free drink as an apology for the experienceIs it AGP to get slightly turned on by being sexually harassed? I’m not sure whether it’s a failed male thing or whatever, but on a meta level I find it so hot that I’m such a pathetic boy that I get other men trying to kiss and touch me, and that I have to rely on other men to protect me from them. Even the fact that I have to say ‘I have a boyfriend’, as though I need to show that I have a male guardian in order for someone to leave me alone, is so hot. Is this weird? Should I detransition?
>>41910091blanchardism is pseudoscience. that being said this is the most agp thing i've heard in my life. you should kill yourself but detransition first so you don't drag us down with you
>>41910109I’m not actually going to do either of those things. I’m otherwise very integrated as a woman and have a happy normal life. I will just have to repress these thoughts forever.
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Maybe it is but rape fantasies are like #1 for cissies for a reason, they're a bit AGP too.
>>41910230This is literally one of the most mild cases of harassment ever, why would I lie about something so boring>>41910239Is that true? Interesting. I used to have fantasies about that until I actually got raped, and now I don’t anymore
>>41910253Yes, that sounds rough though. Anyway, not that crazy for a tranny to feel good about being cute but feel strong shame about it at the same time.Keep being yourself nona but stay safe
>>41910272It’s okay, it was a while ago and I’ve done the whole therapy and healing thing. Thank u though. I will do!
>>41910109>>41910253for the record i didn't mean it in the first place but now i feel bad for saying that. sorry :(yeah it's a pretty normal trauma response and i get how harassment can feel nice and gender affirming, i've experienced that a bit myself. that particular framing is still pretty damn agp i don't apologize for that.
>>41910091>should I detransition?I will never understand gen Z trannies being so willing to ruin their life just because they had a good time.
>>41910129Omg don't repress them just fully enjoy your MEF fantasies while you get railed and throat fucked by big strong hairy men. It'll feel amazing. Cis women do this every damn day.Nothing bad can happen, it can only good hapoenm
>>41910415Don’t be silly, it’s fine anon. Yeah, i was being deliberately provocative in my OP post - my first thoughts when it was actually happening were ‘ew go away’, it was only after that I got a bit of a sense of affirmation and then this weird AGP response. Honestly, I’m not even sure if it’s truly AGP, as it’s more the concept of being a male that is feminised that I find exciting, rather than being a woman. Not sure where that all comes from, I think it’s somewhat some internalised shame from being trans that has mutated into a kink.
>>41910510i'm normally really nice even here but this was the first thread i felt was worth responding to that elicited that negative of a respone from me but i felt bad so quickly lmao i think i'm not cut out to be mean.>it’s more the concept of being a male that is feminised that I find exciting, rather than being a woman.that's autogynandromorphophilia or agamp for short. again, i don't think this kind of thing is real in any meaningful sense since the interplay between gender and sexuality is much more complex than blanchardists believe.>I think it’s somewhat some internalised shame from being trans that has mutated into a kink.this seems reasonably likely to me. the brain has a weird tendency to turn trauma into kinks
