Awful genetics, awful family, awful country for being trans, so instead of making my life harder for myself I just ignore everything and try as hard as possible to be cis. But like, every few months, after getting comfortable in playing the part of my assigned gender, I see someone come out or I see the idea of gender bending in media and my brain latches onto it and all I can think is “wow, wouldn’t that be so cool if that were me” for days and it sucks because I KNOW what that means and I literally do not want to be trans bc that’s a literal death sentence just to *maybe* pass as another sex. Anyway, I think only brain damage can fix me atp.
