>>41993138
Why won't anyone date you?

>>41993267
Idk, ugly, awkward, enby, work a lot, take your pick, combine em, mix and match em
Got good at dealing with loneliness through work, general apathy and work related trainings tho but the hardest one are behind me so idk what to do anymore

>>41993285
>Idk, ugly, awkward, enby
You are pretty cool to me, in fact I think you probably would make one of the most stable partner that browse here.

>work a lot
that's a good thing, for now. maybe you can leverage that to do something higher paying in the future meaning more time for you.

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>>41993285
Ayden I’d consider dating you but we’re continents apart and we both work shit schedules and it likely be sexless … but other than that fly over I’m making pizza tonight lol

>>41993327
>>41993285
Let's lock you two in a closet

>>41993285
i always thought you were attractive. am i misremembering or are you just being modest?

>>41993310
>p cool to me
Ty
>make one of the most stable
Idk, my only relationships were relatively long term (between 6 and 2 years), but I never had anything outside of these relationships and they were initiated by the other woman so idk what/how stuff goes, all I know is that dating apps don't work for me at all lmao
>higher pay
Not likely in my field but I can easily move towards a more normal schedule ig
>>41993327
Aww you're kind
>sexless
No worries my libido is p low anyway
>fly over, making pizza
Kino

>>41993360
Idk, just going off based on how dating apps turned out and general "success" ig

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>>41993362
Cool, I also have on Berserk (1997), we can hang with my plushies as well, don’t worry you’ll learn their names over time

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>>41993403
Ohh based, I'd bring my gang too
Pic rel

>>41993362
>Idk, my only relationships were relatively long term (between 6 and 2 years), but I never had anything outside of these relationships and they were initiated by the other woman so idk what/how stuff goes, all I know is that dating apps don't work for me at all lmao
you must be a bottom?

>Not likely in my field but I can easily move towards a more normal schedule ig
yeah either leverage your exp to pivot into something that pays you more an hour, doesn't have to be exactly the same
or like you said you could forego and spend more time outside of work.

i think you are too hard on yourself

>>41993604
>bottom
Not really, was a dom
I'd consider myself as bratty sub at heart tho
>spend more time outside work
Atm I'd rather not do that, apartment feels empty and lonely
>too hard on yourself
Idk
I'm just drawing conclusions based on the previous 5 years
Personally I'd like to think that I'm just a nerdy okay looking enby but looking at the previous 5 years objectively shows that this probably isn't true

>>41993285
i LOVE reading your blogposts on here btw ayden
plz keep posting them over and over again
you live such a fascinating life
i look forward to hearing all about your day, how long you slept the night before, and the size of your last shit

>>41993794
>i LOVE reading your blogposts on here btw ayden
Glad to hear
>plz keep posting them over and over again
Will do!
>you live such a fascinating life
Eh not rly, just normal paramedic stuff
Ty tho ig
>i look forward to hearing all about your day,
Was nice ig was dragged a few towns over to a christmas officeparty
>how long you slept the night before
Slept well actually, now that I passed the last hard exam I'm free of studying to much
>and the size of your last shit
Idk, don't rly study that stuff
How was you day/sleep (not interested in the qualitative and quantitative evaluations of your GIT movements, sorry)

>>41993839
>Idk, don't rly study that stuff
why not?
inquiring minds want to know!
plz take a pic next time too
>not interested in the qualitative and quantitative evaluations...
you think maybe there's a significant population of this board that isnt interested in ANY evaluations of ANY part of your life?
like, does that EVER occur to you?

>>41993652
>I'd consider myself as bratty sub at heart tho
interesting.
>Atm I'd rather not do that, apartment feels empty and lonely
well how else do you think you'd get the time to find someone?
whether on here or w/e. dating apps are kinda eh for me as well
maybe through mutual hobbies?

>Personally I'd like to think that I'm just a nerdy okay looking enby but looking at the previous 5 years objectively shows that this probably isn't true
I think it really depends, may be that you are missing something to seal the deal in terms of relationships. There's no harm in also just bettering your appearance too.

>>41993865
y r u being mean to ayden?

>>41993865
No thanks
Bowel movements would only be interesting for diagnostics
>any part of your life
Wdym? >>41993794 seemingly wants to read my blogposts, and there are plenty of other people blogposting too
>>41993871
>find someone
Idk, tried apps for years, yielded nothing
Don't rly know how else that stuff works and too shy to talk to people
Like going to bars and stuff just results in me chugging beer till I feel too depresso and leave
>mutual hobbies
Yeah maybe, heavily considering giving up my current social hobby due to reasons, my other hobbies are basically collecting old vidya and playing them so not very social, rly don't know what else would be interesting to me and social
>missing something to seal the deal
Didn't even enter any negotiations towards that deal lmao so yeah def missing something
>bettering appearance
Idk how, tried to understand skin/hair/makeup/fashion stuff but never got it

>>41993945
>Like going to bars and stuff just results in me chugging beer till I feel too depresso and leave
I mean I would feel the same way. Do you have any friends that could go with you so it feels less spooky?

I'm not exactly the master in this, but having a friend that knows how to do it would help you a lot.

>Yeah maybe, heavily considering giving up my current social hobby due to reasons, my other hobbies are basically collecting old vidya and playing them so not very social, rly don't know what else would be interesting to me and social
It's never too late to try new hobbies. Maybe you can make good friends with someone and they can introduce you to their friends. That's how I hear most people find their marriage partners.

>Idk how, tried to understand skin/hair/makeup/fashion stuff but never got it
a friend that is into it would help you greatly, maybe try following blogs online where people talk about that stuff, make a few friends there to see if they can help/give their input

>>41993138
>Red lettuce
>Is purple
Huh?

you're still giving up on sex? move on, it's time to give up on friendship too

>>41994006
>friends to go with
Nope
Only local one I had who was the "going out" type was exclusively into going to gay saunas and stuff, and he outed me to a few people so I broke off contact few months ago.
Still hurting over it since he was my only close friend since transition but rly don't want to interact with him or the hobby we share anymore after this shit
>new hobbies
Yeah, idk what tho
Like at best I'd probably enjoy signing up for a mandarin class or something because my pronunciation sucks ass but that's about it ig
And considering the types of people who probably go to that sort of class I rather not
>blogs and stuff
Yeah tried that and videos but my brain turns itself off / i get lost in google search after google search whenever lingo drops i don't understand like color theory and stuff
>>41994040
Fr fr
>>41994054
>you're still giving up on sex? move on, it's time to give up on friendship too
I mean you're probably right, how tho?

>>41994081
>Still hurting over it since he was my only close friend since transition but rly don't want to interact with him or the hobby we share anymore after this shit
oh I remember that... hmm idk have you told him that it hurt you, and well idk if he cared then he would sit down with you tell you he would not do it again, and apologize.

If he doesn't yeah, probs not worth maintaining it.

>Like at best I'd probably enjoy signing up for a mandarin class or something because my pronunciation sucks ass but that's about it ig
And considering the types of people who probably go to that sort of class I rather not
have you gone to them before? you never know what type of people there are.

>Yeah tried that and videos but my brain turns itself off / i get lost in google search after google search whenever lingo drops i don't understand like color theory and stuff
honestly tbqh I get how it's hard, I don't really understand it but just stick to basics. practice makes perfect though.

>>41994135
>did you tell him
Yeah
>sit down with you and not do it again
Don't rly want that because I don't rly know what there is to say, it was the 2nd time and I explicitly told him back then to please not do it again.
I know what he didn't do it on purpose but just because he is dumb
Basically the way I see it
>he told people despite me not wishing that
Could deal with that
>he told absolute retards who can't keep their mouths shut
Meaning the best way for me to damage control is to stay as far away as possible from the hobby to not be a topic there anymore
>classes and stuff
I guess you're right about that
>stick to basics
Trying that, just concealer and mascara i g
But concealer doesn't do shit for my eyes
>practice makes perfect
True but eyeliner still sucks balls after like 12 years of trying to /get it/
fashion is a mystery that somewhat loops back to "too awkward to go shopping alone", hair and eyebrows and stuff are a mystery to me to this day too ig
Idk I'm just a brainlet about that stuff ig

>>41994215
>Meaning the best way for me to damage control is to stay as far away as possible from the hobby to not be a topic there anymore
I get you. I mean I would probably stay away or just go stealth with any other friends to avoid it in the future

>Trying that, just concealer and mascara i g
But concealer doesn't do shit for my eyes
I mean I mostly stick to basic because I don't really have the time to study it yet, but when I finish up all my exams I will probably spend more time on it, looksmaxxing and stuff to get better results everywhere.

>True but eyeliner still sucks balls after like 12 years of trying to /get it/
may need to get some new techniques/opinions on it. I wouldn't say you are a brainlet, it's confusing as hell to me and to the hair stylists I talk to, but I think there are a lot of bad ones I've seen.

>>41994288
>other friends
The only other people left are my coworkes and I'm stealth there
>looksmaxxing and stuff
Yeah i tried understanding basics and didn't get em at all
>techniques/opinions on eyeliner/hair and stuff
Idk where to get them but I always have my eyes open, don't have anyone irl to ask but sometimes an acquaintance from germany gives me advice on hair and stuff, she suggested my current haircut

>>41994321
I mean that's somewhere you just gotta keep pushing and trying new stuff out.

I am doing minor changes on my hair routine to see how I can fix my mess of a hair. I am somewhat getting closer but I wouldn't say I'm perfect

>>41994338
>keep pushing and trying new stuff out
Yeah but idek how to
Like all I do is shampoo/conditioner
That's p much all I know so far, don't understand anything else / the things I found didn't change a thing
But yeah always keeping an eye and ear out for more input
My hair looks shit a f imho, but it's kinda how it's always been so I'm used to it

>>41994355
>My hair looks shit a f imho, but it's kinda how it's always been so I'm used to it
maybe try learning how to straighten/give yourself a blowout/ or do some crazy curls if your hair fits it

>>41994355
you can also look for inspo on ig/pinterest for hair ideas

>>41994383
Yeah trying to understand curls and stuff
Straightening has been a thing I am too retarded to do (idk something about trying to do stuff with the back of my head just results in me fucking up)
First time I heard about blowouts tho
Gonna google that thanks!
>>41994391
>ig
What's that? Instagram? Idk never used it
>pinterest
Same,all I know is that sometimes google pictures are on there and I can't open them because it tells me I need an account
Are both of those sites social media like facebook or something?

>>41994409
>What's that? Instagram? Idk never used it
yeah instagram
>>41994409
>Are both of those sites social media like facebook or something?
Only instagram is with facebook. Pinterest is more just a follow stuff and it will recommend you stuff similar to what you follow/search for

>>41994433
Ahh, I never understood what to post on facebook so instagram seems like a bad fit for me, will give printerest a look tho tyvm

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>>41993138
i have a much superior algorithm sorry not sorry

>>41993418
Word up, hit me up on discord and we’ll coordinate :)) we’re already frens on there anyway :p I’ll be up at 1:30am my time to get ready for work
~Maddie

>>41994691
Ohh
>>41995386
Kino

>>41995386
>>41997624
so you both plan to have a hot makeout session?

post the story afterwards

>>41993138
>lesbian
>wants to date staring men
so you just throw these words randomly now? I think that op is some type of an extreme gender swapping leftist goblin

>>41998349
>now
Wdym I've always been a lesbian
>extreme gender swapping goblin
Nah, just enby
>leftist
Communist

>>41998355
explain what you are and who are you attracted to, what does enby means

>>41998371
>explain what you are
A paramedic who is enby
>who are you attracted to
Women, but my brain keeps tricking me into wishing to fuck men probably out of loneliness
>what does enby means
Non binary

>>41998385
wtf they shouldn't allow gays to be paramedics, that shit happens only in the UK I think so, what if there is a child who needs help, someone so perverted cannot be let around children

>>41998399
Lmao cry me a river

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>>41998355
>communist
what kind

>>41998695
The utopian dreamer kind who believes old T got it almost right