im ripping apart at the seams and i feel i have no one i can fully confide ini feel im the one people go to, not the one receivedim the person who people speak their problems to and because of this i feel no one hears mewhen i do speak up, i often feel unfulfilled and unknown because no one contains the emotional capacity to truly hear memy partner is best person i can speak to but i feel so burdensome when i bring my problems up and theyre often so fleeting and emotionally driven that there is nothing to be done anywaysim stress, im overstimulated, im overworked, im suffering from a prolonged bout of insomniamy life feels like hell even if it isnt and for that there is no escape
>>42017051I am sorry that you are in this situation.For what it's worth, I can relate. I am an eldest son, so my entire life I've had to be "the rock." I've had to be steady, reliable, and stoic. Even now as a grown woman, I still need to be that way, because it's how I was raised and I can't deprogram it from myself. Even with my partner I struggle to confide, instead I internalize, analyze, and try to solve. Sometimes the solution is genuinely behind a solitary, deep cry alone. It can bring great clarity.Other times, I vent here anonymously and let out all my angry, unsolvable, woul Crushing woes into the cyber void because I couldn't bear to burden those around me with the knowledge that I feel such sad and dreadful things every day of my life.I can't tell you how to communicate effectively with others, but I hope you are able to stay strong and find the avenues you need to let off steam, process your wounds, and heal.
>>42017195crying silently and moving on is how i deal with things mostlyventing into the ether here is anotheri am the youngest of my family but im surrounded by a deep level of incompetence, addiction and dysfunction, and its aged me beyond my yearsi feel like life itself is stolen from me, day by day, year by yearand now i pilot a husk that im at times confident about and at other times, like today, feel is damaged beyond repair i wish i died in the woods years ago on nights like thisbut i dont mean thati just wish i knew peace
