I feel like I didn't have any dysphoria during puberty. When I first heard of HRT I didn't think much of it, thought all trannies were men botched by surgery, was transphobic, was a giga AGP gooner. I believed it was impossible for a man to become a woman.I feel like I had more dysphoria pre puberty than I did during it but I don't remember much of my puberty as I self isolated myself and dissociated most likely due to bullying. I did have moments where I thought it's crazy im inhabiting my body but other than that idk.Now I'm in my early 20's, was told I might have gender dysphoria and it hit me like a truck with a lot of memories flowing back from my childhood. Can't stand my masculine traits anymore and I'm now on HRT and I guess I feel better than I used to but I'm still having self-doubts.Should I detroon or kms? Or do I really have dysphoria?
Have you tried just dressing up and jerking off then putting the clothes away until the next time? Post nut clarity is your friend
>>42044930I was a giga gooner when I was in my teens im not anymore because of hrt and im happier because im not like that anymore. I didn't crossdress at all as a teen though mostly just imagined myself as a woman in certain scenarios or tried to do the same things women did in porn. I was disgusting
>>42044918Have you tried gooning your clitty to sissy hypno?
>>42045030No I hate the humiliation aspect of it and found it repulsive
>>42044965Yeah, you're fucked. You like the effects of hrt because it lets you extend your gender fantasies.
You sound similar to me OP, but I did crossdress from a very young age so not entirely the same. FWIW I transitioned at around your age not thinking I'd pass but I ended up turning out alright and have a bf, career, etc. now. You don't sound faketrans to me, just confused. Give it some time and see how you get on with HRT - you'll soon know whether it's right or not.
>>42045055I did crossdress when I was in my preteens but I like the affects of HRT so far im just worried im doing it for the wrong reasons and that there might be some other underlying problem.
>>42045048I don't have these fantasies anymore though it feels like my AGP went away and I feel more normal now
>>42045136That's because you've settled down with yourself. Very common in AGP who take HRT
>>42045147What do yo mean by 'settled down with myself'? Does it mean I just have AGP and have no dysphoria?
>>42045172Ultimately AGP is a type of autosexuality.
>>42044918im uncertain too sister but blanchardian labels and science is burdensome, stigmatizing, and plain wrong. the paper has been thoroughly debunked since at least the 2000s probably earlier and includes unforgiveable scientific errors such as throwing out data you dont like and having no real controlcis women sound trans if you listen; its normal to be attracted to yourself. idk if its a fem or if its both but this is normalim worried im making a mistake or its just a phase but a couple things keep me on the boat. i like most of the effects of hrt, its a feeling i know ive been repressing for years atp, and i "wish i was born a woman so i didnt have to think about being trans." Deadass i frame myself as a cis woman in a trans body and it helps me stay grounded
>>42045121In all honesty you wouldn’t like the effects of HRT if they weren’t in some way right for you. I wouldn’t stress too much, just ride it out.
>>42044918you have dysphoria then stop fuckin repping already dumbass. Sexuality and gender are seprate things. All reppers coped with porn, shocking. You only live once
>>42047454Doesn't feel significant enough even if I cry over it sometimes.
>>42044918nothing matters bro
I cross dressed once as a kid but i dont think much of that. Was probably because i thought it was fun or funny from watching things like Mr doubtfire
>>42050617you are only causing yourself further misery with repping. But its your life im just speaking like i would be speaking to my past self, makes me emotional even. And reppers are only letting their life go down the drain. Being transgender is not a role, but to become the real you the person you wanna be. That means you don't have to cater to other peoples idea what trans or woman should be. World is not a stereotype.You have dysphoria therefore you are trans. Transgender is not to be what some idiot close minded cisgender thinks it is.The labels just exist there to describe yourself to the world. You don't have 100% fit into them. But do what you wanna do. I feel like your post and many others are just reppers cry for help.
>>42044918just wanted to be a girl. I finally got on hrt, I lost interest in being a girl. Later, I'm back on hrt, lose interest in being feminine, go off. Then back on, hrt, lose interest, then go off again. On again, off again, over and over. Why am I like this?
>>42050771you sound like the people who start medication and go "I feel great, I don't even need this" then they quit and feel like shit
>>42050767I'm just having self doubts because of certain past behaviors, like it just doesn't add up even if I feel disgusted at being a male now but I wasn't before.
