I got SRS but now I've started to feel like a man. Like, when I'm in bed at night or doing something quiet like reading, I keep thinking to myself, "Yeah, I could totally dude it up. Just go be a guy. I don't need to be a woman."
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>>42049643yeah i feel this so bad its weird how srs made me more disconnected from my gender. literally some cosmic prank
>>42050255Maybe we both just needed the vag and the rest is just unnecessary now.
>>42049643I'm FTM but I just got SRS too. I think get what you're talking about. Part of it is I feel like I can let go of some of the nonstop performance of being trans now, but for some reason I keep feeling I'm just going to wake up one day now and go back to being a woman.
>>42049643Suits….. hnnnnnghhgg
>>42050524yah suits are great
>>42050288honestly yeah that makes sense, bottom dysphoria was the first dysphoria i had to begin with. it just sucks now that for so many years i was driven by and enjoyed feeling feminine but now i feel like a genderless blob without purpose
>>42051322Let's just be vag bros I guess.
>>42051322>>42051564pre-op here but pretty sure i feel or will feel like this, too; i think it's okay. is it as freeing as i imagine it will be? like do you feel scared or worried about passing anymore? i hope i stop caring at all about any of that and can finally just live
>>42052390I only worry about passing if I'm trying to pass as a woman, and I seem to have lost most of my interest in doing that.
>>42052390to me its kind of the opposite, im not really freed more just find it harder to find the validation and affirmation anymore. i hate my appearance more than ever
>>42052413neato.....this is what i am hoping for :) thank you friend. i hope you can be happy, no matter how you feel. (assuming you are op since the other poster seemed more sad about this) i think it is fine and you do not need to be a woman if you don't want to.....just ride the wave and be you :)>>42052435very sorry about this, though. assuming you look the same today as you did pre-op (besides the penis), why do you hate your appearance? is it because you are too gynoid or feminine now for your feelings of genderlessness? i'm sorry if these questions are inconsiderate or rude you don't have to answer them. i wish you the best, too. i hope you can find a mode of living that makes you happy friend.
>>42052603no its kind of the opposite. i feel genderless but not in a non binary way? more like the early transition im-a-fake-woman kind of way. like i still want to be a woman i just feel like less of one for some reason. probably knowing how its obviously a surgical site instead of feeling like it's just my body, and not being able to have sex the way i want anymore. if anything the problem is i cant feel feminine enough and i have to compensate extra
>>42049643Surgery probably kills the illusion.With drugs you can convince yourself that it's natural because it simply simulates your body and these kinds of drugs are normalised anyway. Nobody taking these kind of drugs feels any disconnect because of how widespread they are.But surgery isn't widespread. The surgery is the barrier that turns it from "this my body naturally" into "this is a choice I chose, would I be happy to unchoose?"It's a step a little too far for comfort and forces some questions about your sense of self that the drugs don't compell an answer for.
>>42053044i'm sorry :( maybe this is ignorant because obviously i have no idea what you're going through personally, but you're all the same, like i said, right? you're just as real as you ever were...maybe it's just a bump in the road, anyways, like being babytrans, depending on how long ago you got surgery. either way...i think you should remember that you're the same person. it feels a little memey to say but you are valid. as valid now as you were before, regardless of whst you have in your pants or whether it's real. that's not what makes you a woman, anyways. i'm sorry if i'm overstepping here, trying to help. i don't know you or your life. i appreciate knowing about your experience as i look to my own future, anyways. i hope you are able to find self-love again.
>>42053066honestly very true, it's weird i never wanted a breast augmentation because i thought it would feel too artificial or not "me" enough, i didn't expect it to happen with srs but here i am. well put desu>>42053187thanks. always nice when people are a little human even here lol
>>42049643can't u just like ai gen new genitals??? idgi
