i dated this girl from when i was 16 to 18. i dont know what made me so attached to her. i just felt really happy and content with her. i guess we shared a love for cinema but she wanted to do acting and all she watched was random chinese movies and modern family while im pursuing film production and i watch arthouse bullshit. halfway through our relationship she basically refused to have sex anymore and said it was cus of the stress from school. i think shes doing sociology or smth. even tho it sucked i just moved on cus despite that i still really liked her company and slowly she started getting less and less close. near the end i had to initiate all contact and basically it was only holding hands and an occasional peck. she wouldnt kiss me anymore. i thought i could fix it but in the end i couldnt. funny thing is after she broke up with me she came back asking to rebound because she missed me. we tried again but i kinda just realized im putting way too much effort into someone isnt gonna change. also since im a fucking tranny i basically fuck her over socially. her traditional chinese family were already iffy about me cus im a white film student (duh) but being a tranny makes it like impossible. also she looks like picrel
>>42051613you're unhappy with your life and you cling to flawed memories and nostalgia to cope. It's not an abnormal thing to do, but acting on it is stupid since it won't work out and you will have lost a useful delusion.
>>42051749i dont get why i feel like this with her especially. i dont give a shit about any of my other exes and when i was with her i felt so attached. its the only time i can really said i loved someone romantically. compared to her everyone else was just for fun
>>42051798in the first year she was the same and we were so close. i want to feel like that again.
>>42051798See you don't even miss them you just miss being in love.It's a selfish desire, don't bother feeding it.
>>42051887i mean missing being loved is a big factor but its also somethin with her. i really really liked her and id genuily give her the world. she was my everything
>>42052131yeah that's the delusional part
>>42052188why am i like this. i could prob find someone better but yet i harp on this girl who was medicore for the majority of my relationship.
