I've never had an interest in sex because of gender dysphoria, but I started having fantasies about restraining and abusing women when I was 12. I do get off to the idea of being a kind of disconnected, faceless servicer, with all the focus being on my victim and how they are feeling. I always found it extremely hot, the idea of being able to do whatever I wanted with a beauty who was restrained, ball-gagged and completely exposed before me. I'd watch them squirm as I toy with them, and they'd feel powerless knowing they were simply too tightly bound to escape. I find it even hotter if they are shy or prudish and feel a sense of humiliation from being completely nude, with their legs forcefully spread, so vulnerable with the most sensitive areas of their body being freely available to me.I wasn't involved in these fantasies, but I always imagined them from the pov of a male dom, and the sub was always female. When I was a little older I started fantasizing about doing this to extremely effeminate twinks as well. If you were wondering I never got into lesbian dominatrix porn or anything like that, the dom in my head was always masculine.After I got on T I realized the rape of female puberty had left me beyond fucked mentally and I can probably never fully enjoy normal sex even if I did have a dick. I just don't feel comfortable with a sexual partner viewing me so intimately. However, I wouldn't mind trying out those fantasies in real life, as long as I got to stay fully clothed. I'd feel stimulated enough just pleasuring someone and watching their reactions.Does this happen a lot with ftm gender dysphoria?
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