I don't think I had that much bottom dysphoria before I started hrt. But now I'm starting to feel more and more disgust towards it. I accept its existence but it's legitimately disgusting, not that bad when it's soft but horrible horrible when it's hard. I just began to hate it more and more.My hrt is recent so my libido isn't fully killed yet. Because I'm needy lonely narcissist who needs attention 24/7 to feel validated in some way. And when I get called something nice in a flirty manner it gets hard, it only gets hard like that now.I just wish It didn't at all. I just wish It wasn't there at all.Disgusting. So disgusting
