I hate being AGP (especially meta attracted), you mean to tell me that theres a whole group of people far more feminine, passing and with a female psychological complexion compared to me, who I had the bad luck not be a membr of. And that my pain and anguish is all due to misdirected heterosexuality, projecting my own attraction on to myself. Like anyone with two eyes and more than 2 ears can perceive the difference btwn AGPs and HSTSs and which ones are naturally feminine and which are simply unmasculine. even look at the kind of hobbies which each type takes up!I Hate, hate , hate hate being a meta-attracted AGP like my greatest fantasy is being a wife but lol I know that my personality is completely alein to something that appeals to straight men my favourite books are literally hard scifi and my favourite pastie is reading maths textbooks I don't have a drop of femininity in me. And yet I still want a bf!!!! wtf why was I born I'm literally just a spiteful egodystonic mutant
>I dont like le pink hobbies my life is so over over over ;-;;;; Pull yourself together woman. Christ
>>42063902No you don't get it I literally spent all my free time playing eu5 when it was released, I'm that male-brained, I work in risk managememnt modeling I'm that malebrained. i'm completely unmasculine but don't have a speck of feminity in me...... When i read about third world trannies like the thais and filipinos or even HSTSs in the west I can't help but feel depressed
>>42063774>omg im tomboy dweeb nerd no man will want mehey i mean i respect the fishing for eligible bachelors
>>42063927>wahh I don't like the pink thing I only like blue things waahh im not like the other girlsPULL YOURSELF TOGETHER WOMANThis is 12 year old level psychology
>>42063774I for my part live being an AGP, I can only be soul-clocked when the topic is politics-related, so I just avoid it most of the times :)
for my entire life people thought i was attracted to men and it was never true. self declared hsts girls were quick to declare me as one of their own and add me to their plastic friend groups. all i have is the realization that women are agp and hsts are just fags, there are passing and nonpassing ones just as there are passing and nonpassing transbiens as well
>>42063933>>42063931>>42063936You don't understand it just feels so much purer to be HSTS, I want to be like those innocent tragic female socialised gay boys, in school I was simply and awkward but intelligent straight guy whose guilty pleasure was gender bender stuff. I want to be one of the girls, but even now when I pass (somewhat) I find socialising with quite frankly anybody but especially women difficult. Ans most of all I wish i were genuinely androphilic and not simply meta attracted ( though I know my meta attraction is strong since I used to daydream about being a wife from very early)>>42063947crazy! I wonder whether you're intersex?
>>42063987You are intentionally cooking your brain in retarded blanchard and retarded sexist ideologies. Your personality is not the reason you suffer, your choices on how to think about it are
>>42063774>...I don't have a drop of femininity in me. And yet I still want a bfIt really isn't that bad nona, a lot of chasoid types like our autistic personalities anyway. And it is nice to have a boy to complement you, when he is there all of a sudden you don't feel so masculine at all and its amazing
>>42063987>I wish i were genuinely androphilic and not simply meta attractedwhy do you think you are?
>>42063998Its not so much that, I think I have some amount of yaoi brain for feminine gay men, I can't stop reading about them and their experiences and wishing I was like them to some extent.>>42064028>>42064013Well simply beacuse I'm not aroused by naked males at all, like 0 but when I iamgine myself being treated like a gf being caressed domiated etc I get aroused
>>42064092ever been with a guy though?
The ones who only have female-coded hobbies are likely AGP too. True HSTS don't care whether they have male-coded hobbies: they're still feminine.
>>42063987it's possible but I'm not particularly attached to that possibility, it doesn't seem worthwhile and honestly seems kind of cope to do so.hsts aren't purer than you and the ones who enjoy it are simply tripping on the power you give them. the ones who are worth being friends with tend to get sad or annoyed when you do self comparison like this. you need to get out of your head about this stuff.
>>42064222>>42064148No ones making me feel bad purposely, I have a good gay freind, and I tend to notice things, the way he walks, the media he consumes, the way he talks (in terms of content not voice) all are effortlessly feminine in comparison to me.I just feel that being HSTS is inherently more purer and more innocent in a way that AGP is not. I mean HSTSs are so feminine that they literally organize beauty contests in third world countries! and until recently AGPs have just been straight crossdressers (actually far more complicated since AGPs were some of the earliest trans but I'm simplyfying)>>42064107No, I don't think I'm pretty enough
>>42064284HSTS are fags who pretend they don't deliberately fag it up. In reality they can behave like normal men; they do it when they think nobody is watching. You'd think they were more incorrigibly feminine than literal intersex men if you took their claims at face value. It's nonsense.They only transition because gay men won't put up with their catty bullshit and only use them as quick fucks because they just won't stop bitching.Pure? Hardly. They transition to sleep with straight men.
>>42064314thats true.... but still I wonder what its like being a gay boy/HSTS any good reading suggestions, i've read ethnographical literature but nothing personal
