>25 years old>hrt for four years>wannabe hsts repressing bisexuality, monogamous with boyfriend of around 3 years>start hanging out with boyfriend's trans girl friend/coworker>have always had similar hobby spaces as her but never really hung out too terribly much>suddenly everything clicks with her>texting every day all day, good morning good night texts, hanging out as much as possible>she starts calling me petnames and hugging me to greet me and say goodbye>like it a Lot>think about her nonstop>realize I have feelings>oh okay fuck god damn it>dramatically confess to my boyfriend and then to her>come to the conclusion that i'm polyamorous>she likes me too>boyfriend isn't outright dismissive of it but needs time to process and think>in the meantime I can keep hanging out with her just can't do anything physical>do so for another month, get even closer>still flirt, still do petnames, do everything short of kissing>she asks me to go to her home country with her sometime>next day she says we're showing signs of an emotional affair and we have to be firmer on boundaries and not to let our feelings show to each other>freak out on her and tell her there's no way I can do that>tell her I need space to process>we haven't texted in days which is by far the longest we've gone since we started hanging outI don't even know what to do now. I've never have a trans friend like her that I clicked with like that. I feel like she understands me so deeply and profoundly but everything is so confusing and difficult. I didn't want to be polyamorous or a transbian but here we are
