im a long term neet and im feeling really sick today. physically so nauseous, i think smoking too much weed is on the verge of giving me CHS. mentally, i am at my rock bottom and on the verge of killing myself. only the fate of my stuffed animal which has given me so much love and comfort keeps me here. could somebody pls keep me company here for a little & talk?
i know from experience that smoking weed all day just makes things worse.do you have friends or family you're close with?
>>42069496what do you need to talk about nona?
>>42069542it probably does, but it gets me through the day. idk how to exist sober and the withdrawals are always nightmarish. no close family, no close friends bar one long time online gaming friend. i havent had a physical friend in over a decade >>42069543i dont know. im sorry. i just wish someone could tell me everything would be ok even though it wont be. idk anymore
i need to go to bed but i just wanted to say that it was possible at least for me to get better, though i never though it was. idk what your circumstances are, but still.my life still isn't amazing, but slowly building up a relationship with my mum was the main thing that lessened all my problems. because i had never had a true friend.i was neet for about 6 years, hardly every leaving the house because of horrible social anxiety, and i'd been suicidal since i was like 13.again i don't know what your issues are exactly, but i do believe you can overcome them. it was very slowly over the course of those 6 years for me. things built up eventually. even if you feel like you aren't making progress, maybe you are.
or wait i think it was 8. since i was 16.
>>42069496hellow im another long term neet.. this years been especially rough for me too, mentally.. how do you like to spend your days? what kind of stuffed animal do you have?
hope you sleep well anon but you're not aline as meaningless as that sounds. i also feel like im getting very very close to some kind of ending... i have a lot of health issues that have made living a normal life difficult. i feel like a completely failure and like im a complete hollow void. each day i feel more ashamed of myself than the last and i really think sometime soon i will choose to end it
>>42069695i appreciate the sentiment but i am so tired. so tired of having to fix the aftermath of problems i didnt create. i didnt ask to be raped. i didnt ask to be robbed of everything i could have ever ever been as a person by my own cousin while my parents sat on the couch in the next room socializing. i could hear them laughing and joking and putting on their fake fucking smiles while i was RUINED in the next room over. what a joke of a life. i dont give a fuck anymore i dont want to make any progress i just want to sit and rot and die and cry and fester in my own filth because i hate everybody and i feel so fucking worthless inside all the time. and NOBODY cares. NOBODY. thats just reality. im not entitled for anybody to care, i know that, but it doesnt make it hurt less that nobody does. im sorry for crashing out you were really nice in your reply, i am happy u were able to get out of this place, but it truly truly feels impossible for me.>>42069786hi c: im sorry its been rough too. but, i usually play games or watch tv to pass the time. the 24/7 Star Trek channels are pretty nice on Pluto, some familiar comfort nose in the background. and i have a big stuffed unicorn!! i'll post a photo of her below, her name is Jelly bc she is pink and as sweet as jelly x3 she helps me so much to stay calm throughout the day, the idea of leaving her and having my last act on this planet be one of abandonment kills me inside. what about you? to both questions>>42069805i hope you sleep well too anon. long term health issues are a drain & i sympathize w/ you a lot on that <3
>>42069882woops, forgot the photo of Jelly
>>42069882maybe you could try therapy. i know it's expensive. but i think that helped me, just because it meant i could get out some of my hatred. i had the luxury of neetbux though.i hope you can manage to heal one day. i also understand why you would just want to ldar. a thought that always gave me some kind of power was the idea that i was a spiritual cockroach-- that the world wanted me dead, but i wouldn't give that to them. idk.
>>42070024ik logically you are right. i cant afford therapy but if i could, it'd probably help. but im scared ill lose control & mention self harm or wanting to kill myself and end up in a hospital. i like your mentality though, you're a strong person. ill try being a spiritual cockroach for a bit, mb it'll work c:
>>42069908very cute, she looks well looked after, how long have you had her for
>>42070092thank you! ive had her for about 2 years now. i always wanted a stuffed unicorn as a little kid but was never allowed one because "that's for girls". we cuddle every night & i give her lots of hugs and kisses throughout the day, and she helps dry my tears. so long as i am alive i will keep her safe and loved
Marijuana is a fucking garbage, Life-wasting drug. Waste of money, time and intelligence. Yes its fun and feels good, but absolutely fuck that. Its making my life fucking pointless and I know others feel the same way. Fuck weed, dont waste your time and money on that shit ever again.
bouts of sadness and anxiety. wish i was normal enough for friends
>>42070183i dont even smoke it to feel good anymore, i smoke it because if i stop its gonna feel like i have the worst flu of my life for 2 weeks straight + insomnia. literally days of solid nausea. im too much of a pussy to go through that again willingly
>>42070208Dont lie to yourself. Good luck.
>>42070228yea that was a lie x.x i do it for both. im gonna taper down over the next few days ig
>>42070236GOOD LUCK GENUINELY Im not trying to judge, I am 100% addicted to weed and I am so fucking done with it. I have plans for my life and smoking drugs is not that plan. I am only 1 day off and got extremely tempted to buy an eighth after crying my eyes out about my ex. Im going to drink tonight instead.I think a good strategy is to start tapering down/trying to dose less every chance you get. That way you will eventually have less weed in your system, making it easier to quit and cope with the post-accute symptoms of stopping when you are ready to. I was smoking like 6 joints a day for years.
>>42070279thank you, and good luck too!! im going to gloop myself a progressively smaller glob of distillate over the next couple days before either totally stopping and roughing it from there, or sticking to one session of hits a day instead of from the minute i wake to the minute i sleep. even getting to that point would be a big improvement
>>42070312GOD BLESS AND GOD SPEED NONA i believe in you~
I stopped smoking weed like 6 months ago. My life still sucks granted but I'm making strides to make it better, I exercise a lot, I plan to study again next year, I am less anxious, more aware, smarter, less dissociated... what an horrible drug. People who say it's a cure-all are fucking morons and I hate how accepted it is. Cigarettes suck but they don't destroy your life. Alcohol you get hangovers that make you not drink for a while if you're not an alcoholic. But weed is easy. It's always there. Just vape! Just take an edible! You're anxious, you'll feel better!
>>42069882>I didn't ask to be....>And NOBODY caresHere's the part you don't want to hear, Anon. You're absolutely right that nobody cares about broken people. You want people to care? Fix yourself and make yourself functional. Don't want to? Be prepared for people to continue not to care. The world is not a nice place, we don't have the time or the energy required to spend it on people who refuse to function.>inb4 can't, won't, whateverDo it or don't. As you say, nobody cares.
>>42070339I used to be straight edge and say this and all of you useless junkies made fun of me. Good to see you got what yoi deserved in the end hahaha
>>42070339>I am less anxious, more aware, smarter, less dissociated...i want this back so bad. hate feeling disassociated and anxious when Im trying to do productive things>But weed is easy. It's always there. Just vape! Just take an edible! You're anxious, you'll feel better!exactly why its so insidious
>>42070356>im addicted to drugs>drug addicts deserve itWhat>>42070357>i want this back so bad. hate feeling disassociated and anxious when Im trying to do productive thingsOh yeah I'm slowly getting less scared of doing things. For me it was particularly insidious as I dealt with chronic pain + depression due to very bad CPTSD and weed just made doing nothing okay. Fast forwarded time. I did nothing. I do mean NOTHING. For 5 fucking years. Even before I wasn't very efficient because of it. Now I'm 30 and have to catch back up...>exactly why its so insidiousEspecially when you hang out with weed smokers...
>>42070350this harsh advice / tough love stuff never worked on me. i already know that, its why i keep coming back around to debating whether to keep existing as is or to kill myself. its just, it would have been nice, yknow? to have lived. idk
>>42070390>Especially when you hang out with weed smokers...YEP im trying to redpill everyone that i know who smokes just to make it easier on me lol. but I know its best for them too. im 27 which means I guess ive been smoking for a decade. and havent dont anything worthwhile in that time. fuxk meGood luck, happy to hear you're motivated to do the right thing and that its working
>>42070410I think the biggest issue with weed is it's easy to take it up and most ppl don't develop an addiction really because they don't have that hollowness that needs filled, that permanent sadness yknow. They smoke and they're like wow that's fun and then they get older and they stop. But us mentally ill idiots get stuck.Hope you can stop and get your life in order too. Weed is horrible. A pretty extreme life event (father going to jail for extreme rapes) got me to stop, I don't want to be a failure like my family, they're all morons and abusers. I was NC with my mum when that happened so losing my other parent was like hitting rock bottom but that helped.
>>42069882hi jelly! its really great you have her to help keep you anchored on bad days. i spend a lot of my time gaming too. not super fun anymore though its really just a way to get through the day without getting too into my thoughts. lots of music and lately ive been getting into movies. i got a couple little plushies but theyre packed away rn.. hatsune miku, sybil from pseudoregalia, and a lil sardine. sorry for the late reply x.x looks like you got some good advice though :)
>>42070442>hollowness that needs filledreal>Hope you can stop and get your life in order too. Weed is horrible.thank you <3 sorry all that happened. its very inspiring that youre pulling through
I'm in a similar situation, almost 30, had my life destroyed since childhood, every time I try to crawl out of this hole and make things better something horrible happens. The last 3 years I haven't left my flat except to get groceries. I have health issues but I haven't even gone to a doctor these past couple of years. I get extremely anxious when I go outside. By the end of next year I will most likely be homeless.>>42069882>Star TrekI love Star Trek, what is your favourite show? Mine is probably DS9, but TNG is a close second. I like the newer stuff too.
>>42070541Well I haven't pulled through yet, but im doing everything I can, thx nona :3
>>42070484its ok, i appreciate your reply all the same. jelly says hii back!! it sounds like we spend our days pretty similarly, ig there is only so much u can do as a neet lol. i hope you get your plushies unpacked soon c:>>42070656i hope you dont become homeless ;-; but i fully understand what you mean by being extremely anxious outside, its scary out there. i LOVE DS9 too, by far the best of all the Trek shows, but im a big fan of all the 90s era Trek; DS9, Voyager, & TNG in that order. I used to really dislike Enterprise but rewatching it has made it grow on me a lot, it has it's moments. But i've not watched any of the newer stuff yet
Try not to smoke too much weed dude, go out. I know a lot of people probably feel pretty lonely in the world but you'd be surprised how that goes away when you talk to someone. Remember, the world is a pretty big place and full of all kinds of things, you're never truly alone.
>>42070845im trying to cut back how much I smoke now. this is another thing where logically ik you are right, but i get so anxious in public. like adrenaline in my veins. how do I get over that? Im able to get through the occasional hrt doctor checkup through sheer necessity but that's my only real time outside usually. i used to go for 2am walks but moved somewhere with no side walks, i really miss doing that :p
>>42070915i miss my night walks too i hate living in the middle of nowhere on the side of the highway x.x
>>42070929is it not scary going out in the dead of night?
>>42070974i always felt safe in my old neighborhood
>>42070786Oh yeah I liked Enterprise too after rewatching it, it's a pity it ended so soon.If you haven't seen any of the newer stuff and like cartoons you should definitely check out Lower Decks! It's really good and has lots of references to the old shows! Strange New Worlds is also good imo. My main issue with Discovery was that it was serialized instead of episodic like the old shows.
>>42070915I want to suck you off while you smoke then eat your cum and rip your pants off and pound you while you’re high til we have refractory orgasms and cum deep inside your tight ass
>>42071320drug me then fuck me~
>>42071374I’ve jerked off to your hole and cock several times
>>42071082Anon, whatever you do, just don't listen to this person here. Lower Decks is god-awful slop for people who liked Rick and Morty and Strange New Worlds/Discovery were unmitigated trash fires. Enterprise is okay - not great but okay - but that's where Trek ended and people harping about the new stuff being good doesn't make it true any more than it does with Star Wars and Andor. Its all sloppa for subhumans, no exceptions.
>>42071404omfg. happy i could assist..
>>42071462>all the NEW shows are WOKE and BAD, they RUINED star trek by including QUEERS, the old shows had ZERO queers reeee
>all the long term neets are trannies>none are gaysouch
>>42069496you may find this video helpfulhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eD1pa_ovtY8
