i got assigned to room with another trans girl at college and she's literally so pretty and perfect it just pisses me offi literally only started hrt three years after her (she started at 14 and i started at 17) but it we're so different it's painful to be around her she's like 5 or 6 inches shorter than me and weighs like 100 pounds or something and i just feel like a monster whenever i look at herat the start of the year she asked if i cared if she changed in front of me and i didn't want to be weird so i said i didn't care but now whenever she changes and i catch a glimpse of her body i want to dieshe's literally gorgeous and pretty even among her cis friends she literally looks like picrel but blonde and with shorter hairi was excited to be friends with a trans girl irl but all of her friends are cis girls ad she's a part of a really popular friend group and she never invites her friends to our dorm because i think she's embarrassed to be associated with me and i don't even know if they know she's trans??she brought a huge full length mirror and i have to walk past it all the time and it just reminds me i will never be like heri feel like sometimes she does stuff just to make me feel bad about myself like asking me if her outfit makes her look like a boy or saying she feels ugly when she's everything i would ever want to bewhy does god hate me and have to remind me of the life i don't have every day
>>42083449how bad is ur passing?
>>42083463not good
>>42083474whats ur gender to misgender ratio irl
>>42083511people are really woke here so they ask for pronouns and stuff so i dont get misgendered but i'm obviously trans
>>42083539hmmm kinda harder but outside of the school environment. like at the store or smth do they ever he/him u?
>>4208344914 and 17 might as well be 14 and 30
>>42083566i know it's fucking terriblelike she actually sounds like a girl and she doesn't even have to try
>>42083566youngshit vs youngshit
>>42083607no you don't understandshe didn't go through any male puerty aat all and my face and shoulders and hands and everything about me got totally fucked overshe was on puberty blockers at 12 too
>>42083634oh r u super masc naturally so even at 17 ur a non passer? also yeah i mean she just objectively had the best trans experience ever. i dont know you can feel better other than just coming to terms with reality.
>>42083449she is definitely messing with you. time to start planting brainworms in her mind and out her to her friends.
>>42083659i know i got genetically fucked over it's just painful that i have to see her every day for the rest of the school year
May I see a picture?
>>42083688you should starting talking about how other youngshits like hunter dont pass
>>42083693 it wouldnt hurt to use her as motivation to pass better yk
>>42083659there’s more masculinization between 14 and 17 than all years afterwards for most people
>>42083745oh ig, i look abt the same as me when i was 14 i think. im like kinda taller now tho (5'7 to 5'9)but idk maybe im a freak luckshit 19yo idk ppl have said so abt me so ig im biased
>>42083688i dont know if i could be mean to her like that especially not with outing heri don't think she's actually a bad person to be honest i feel like it's all in my head>>42083710there's only so much i could do but even if i copied her makeup and wore her clothes i would just look stupid
>>42083702Are you retarded?
>>42083774>here's only so much i could do but even if i copied her makeup and wore her clothes i would just look stupidwell okay dont copy her, u need to find ur own feminine presentation that works. theres deff a style out there that suits you really well and u can look atleast look cis. assuming ur a semi passoid. if ur a neverpasser even now then i think it rly is over.
>>42083790even if someone might think i'm cis before i start talking they would definitely think i'm an ugly womani'm just venting about how i'll never be effortlessly cute and feminine like her
>>42083449there's a world in which I'm not a 6'2 manmoder and this isn't one
>>42083819yeah if ur truly fucked then ffs prob wont even do much. im glad im not fucked like u and i got luckshit genetics.
>>42083449Can u give more examples of how you think she intentionally makes you feel bad about yourself I can't tell if she's being normal or if she's actually messing with you
>>42083822sorry anon you have it even worse than me>>42083845i'm planning on getting ffs as soon as i can but i can't afford it right now in college obviously but also you're right it really would barely affect if i pass>>42083901there are a bunch of moments but i honestly feel like i'm just being crazy and projecting my insecurities onto her but one time she was taking selfies and she asked if i wanted to be in one and when she took the picture i feel like she had a mean look in her eye or like a sly smirk or something where it seemed like she thought she was winning and beating me at the tranny olypmicsand another time i said i liked her shirt and she said i could try it on if i want but then was like "well... idk" like implying it wouldn't fit me which to be fair it wouldn't but it felt backhandedand then also she's always wearing very revealing clothes like her pajamas are literally just tiny shorts and a cropped tank top and i feel like she's flaunting how perfect she is to make me feel insecure
>>42083941>i'm planning on getting ffs as soon as i can but i can't afford it right now in college obviously but also you're right it really would barely affect if i passi really pity you nona. i cant even start to imagine how horrible it is to know youll never pass. if you live in america please leave asap. i really mean it cus im 100% sure the first trannys the go for is the hons.
>>42083941as a youngshit passoid myself i can say she is DEFINITELY trying to make you insecure one of my greatest joys in life is whenever i come across a hon irl it makes me feel so good about myselfshe probably likes seeing the light fade from your eyes whenever you look at her because it makes her feel validated in her own femininity
>>42083634desu being envious of her is effectively the same as being envious of a cis woman like presumably theres no universe where you couldve ended up looking like her (unless youre insanely retarded or faketrans) so why freak out about it? i mean on some level its warranted i get jealous too all the time but idk you could never have had her life or body and it might actually help you to come to terms with that.or you could like internalize the fact that shes exactly as amab as you and will carry the issues with that her whole life, thats how i cope with luckshit/youngshit passoids.
>>42083987yeah like shes cis pay her no mind
>>42083659puberty hits hard i started puberty at 14 and blockers at 15 but now at 27 im still a neverpasser. infinite years of estrogen are nothing compared to 1 year testosterone>>42083745this
>>42083987thank you it's really helpful to try and think about it this way i guess i just felt like she was more in reach/attainable to wish i looked like her because she's trans too so it hurt more that we're so different but i really need to start reminding myself that there's no way i will ever be her so i should just stop thinking about it for my own sake
>>42083973jeep as fuck
>>42084008>puberty hits hard i started puberty at 14 and blockers at 15 but now at 27 im still a neverpasser.>i really pity you nona. i cant even start to imagine how horrible it is to know youll never pass. if you live in america please leave asap. i really mean it cus im 100% sure the first trannys the go for is the hons.
>>42084029who cares
>>42084034jeep detected
>>42084031true but desu i dont have enough of a will to live to bother if my blue major city falls ill just die
>>42083973this is exactly what i'm paranoid about her thinking of me
>>42084043rip gl nona. im glad canada is wtvr w trans stuff instead of kill mode
>>42083550Question avoided because it's just a passoid complaining about being mogged lol
>>42083449Your resentment likely comes off as hatred of her to her so she probably thinks you don't like her for some reason, that's probably why she doesn't bring friends back. You're not slick. Also, changes in front of you? Like. Naked? That's not quite normal even for cis girls. But tbf most of my friends are mildly neurodivergent bisexual cis women so idfk. + Normie cis women can be judgey as fuck. Even if you pass, if you come off just mildly autistic they will mean. Hell maybe just open up and talk to her, develop a connection. It'll help a fuck ton. ++ Uber mega stealth trans women tend to overcompensate and have hella internal anxiety about being found out. They'll date ugly ah, tiny dick, DL "don't tell my friends or family your trans" typah men and drown themselves in girl culture in obsessive ways. Like no shit you need to know girl culture if you gonna be a woman but like, Uber stealth bitches be doing it like it's an act and you can tell. Go find a stealth girls tiktok account and you'll see I fucking guarantee you. Anyway, love you shawty, please be nicer to her and try to spend some one on one with her. Open up about shit, be vulnerable, whatevs. There's also an off-chance she wants to freak you. An Uber-stealth ik was fucking this tall ass trans girl with a massive dick on the DL for awhiiiileee.
>>42084123wait stop i love you you're so niceim on break rn but i might try talking to her about some of my insecurites without making it seem like i'm blaiming her when we get backalso no like not naked just like she'll change her shirt or something while im in the room
>>42083973No amount of being pretty will ever make you happy since you have to live as yourself with no soul, and slowly but surely, all the other bitches you surround yourself will find out and you'll be alone, and aging 30 ish woman with no family and no friends and still a tranny without a womb. I am placing the curse of the Hanging Hon on you tonight. You will see your true self in the mirror before the end.
>>42083449how tall is she and you?
>>42084147Thank you! *mwah* I do try.Changing shirts and stuff is pretty normals my friends do that and vice versa. Unless she's like, intentionally doing the sensual shirt takeoff and looking at you it ain't mean nothing. Honestly, if she's more the normie (not neurodivergent type) and her friends aren't either. You may just not click with her on thaaat kinda level and that's ok. I'm honestly just assuming you're neurodivergent cause you also an anxious bitch and 4chan. I recommend trying to find and make frens with other neurodivergent women, cis and trans. But try and get yah some AFAB socialization in. My bestie is a cis woman and she awsners all my cis woman socialization and general woman questions for me. Finding ones that don't suck and are cool like that is hard (+ my ass in Texas) but worth it. Imma be rude and make another assumption that you may be kinda isolated in college atm, and that's ok. Shits hard and being trans can be kinda gay. Just keep pushing shawty. I guarantee you not ugly if she's nice to you and is fine with living with you. You probs just got hella dysphoria and are not your own type. Also, comparing yourself to the top 1% of hot people isn't fair to yourself. Cis girls do the exact same thing.
>>42084281Please go back to Susan’s Place
>>42084123Ditto. Seems like all normal shit.
>>42084296Bitch ion wtf that is. I been on here for years. I just don't usually post it really go on here much anymore cause being on here is shit for mental health. It's like omfg someone is actually happy? Someone wants to actually help, be nice, and give advice that isn't just self hatred and black pilled propaganda? They must be slain and cut into a thousand tiny pieces to be eaten one by one, for their misdeeds may bring upheaval into my sacred land. Faggot.
>>42084333u rock. thank u for being u
>>42083449you two should kiss
>>42084281thanks for helping other girls with some real life advice, anon
