I’m turning 30 in a few days and I feel like I finally put the pieces together that I’m trans. It sounds dumb but I feel like I have never had self worth. Like I’ve wanted things and done stuff and been with people but I’ve never done self reflection on who I was or wanted to be. I feel like I have been gliding through life while always being content. Never really looking inward. I finally have my life together. Great Job, benefits, pay, amazing GF that still love me even when I cry in front of her. Everything is perfect from the outside.But internally I’m dying, this is everything I thought I ever wanted. But now all I want is to be a woman. I feel like now that my life is perfect I have finally allowed myself to reflect internally and it scares me. Does anyone relate to any of this?Can you only realize you’re trans if you have care about yourself?What causes people to transition later in life?
>>42098055>What causes people to transition later in life?AGP
>>42098055>What causes people to transition later in life?Circumstances that don't exist anymore and agpDon't troon, you'll ruin your life
well yeah if you had self awareness you would realize you are still a feminine man and there never was any transition >What causes people to transition later in life?internalized sexism
>Does anyone relate to any of this?>Can you only realize you’re trans if you have care about yourself?>What causes people to transition later in life?Personally I grew up in a difficult and emotionally neglectful environment which caused me to raise myself, be self centered, self involved, low empathy, not much interest in other people. I think because of that I was always introspecting about who I am and what I wanted which is why I transitioned when I got out of high school. So I think it requires a lot of self inspection but not necessarily high self worth.
>>42098100My biggest thing is I guess I’ve never done self introspection about myself or who I want to be. I’ve always been focused on everything and everyone else. Now that I’m finally doing it, I feel retarded for not doing it before. All the signs were always there. I was an incredibly feminine little boy and people always thought I was going to be gay. But I just ignored everything and focused on what was right in front of me instead of the future.
>>42098206>My biggest thing is I guess I’ve never done self introspection about myself or who I want to be. I’ve always been focused on everything and everyone else.>Now that I’m finally doing it, I feel retarded for not doing it before.I think it's kind of on a spectrum where too much navel gaze-yness or too much selflessness are both negatives and missing a big part of being human. Like you have those people in their 50s that just kind of did what was expected of them, they became a successful doctor or something and they wake up one day having no idea who they are. It seems like you have that kind of emotion right now except you did it a lot younger. Don't beat yourself up over it. You're expressing regret and I don't know what it's like but you're also in a comfortable place financially and won't have some of the hectic parts of transitioning.
>>42098055You understand that men can't be women, right?
>>42098070Shut the fuck up. I had youngshits telling me this and the only result was I ended up trooning out later. OP if you have got to troon, do it now.t. 38 year old
>>42098070that's fucking retarded
>>42100056How long did you rep for? I feel like I have to and that will be my ultimate result if I don’t do it now either.I’m just wondering what it was that pushed you over the edge? I’m afraid I don’t want to wait for something to push me, I feel like I need to just jump.
>>42098055i started at 34, 39 nowlife situation and everything all good, wasn't being honest with myself tho>What causes people to transition later in life?being unhappy enough to risk it ykwim
