Can you be so depressed and sad that when dysphoria comes in you just dismiss it as another thing to be depressed about?I remember when puberty kicked in when I was 16, and when I listen or read other trans people talking about it they came to a realization and came out or repped, to me I was so depressed al the time that when it happened to me it was just another thing to feel about about on top of all the other shit, so I didn't really think about it for years until I realized it wasn't going away, is this a thing that can happen?
>>42100443yeah it can happen. doesn't mean you're faketrans, your monkey brain just blocked out some of the stuff you've been dealing with so you wouldn't have killed yourself. my depression also made me apathetic towards things that i should've cared for
>>42100597I think I just got used to be suicidal but not acting on it, recently I asked my mom about it and she said the first time I told her I wanted to kill myself I was like 7 or 8 years old
>>42100621that's horrible. i can see how you can block out certain emotions from this. are you getting better now?
>>42100971I am, it took a long time, but now the main thing that has me sad is not being able to transition
>>42100999it's good that you're better, but why can't you transition? is there no option for diy?
>>42101040I am trying to look into it but I don't know a single trans person in my country who could give me info, the ones I found are too expensive or crypto (I don't understand crypto) and my country asks me to have socially transitioned for at least one year before they consider even giving me the opportunity, also having this much issues this depression could make them deny me from having HRT because they don't want to deal with the possibility of me killing myself because I choose wrong or something
>>42101089that sucks, im sorry. i'm also not transitioning atm because im in college and everyone knows me as a woman and i doubt i can hide t effect for very long (and if i can hide them why even take it?) you mean your country requires you to transition in order for you to transition? tf? i hope you can figure out how to buy crypto because relying on state healthcare seems like a flawed strategy to me. godspeed and ygmi