Srry 4 wall of text. As title says I’m a piece of shit and I know it. I am a chronic people pleaser and never stood up for myself ever. I’m a loveless fuckless relationship at least on my end. I’m terribly unhappy and I feel shitty for it like I should be happy I have someone in my life in the first place. I (have been with my gf for almost 2 years now. We have an apartment together and cats. We are financially tied to one another as we wouldn’t be able to afford to live on our own. I don’t think she’s the worst person ever but I certainly don’t think we’re right for eachother. It feels like she always has something to be upset about and I’m constantly walking on eggshells to avoid confrontation and conflict with eachother. She’s unwell but so am I. I don’t even know where to begin other than she’s says and does nasty shit when she’s upset with me. Even when I’m trying to help. I started being mean back but I used to constantly roll over and accept the things she said and now I’ve become an issue myself. I don’t have the energy to go more in depth other than we fight constantly, and I’m unhappy but idk how to leave. I feel like I’m missing out on being happy. I do love her I think, but not in the way I used to. What makes me a pos is the only thing I imagine I can do is Irish goodbye her at the end of our lease. However her parents, who are her only support network as we don’t have many friends; are moving out of state before our lease is over. I want to atleast give her some closure. I plan to write a note, saying she has 2 choices. Believe that I left her to go be happy else where or to believe that I killed myself. I don’t know which of the 2 I will pick myself so best to cover my bases. I don’t want to do this but I know there can’t be any discussion or I’ll never leave. I feel like she is trying to get better but I’ve been burned so much by her I have no interest in staying. What a life.
>>42102317my brother is in a similar situation (being in a "loveless" relationship), he still loves her but not in the same way he used to, walking on eggshells, the whole nine yards. i don't have much advice to give but know you're not the only one. you should be looking out for yourself more than anyone else, it can be hard but please have the strength to make the hard choices. have faith
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