I have a very intense urge to take estrogen, but I'm paralyzed by the fear that I may one day come to hate it's effects. Being a guy is something I truly despise, but not enough to impact my ability to function, and I'm afraid it might be the best I'll ever be able to feel.Nothing I've tried, not even trying hrt, has made any of these fears any less prominent, and I'm at a complete dead end. How can I either get rid of this urge, or find a way to give in without losing my sanity?
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>>42111660Get a stress ball Jeffy
>>42111876It would be nice if stress balls actually helped
>>42112209Wanna squeeze mine?
>>42112277I already have some from trying out hrt
>>42111660I felt this way for a while. Somethings gotta give eventually desu and it’s up to you. We all die and eventually I said fuck it and did it. You will otherwise be in this malaise forever unfortunately.
>>42111660In my experience; you will continue to feel this fear until some pressing existential trigger pushes you to finally do it, and from there, you will regret every second you previously agonized. I could have started DIY at 15 but I pushed it off (first i wasnt sure, then i wanted to lose weight, then i was scared of my family noticing, etc) until one day I realized I was 22 and my long beautiful hair was now receding. That pushed me to start, and I have wanted to smash my younger self's head in every single second of every day since then. I wish someone would have screamed at me "SEIZE THE TIME....LIVE NOW!! Now will never come again" ._.
>>42112500Same. I feel like the odds you regret it are much lower than the odds you'll regret not starting sooner
>>42111660the reality of life is that you must make decisions in the face of uncertainty, knowing that the regret of doing nothing is much worse than the regret of doing the wrong thing. life is for living after all.
>>42112440Was it worth it, or did some or even most of your fears come true?
>>42112440yeah, i can say for me i didnt know, still dont really. because its not a question that has an answer, its just something you do and only by doing it can you prove it to yourself or anyone else. for me the breaking point was just sitting in that uncertainty and feeling horrible and wanting to die more than think about it any more.
>>42112500My issue is that there's a ton pointing towards the possibility that I'll come to regret trying, especially the fact that I had no tranny thoughts prior to my 20s, but I can't help but feel like dying anytime I try to settle for just remaining a guy
>>42111660just take hrt if you regret it in the future get a mastectomyor just rot until you look in the mirror and realize you're 30 or whatever, your calldid you watch i saw the tv glow yet like you said you would?
>>42112754I can’t answer that for you because I’m just starting myself. What did it for me is that I finally moved in with my boyfriend and out of my parents house. I realized very quickly that this is the rest of my life and that I can live in mild misery and potentially am going to die in a meatbag I hate or take a risk and have a chance of dying in a body I can call my own. I’m nb so passing isn’t an issue but even I have a chance of turning Into a fat goblin creature. I would rather have a chance of dying as the person I am on the inside than live in misery wondering what if? If you have dysmorphia or dysphoria you will reach this point.Also, see >>42112775
