Im at my limit. I can only be so selfish. The guilt gets to me. People like me do not belong in families. Its another year of i got lots of presents and i got no one anything. I come home with my "haul" of presents, all gifts from people who are only kind to me because they love my mother. Im a parasite of christmas. And im done. Im done with my family. Im done with presents. Im a lonewolf from now on. The focus is on me now. So yea, as a transbian i think christmas is good when you like <25yo. But after that its time to move on. The charade, the parade of familiarity has to end eventually. Ultimately we are all, alone.I also have some prose i wrote yesterday if anyone is interested..
>>42118577Just be happy you get presents and stop self pitying
wtf does this have to do with transbianism youre just a weirdo. im a transbian and i wish i had people who cared about ne ebough to buy me presents or at least wish me merry christmas
>>42118652Im sorry to hear that fellow transbian.... *sends astral hugs your way*
Give the presents to me. I didn't get anything
>>42118577I find it hilarious how you write walls upon walls of maoist wordsalad about how the west needs to repent for its greed, and yet you cannot even be bothered to the most basic act of reciprocal kindness... but anyway, while I do not think your post is reflective of some kind of universe experience for all transbians, I do think that as you grow older, you need to decide what sort of "family" you want to maintain, and that this becomes painfully obvious during familial celebrations like Christmas. Some people want to stay in touch with every single relative, others, likely you, should find a partner and just celebrate Christmas with them alone since clearly you value concentrated relationships over shallow but sprawling ones The only thing worse than having nobody care about you, is having people who pretend to care about you>t. asexual neo-liberal tech tranny
>>42118577you got gifts because people love you! finding gifts for others is hard, i still struggle with it but it’s the sort of thing i think you get better at over time. maybe keep a list of items you think of for people throughout the year so you’re not scrambling for ideas last minute. i usually bake treats for others during the holidays because it removes some of the decision making from the equation. speaking of, i’d love to see the tiramisu you made! merry christmas and i hope you can feel some holiday cheer :)
>>42118652Merry christmas honey. Me too.
>>42118734>, i’d love to see the tiramisu you made! merry christmas and i hope you can feel some holiday cheer :)Ill show it you later.Also i like your baked treats idea. Its nice...>>42118728You're not wrong.
>>42118789big hugs
>>42118707In afraid i cant do that. It would be disrespectful to the people who got me something.
>>42118577You have a family that loves you and takes care of you and all you do is complain.... Did you even say thank you?
