its just all fcked, honestly. 23 and basically a failure by all metrics. I keep thinking i have a run of the most pathetic couple of days possible and then I just keep one upping myself. i just wanted to feel okay. i guess thats just not in my cards. family wont ever accept me, not really. education fucked, the good years spent failing out of community college(paid for by myself while my sisters got all of their college paid for). no socialization so I basically just... exist in social scenarios, watch people become friends, become happy, and then I leave. I'm just a straight up failure. i really truly try to be positive but its increasingly clear that theres nothing i can do. about anything. i dont know what to fucking do. id say I want a hug but I think it'd make me hyperventilate right now.
>>42128819but whatever i just need to fucking lock in, yeah?
>>42128831im not a real person. i want off this shitty ride.
fmstl
>>42128831What do you mean by lock in?
botE is still built for uncut cock
>>42129375i might gotta kill u with rock>>42129335idek anymore tbqh. im tired. ive climbed up the wall and now i find the top blocked off.
>>42128819hey note are u ok
>>42129487A bottom could never
>>42129501idk man>>42129531idc
>>42128819so what?
>>42129576id say the so what is that i should use my gun and blow my brains out, but ik I won't. idk im just fuckin depressed dude. its fuckin Christmas and shit. or it was.
>>42129563>idk manstay strong note 23 is still very young im not even 30 and i feel like a completely different person from when i was 23 ygmi
>>42129604you should but you won't, so do literally anything else? ik it's a meme but start out small and go from there because what else are you gonna do but sit on your ass? retard
>>42129699i mean shit dude ive been not sitting on my ass. ive been trying a lot of shit. the past year has held a lot for me but overall its basically come up to nothing.
>>42129563>>42129604If you're working for a point where life gets easy and idyllic that never comes. As you get older you stop mourning the life you could've had and instead start living the one you've got. The younger you are when it clicks that being able bodied and minded is an extreme blessing the better. You can't compare yourself to others, nor their lives. They've neither had to be you or live your life. The only person you can fairly compare yourself to is who you were yesterday. You most likely need to re-evaluate your life and what you value, if you're failing out of education it's most likely because it holds no meaning to you. There is no objective metric for a successful life.
>>42129735i was never hoping for easy. i guess meaningful? with some kind of payoff? i get over each minor wall to find a worse one.as for education, i was worse than I am now mentally, and nobody gave a shit, and i was stuck with my parents boymoding, with no social contact. ive been trying to go back to some of it.
>>42129831You gotta take life as it is. There's not really any meaning or payoff outside of what you give it.
>>42129885yeah. i know. easier said than done.
>>42128819>>42129713doesnt change anything but i wanna say im with u dawg i know how much it sucks. i feel like it doesnt matter what i do anymore. killing myself is too shitty to other people so im just alive cause i dont have anything better to do
>>42130087Well yeah.
