Repressor/fake trans here (thought about transitioning for several years but never pursued it. Sought out community but backed off sad stuff i know) I need a cope, is chasermaxxing an option? Like can I work hard and make a transwoman my girlfriend and give her a good life and resources I never had so she can feel safe in her transition? Can I use this to cure my animus and pain?
>>42136409>is chasermaxxing an option?No, straight trans women's biggest fear is that their boyfriend is going to turn into a girlfriend one day. They hate you, girl.
>>42136469ok but i'm not it's too late and I was fake trans. I'll obviously not tell her about this duh!
>>42136409>fake transwhat does this even meanLike you go on the internet and pretend to be transgender sometimes?
>>42136409i think that if coping were a sensible option you wouldn't be on /tttt/ asking ridiculous questions like thisyou're just gonna hurt others by skinwalking them, if you're gonna self harm by repressing then at least keep it to yourself
>>42136542I think about what if i were trans a lot, think i'd like to a lot, worry about this sort of thing a lot but realize i'd never do it (it happens less as I get older), wouldn't really be happier if i did and thought i was trans from like 18 to 26 but never did anything about it. I can't want it that bad if i won't work for it. Part of me also realizes that this may just be because life in your 20s is just better for women or i've had a very shitty male existence or whatever. I sought community a long time ago and sought help a long time ago and almost left home to transition and made trans friends because I wanted community but then I chickened out. Whatever it may be the whole trans thing is a permanent part of my psyche but not going to be a physical reality because of having a malebrain/life strategy/ risk aversion. Whatever it may be I love transwomen and feel them to be a part of myself (I don't know if this is sexism because I see myself as a man and inadvertently see them as my kin (I really hope it's not that)), the first woman I loved was a transwoman I wanted to transition and be with her and be like her. I had another friend who transtioned and I loved her too and wanted to transtion and be with her and like her but then she detransed and we are still friends but it hurts. Whatever it is it would be very painful for me to let go of this part of myself without any kind of relief.
>>42136593I'll die inside big time if I just keep it too myself. Isn't all love kind of skin walking, a man loves to imagine his wife's life and see her happy and give resources to her so she can be happy in her life.
>>42136611>Whatever it may be the whole trans thing is a permanent part of my psyche but not going to be a physical reality because of having a malebrain/life strategy/ risk aversion.So you're trans you just don't want to take any risks and be different?
>>42136664I don't think i'm trans, I have a malebrain and life strategy. It might have been nice to have been a girl in my 20's-30's but time has passed and i've dug my heels in for so long that this must be me there is no other way it could be. Besides I have the stupid male ego/need for greatness (even if it will never come). I think I just love that part of my life when I was young and hopeful and thought I could be trans and somebody great. Like a great woman who achieved many good things and had a family but now so few options are available to me. I'm behind on career stuff, i'm behind on life in everyway If I started transtioning i'd spend so much time doign that that i'd fall behind in every other way. I have to catch up but maybe I could take a transwoman with me and let her feel happy and loved.
>>42136730>but time has passed and i've dug my heels in for so long that this must be me there is no other way it could be. Besides I have the stupid male ego/need for greatnessmight be that you were autistically stubborn, happens to me and some others at least>if I started transitioning I'd fall behind even morestart the 'mones at least, have it be as a low-prio side project thing, that way you don't risk much and it might surprise you that things start getting better, both mentally and beyond
>>42137084i'm 27, i started going bald, i use topical finn but it's too late
>>42137266Shave it clean off and be a bald baddie
>>42137266start a proper HRT regimen, manmode for starters, look into hair stuff later
>>42137307i'm just doing the finn and mid i'm sorry i dont' know why i seek comfort here i'm a moid, all problems must be faced alone.
>>42137331Only you can make you betterAnd you know what you must do
>>42137342I know what i must do but i like hearing other people say it. I've been coming here for years to hear people say it.
>>42136409bumping this thread casue i wanna talk to more people
