Detransition after SRS, anyone else? I've been on HRT most of my life with BA and VFS, and now SRS.It causes me an extreme amount of distress when people call me a woman so I have been presenting male for most of my life. I have never in my life seen myself as a woman and after SRS I actually see myself as even more of a man. I'm becoming more comfortable with fully committing to changing my name back legally and removing my boobs since everyone already calls me he/him and my dead name anyway.I see threads about this sometimes so I wanted to see how many of us guys were out there.
>>42137280Hello fellow vagbro
>>42137280I sometimes get this distress but it's only when called she/her when manmoding, weirdly. Why did you start transition?
>>4213733820 years ago
>>42137357Why, not when.
>>42137280i am the same way but a lot of people just assume i am a girl and i don't bother to correct them..
>>42137380Oh fugI thought I wanted to be loved. Men are not lovable and are bags of meat to die in coal mines or trenches in war. I did not want to be loved. I want to die in a trench.
>>42137389Oh that's sad :(Men should be loved. I've had that struggle too, wondering if I'm just doing it to be loved.
>>42137389Men are lovable. I am one, and have been loved, even if just for a bit.
>>42137455That's not my problem now anywayHas gender affirming care actually made your dysphoria worse for anyone else?
>>42137480I get dysphoria over the breasts and wide hips.
>>42137280when did you start missing being a guy? When and why did it start bothering you being seen as a woman?
>>42137480Sometimes? It's hard to tell if it's dysphoria or just discomfort or anxiety.
>>42137513I've never stopped being a guy or seeing myself as one? Like maybe a few times over my life I've been gendered female but pretty much I've lived all my life as a man on E.
>>42137585do you think you'd feel differentyl if people did see you as a woman
>>42137614Yes I think it would make it much worse. I would probably end my life.
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I am very confused by this. what is SRS? what is HRT? what is BA? what is VFS? sorry I am not from the USA please revert back to me. very curious
>>42137685srs = operation to create a vaginahrt = hormones of a woman as medicineba = operation to create larger breastsvfs = operation to modify the vocal cordsusa = a country in north america
>>42137685SRS = sex reassignment surgery, for OP it would have entailed turning the dick and balls into a vulva, clitoris, and vaginaHRT = hormone replacement therapy, for OP it would have entailed taking an estrogen and possibly a testosterone blocker or anti-androgenBA = breast augmentation, surgery to make the breasts largerVFS = voice feminization surgery, surgery to make the voice sound more feminine
>>42137708>>42137709thank you. so OP is a hijra then correct? yahaan main unhen kabhee-kabhee sadakon par dekhata hoon but usually don't bother anyone
>>42137750are you an indian?
>>42137758yes are you?
>>42137773no i am in the usaare you a boy or a girl (i am a girl)
>>42137791I am a man. how are you miss?
>>42137816i am doing well. how are you? how did you find this board?
>>42137280Yeah I know what you're going through, I've basically detransed after getting FFS last year. Not only did I realize that it didn't help me like I wanted it to, I still get gendered the same anyway, I've come to realize and accept all of the things I am that I was running from by fleeing malehood. But I can't outrun it. It's me. I'm more depressed, my eyes are more sunken in nowadays, but I have a better understanding of myself. I'm fine boymoding and then manmoding forever. I just want to be strong and competent which I can only be as a male. It's really complicated I'm sure you have your own thought spiral that has led you to this decision.
>>42137835Did you also get SRS?
>>42137389I transitioned because it's the closest I will ever be to having a body meant to create life and nurture others. Instead I was cursed with a body that is built to rape and murder; I don't want to be a weapon, and despite being a passoid I still can't see myself as a woman...
>>42137951What age did you transition nona?
>>4213798424, but between being ADHD meds, anamaxing, puberty, 5'6," and petite I pass. The problem is I almost never see a woman in the mirror.
>>42138050How long?I think this is one of the shitty parts about adult transitioning. Old enough to have developed an identity as our assigned sex but not old enough to not be completely broken and John50.
>>42138050Jesus I'm high*between ADHD meds, anamaxing through puberty, being 5'6," and petite I pass.
>>42137657so you don't want to be a woman? If you don't want to be a woman why'd you transition?
>>42137280>Detransition after SRSkino
>>42138060It's been 10 years, I definitely relate to developing an identity as my assigned sex. Dealing with SA sucked but didn't make me question my transition but what had me at an impasse was facing legit discrimination
>>42138140I feel similarly. I was SA'd really early into transition, and when paired with health issues around that same time, sometimes each additional step in transition brings me back to that point. Also faced a lot of severe queerphobia growing up which probably did not help. Was repeatedly assaulted for acting too girly.
>>42138096I want to be a woman. But I am not and pretending to be one has never made me happy. Seeing my boobs and hips and vagina makes me dysphoric because I see myself as a man.
