I realised I dont even want to troon (I do want to be female), I just want to dieI might be 19 but theres genuinely nothing Im looking forward in life, nobody in my life now to anchor me, nothing going on in my life, and no reason to continue living or even waking up day to dayAnd there is no guarantee trooning will even do anything worthwhile or change my social and economic standing for the betterI just want to roll over and die forever, not even any afterlife or reincarnation, just a permanent blank unaware nothing until the end of timeI cant handle anything anymore and I dont like the idea of living for another 50 or 60 or 70 years considering how shit I am at handling my first 19 Anyone got a method that doesnt involve guns?
>>42142024idk I trooned out but I feel the same way you do. I just smoke lots of weed and cigarettes and hope the lung cancer catches up sooner rather than later.
men cannot become female
>>42142024what a waste
>>42142024if you can't handle basic day to day things then I wouldn't recommend transitioning.Like oh yeah I need some other enormous burden right now like the usual amount isn't enough anymore
>>42142024tsmt. i think i might join the statistic as well. hopefuel is running out. IWNBAM
in the great pyramid of needs self-actualization i.e. where you might place transitioning is at the very top after all other needs have been met.>just get a boyfriend to pay for everything lol
>>42142024when i was 19 i was in the exact same situation as you. the exact same. and i walked to the roof of a nearby parking deck hoping to jump off and kill myself more times than i can remember. i never did. and i was so unbearably dysphoric and so depressed that i had let my life deteriorate to the point that I was a NEET without a single relationship in my life, no friends, no anything. the entire 18th year of my life was spent alone in my room sobbing on the days in between walking to that parking deck hoping that this time would finally be the time. i wasn't eating, i wasn't speaking, i wasn't doing anything i enjoyed. i was lying in my bed crying and starving myself. sometimes going literal months without leaving the house. i had no reason to continue living either.eventually i realized that I only had two choices: i could either transition, or i could jump. and i was too scared to jump. i hope that you're too scared too. my life isn't all sunshine and rainbows now. being trans fucking sucks. but my life is so much better than before. since transitioning each year has been better than the last.
>>42142024It's normal to feel lost sometimes, especially at your age. You might feel like you're supposed to have figured out how the rest of your life is going to go by now, but that's not how it works.As far as transitioning goes, that's really up to you, and I'll support you either way. I'm not trans myself, so hopefully someone else can pitch in about how they knew it was right for them.General life advice, you gotta have faith that you'll make it through the low times. Don't get stuck in a rut, take care of your health even when it seems pointless, and just do something. Whether that's school, or a job, or some kind of hobby club.
>>42142024Just get into a competitive degree program and focus on your career.
>>42142135>>42142069these people aren't just stupid, they're evil. they're so stupid that they're evil. unimaginably evil. and they're trying to kill you. do not listen to them. you have to transition as soon as possible. you should be panicking. you should start panicking right now that you haven't started yet. every day counts. please transition
>>42142095>Just get a boyfriend while ugly and in a thidie shitholeNot happening ever>>42142131I have nothing and nobody in my life, theres nobody I can talk to and the goodwill of my parents is the only thing keeping me alive at all, I already can see in their eyes and speech they gave up on me long ago, for good reason because I am worth nothing and will amount to nothing Its just depressingI live in a high up apartment with a window large enough to walk out ofI could jump at anytime and die as long as I do it at night to not catch onto a stray pedestrian Ive been sitting on the edge for two years now, contemplating if I should end it that night or wait one more morning I always choose the morning only because the final few steps get my primitive heart to race as it understands Im near the end>>42142133>>42142135I havent even finished high school, thats how fucked my situation isI dropped out because it unironically got too hard for a retard like me, I couldnt focus on classes and the relentless bullying fucked me up, and getting constantly picked on since fucking kindergarten all the way throughout school life fucked me up too hard to the point I never even celebrated a birthday because I had no friends, everAnd then high school completely fucked me over because I couldnt study or focus or learn, my memory also is fuzzy genetically so its even harder to learn and memorise anything, I dont even remember the names of my high school classmates anymore and I only quit what like a year agoIm a total mess and s failure and I just cannot live any longer but I got no way to end the misery >>42142180I actually got someone to order me HRT online for a while while I was 17 but my parents seized it and the person funding it stopped talking to meI have no other avenue of HRT beyond the shitty slow legal route with not even kidding a singular tranny endocrinologist in the entire country
>>42142024Yeah old age. I've been wanting to die since 10ish, almost 40 now. Get on the right meds and get Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Do something with your life. Try anything. Join the fucking circus. Anything. Eventually you find something that brings you joy. maybe meet someone while doing that. It gets better but you have to actually try. Otherwise, naw, jump off a bridge with a pretty view like every other loser. Go down a coward. Go ahead. No one misses losers. They just hate you for making everyone else take up your slack. You'll be hated more in death than life
>>42142180>Join our death cult PLEASE! I swear it'll fix all your problems
>>42142131similar story for me. there wont be one day where everything suddenly gets better, it'll take a long time year by year. one day we'll look back and say things did get better
>>42142024I feel the exact same, and that's actually most like the only reason why I even have troon thoughts in the first place
Sex and money solve many problems
>>42142228>havent even finished high school, thats how fucked my situation isRelax, bud. You're only 19. You can go for a GED if the highschool atmosphere is too much for you. And frankly, you can get a decent job without a diploma/GED anyway.Taking care of your health has a good chance to help with the brain fog you're describing. You've got nothing to lose by trying it. Take a multivitamin, get some fresh air, do yoga.>HRTare you in USA? go to a planned parenthood.
>>42142024>>42142131OP listen to this person. You're too much of a pussy to kill yourself and if you keep wasting your life you'll end up old and ugly. Just troon out and try your best to live life.
