i just wanted to be a girl since i was little. i've read agp hsts but idk if those make sense to me. i've had ffs and cds and pass fine. i want bottom surgery badly but whenever i research it i always feel disappointed. i've done total hair removal and everything but still haven't found the right technique i think? anyway i've been on hormones more years now than i haven't. pass so transition worked. but i still don't understand why i transitioned sometimes. it's hard to remember what testosterone was like. anyone else like this why did you transition.
>>42144214ffs and vfs *
dont care didnt read plus youre a biological man
>>42144290is this how u cope with being a faggot anon?
>>42144214go back to 4tran4 faggot
i wish i was inclined to transition
>>42144214similar I always wanted to be a girl but I never could explain it more than thatand yeah it's hard to even remember. like I really used to have a penis..it feels so weird
>>42144214unironic autogynephilia
>>42144867>doesn't mention sexuality at all>yea that's agp
>>42144915no i was answering the question
>>42144214I transitioned, so I wouldn't have to live as a gay guy
>>42144214I wanted to be a girl as a child but then when puberty hit I was like "i guess i'm not... let's try to make this work"Trouble is that I couldn't. I tried to make it work and the harder I tried, the worse it got. I didn't even know the word "transgender" yet.Besides, for a while it wasn't even an option in my country.Then in 2007 it kinda sorta began to be an option - but only if you could afford it.I could afford it and started in 2008. The first two years were rough but then everything improved. Like literally everything.I started being liked by people, socialization suddenly "just worked", I suddenly had no problems fulfilling tasks at work... life finally made sense.Then I met my (now) husband. And now I'm happy. The last several years have been amazing.My only complaints these days are the brainworms in the queer spaces. Too many gigacommies, too much mean spirit, too little realism, but I can also afford to be insulated form those issues.>it's hard to remember what testosterone was likeTotally felt that. 17 years ago is almost a lifetime.I still do remember how I was feeling generally before transition though. That's a good reminder to never forget to take my shots, lol.> anyone else like this why did you transitionEssentially because I had to. I would've never made it as a man.I would've never been married, own a house, manage a small business, be a good relative to my brother's kids, host family parties where I'm genuinely appreciated rather than merely tolerated as the retarded one... I get all of that as a woman though.
to be closer to god
>>42144214when i was child i had the mentality that i hated male socializing and what males where expected to act like. i hung around girls and picked up a lot of socializing there that kind of solidified my path. also being not a girl made not fully integrated into their friend group (i was never invited to the sleepovers) cus ig the parents thought the faggy little 7 year old was gonna molest their kid idk lolwhen i was in middle school i actually came out as a trans woman to a friend but quickly backtracked cus i realized how horrible it would be to be out as trans in middle school lolin hs i went to an arts highschool that was 80% afab. it was so accepting that i didnt even need to do anything so i just was out as enby because i didnt feel a need to be seen as a woman.now im 19 and i have horrid dysphoria so im getting on E cus i literally cannot imagine a future where im seen as a mangenerally id say my feelings are less that i feel like i want to be a woman but more than i dont want to be a man. but also i present as feminine and act feminine so just being a trans woman seems like the best option (also considering i have pretty good passing potential)
>>42144214unironically, i think i saw being directly a male > male homosexual made me a disgusting degenerate and the only way I'd have ever embraced being a hairy faggot was if I got aids and fell into a ton of different drugsinstead i took hrt and now i'm just left befuddled over my sexuality because i'm not sure who i actually like anymore and i'm still slipping into drugs but hey at least i don't have aids
>>42144867>agpcan you elaborate pls anon>>42145015>I still do remember how I was feeling generally before transition though.it's an awful feeling, like max dysphoria. i still struggle to really understand the root of my dysphoria tho. i wish i had more insight on why this happens at all. >>42145243>i literally cannot imagine a future where im seen as a manwhen i was little i asked my mother in horror why a family friend had the most hideous patch of hair on his lower back and she excitingly exclaimed how i as a man would one day have that too. it traumatized me.
>>42145477i developed a porn addiction around 12 where i had to imagine myself as a woman to get off. this led to me to develop a hatred of being male and a desire to transition
>>42145477> she excitingly exclaimed how i as a man would one day have that toothis is where i differ tho idk. while i 100% do not want a man body. i dont dislike my body that much and if it looked more manly i wouldnt hate it i think. what i dont like is how it signals to others that i am a man. for some reason my dysphoria is almost exclusively on having the social status of a man. i dont want others to see me as one. even if i was a super cool buff solider or wtvr.
>>42145477>it's an awful feeling, like max dysphoriaI wouldn't describe it like that.Remembering my time pre-transition doesn't trigger any dysphoria. Just a lot of sadness and a reminder not to miss my E shots.It's why I sometimes describe that period as "before I escaped boyhood" because that's really what it was at he end of the day. I was in a box that I just didn't fit in.> i still struggle to really understand the root of my dysphoria tho. i wish i had more insight on why this happens at all.I stopped caring in the third year of the transition. That helped a lot.I switched to the mentality of "this (transition) actually works. Great! Now let's make the best out of it" - and in doing so a lot of brainworms simply died almost on the spot.Yes, the height and the cute face also helped with passing and all that. But stopping the questioning was the nudge that I needed to get the motivation for everything else (such as voice training and intentionally integrate feminine habits and learn to like them).Not second guessing myself every step of the way made the journey pleasurable for the most part too. And enjoying living turns out is also very attractive.
