i need advice;basically, i'm too weird for anyone cissoid to ever marry me, and too normal for any trans person. since sex is of very limited importance to me, i'm fine being single forever, except for the fact that you can't rely on friends for anything. only a partner is meant to be with you for life, and everyone else will leave. my end goal is to live out of my car and essentially run away from myself until i die, so i'm pretty sure i'll be alone for the rest of my life. how can i manage my lonliness so i don't spiral into depression?any tips are appreciated, including examples of your own experiences with lonliness (hopeful ending or not, more data will probably help).
there are some big advantages to living completely alonef. ex i can safely mega dose shrooms (i do this about once per week) without being intruded uponit's only really safe to do this because i am completely alone - if anybody saw or heard what i get up to during my trips they'd send me to a psych wardit's also great for plotting, scheming, creating weird art. things that it'd be dangerous to share with others.living completely alone is great
>>42147696>my end goal is to live out of my car and essentially run away from myself until i dieYikes, this doesn't sound like a passing social life
>>42147821seems reasonable, not much else to do with your time is there? that's actually a big concern for me since i don't like doing most things. not sure what art would be so dangerous to share with others, like what are you making bombs or something?? desu i know a couple guys who wouldn't bat an eye at me making a bomb for fun
>>42147857it's not but i hate myself and i hate people too. the only people i like are the kinds who make me feel like i have to work for affection, and obviously most people like that will just abuse you so it's a shit deal.
>>42147696I've lived alone since I finished highschool (25 now)>you have to clean everything up. this is both freeing and constraining.>your sleep schedule is much more freeform, especially if you're a neet>you can easily go days without seeing anyone I honestly love it. I think I could only live with a long term partner. My ideal living situation involves me living alone, but close enough to loved ones that we can socialize. I love having a 'cave' I can retreat back it. It feels very primal in a way.
>>42148267how do you pay for that lifestyle? i've always wondered how living alone as a neet worked (without being disabled).
>>42148291I was homeless before I finished HS and managed to get into a cheap place that's subsidized. My rent started at $550 (bumfuck nowhere but still) and is now $650ish? They can't raise it by too much each year if it's the same tenant. You might have also misunderstood, I am not a neet. I did live as a neet for a year. I was in foster care and received some assistance from that and just neeted the first year of hormones (accidentally)
>>42148375How bigs your apartment for 650$ a year
>>42148392at least 500sq ft. i've never measured. it's technically a 2 bedroom but I've been a solo tenant this entire time.
