>>42149633
https://unsee cc/album#VE8EhYF0hjJP

>>42149633
am i going to make it or do my gigapooner hips seem like they're going to petrude out of any shirt no matter how large despite trying to anglemaxx. LMK. i genuinely get so body dysmorphic when i transition it seems like hell. focused on hips, chest, bonepill shit, "malebrain" and male social behaviors so that i don't get clocked as a tranny.

idk. lose lose situation either way

lowkey wish i could clone myself so that the clone of me could just be a woman and i could troon out and be a man and we could bump boxes

>>42149639
how tall r u? u look good to me. do u have pooner face or smth?also yeah u look a little twinky but better than most poons

>>42149633
>starting my detransition
Do you motherfuckers get paid to detrans or something? I don't see the point in it.

>>42149676
5'5, so i'm pretty short. i know i can pass because i was able to go stealth. people have asked me if i was jewish before and my jaw got somewhat pronounced on HRT so i'll be fine in the face area lol

>>42149710
i wish. i think i was just convinced by my old therapist that i had to accept my body to be happy, she worked really hard with me to see my chest as neutral instead of a point of legitimate dysphoria, and i eventually felt "meh" about it all, so i figured if i hated being trans and i was OK with my body, why not try living as a woman? but i want to transition again so idc anymore. i went really fem with it and do find myself attractive as a woman but i don't think it's what will bring me long term joy. i've had dysphoria somewhat consistently, so i'm excited to transition, but i don't really fear detransition anymore

>>42149721
>5'5, so i'm pretty short.
that sucks but idk isnt being short as a pooner not as bad as being tall as a tranny. like im sure datings horrid tho but u should be able to live ur life as male.
>people have asked me if i was jewish before
lool me too. are u also med?

>>42149762
dating is fine for me, just finding beautiful tgirls to go out with. rn lesbians are into me somewhat but i'm also not fully out so meh.

idk what med means, but i used to be medically transitioned through hormones. i am not jewish, i just have a strong nose

>>42149831
>dating is fine for me,
thats good to hear. ive heard its hard out there for ftms
>idk what med means
mediterranean

>>42149842
i'm pretty sure i'm just white, both of my parents have a strong nose. my dad says he's part indian and he looks it tbhon but i don't know the % or anything like that so i can't claim it for him

i feel like dating was a bit hard when i was FTM because i kept running into bpd bi girls who would subtly reveal they didn't actually see me as men, or i'd run into reppers that were too scared to take estrogen and released the tranny urge by being avid chasers, LOL

but i feel like with better confidence + experience in what i don't like things will go better from here on out

mediterranean women r so beautiful. u won the lottery

>>42149639
>>42149655
If you wanted an honest take you would have posted a better picture taken from the front, not shit angle + shit image quality.

Is that how you want to live your life? Hiding, trying to appear as something else, frightened to be seen for what you are?

In my relatively tall country you at 5'5 would never pass for male outside of lgbtq+ circles who are also mostly just being respectful and understanding.

>>42149863
>i'm pretty sure i'm just white
mediterraneans are white (the european ones)
>i kept running into bpd bi girls who would subtly reveal they didn't actually see me as men, or i'd run into reppers that were too scared to take estrogen and released the tranny urge by being avid chasers, LOL
ripp thats pretty shit. tho i rly like bpd bi girls so im a little jealous but i rly shouldnt date them
>but i feel like with better confidence + experience in what i don't like things will go better from here on out
yeah it seems like you know ur way around things. from what i can tell from that crispy image you seem pretty attractive so youll do good
>mediterranean women r so beautiful. u won the lottery
thank you (:

>>42149886
right now i'm really estrogenized since detransition and i know my hips aren't that good

my best friend is my height and cis male

i was able to go stealth

i'm going to juice up and disregard your opinion, LOL. i've had enough people need convincing that I was transgender from other people outing me that i don't believe you. my reality proves otherwise. you're just a miserable hater

>>42149888
i hate bpd bitches i'll gladly pass them along your way if i could. you'll find a beautiful bpd princess in time

>>42149946
you weren't being a hater, that's my bad. i don't have any other images on me rn that show things as they are currently in a more honest angle.

is it seen as hiding? as trying to be something else? who cares. i'll bulk up and do what makes me happy. hope you do the same, anon. inshallah we will all find peace and contentedness

>>42149946
>>42149977
Post wasnt meant as hate. You seem to struggle extremely with self image in a somewhat feminine way.

In the picture you posted your hips dont seem that wide, you mostly seem very skinny/slender. But the picture quality is intentionally terrible so I basically have no idea what you actually look like even after seeing it.

At 5'5, with probably a feminine face and no dick i honestly don't think juicing will be of much help.

If something happened to you earlier in life that made you want to reject femininity altogether, please just consider trying to face that instead of picking this impossible nightmare mode path.

.t 6'2 200lbs (lifetime natty) cismale

>>42150098
your assumptions could be correct. i am still learning to not hold the opinions of others in such a way that allows for self questioning. i feel like this is something that i can do for myself for a chance to live a better quality of life that is just for me, and not for the view of others.

i genuinely don't believe that i would not be able to pass as male, because i already have in the past in my previous transition.

what makes you believe it would be a nightmare? i think there are generally many downsides to being transgender due to external forces, but i don't think that transition itself is a downside. it can be if that is what you turn it into. it is most often just an attempt to express the self in a way that feels right.

i just enjoy the effects of testosterone enough to want to take it again. it feels strange when people say i am womanlike, and it feels like a betrayal of the self to call myself a girl. i assume your gut would tell you similar feelings.

can i ask what it is like for you, if you have always been more secure in yourself and your identity? have you ever questioned being transgender, or do you just feel this innate sense of being what you are? i get quite happy at the thought of gaining muscle and facial hair. thank you for your concern, it comes from a good place.

>>42150171
>Facial hair
Retard. Facial hair is a fucking chore.

Why would go to to therapy? All therapists are subhuman and throwung them into the barbara pit along with psychologists and psychiatrists would solve the so called "mental health crisis"

>>42150197
??

>>42150197
yes, and the very slight amount that i have right now due to being too much of a pussy to fully commit is more of a mental chore than if i had to just shave my face every day. lol

>>42150206
>>42150254
Did i stutter? Facial hair is a chore, always. It's a chore to have, to deal with, to smooch.

The only use is aesthetic which is fembrained.

>>42150323
u act like cis men dont use it for asthetic reasons. like when they go bald and then grow a beard to compensate

>>42150323
like males don't groom and preen themselves all the time. it's fine if you want to be ugly and not trim yourself or make sure you don't have any scragglers above where your beard should end, but real men like to look nice and presentable for women and realize they can't get poon if they don't put in effort. lol

>>42150171
Not all that secure in self and identity but at 6'2 and around 200lbs it is what it is when it comes to sex/gender. And I would somewhat assume that for a slender 5'5 female it is quite similar.

I fear that perhaps the physical, mental effect of testosterone is blurring lines here for you. Such a boost in test will make you feel good/strong on a physical level but that is just the effects of taking a drug and not of "finally being yourself on a spiritual level". Similar to how taking cocaine can get rid of feelings of anxiety/insecurity while clearly not being the solution to such problems.

>>42150410
cocaine made me feel like a tweaker, no thank you. i feel a bit similarly, it is what it is. either way, i will have tried my best. my life will not be over because i choose to transition, or i choose to not. it is just a life choice

i don't really believe in all of the spirituality stuff. i think that identity is simply a construct of your lived experiences and interpretations of them.

you could be correct, as some detransitioners have stated that testosterone did give them a "high" of sorts, for lack of better word. only one way to find out. i think i'll update on if it goes well or not, but there is no way to tell the future except for just allowing it to exist with time.

i want to aim for something more than "meh", or "it is what it is", though. there are many mundane aspects to life, and gender is another one of them. no big deal. once you are better transitioned, it is just another thing in the background, going to the pharmacy is just as much of a chore as going to the grocery store.

we will find out in 10 years time what the correct choice for me is, i guess. for now, i am making decisions based on the current evidence i have.

can i ask what those insecurities in self and identity are like? most people have them to some degree, it is mostly natural

>>42150343
>>42150388
You say that like the men who do those things aren't insufferable about it.

It's still a chore even if you're up yourself about it.

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>>42149633
You should Goebbelsmaxx since you're 5'5

>>42150872
i'll look up what that means lol

>>42151441
Embody Goebbels' aura