how do you choose between the two? i'm a neverpassing hon, and by that i mean no hope of passing whatsoever at any point in the future. i have a very masculine and uncanny face and FFS is extremely unlikely to tip me into passing territory even if i do afford it someday. i can't convincingly manmode because of other aspects of my appearance. i honmode socially, that means using a female name and dressing in women's clothing primarily. this has been the case for coming up on five years now and i've never actually faced violence or anything for being trans, even verbal harassment is something that just hasn't happened to me in three or four years by now. people in public just quietly disapprove but don't really tend to get involved. at the same time it does sort of hurt a lot to feel rejected, i'm super sensitive to it and it hasn't really started to hurt less with the years (if anything it hurts more).i have something resembling a community or group of friends irl who treat me generally well. we just don't talk about the trans thing and never have, they don't seem to have a problem referring to me with a female name and pronouns. i think it helps that my voice is very feminine even if the rest of my appearance leans male. it helps a bit to hang out with them, but my other daily interactions tend to drain me. i have given serious thought to detransition but it feels a bit awkward to broach the subject with people i know irl as i've never talked about being trans with them in the first place. i'm about to start a new job too where i already stupidly gave my female name. should i just make steps towards detransitioning and drop everything and move somewhere else?
>>42164807get srsbecome vagbrohang out with dickbros
>>42164876wish i could afford it. i do have genital dysphoria, i feel like a vagina would look really weird on me because of how unpassing i am though.
