idk whether or not to stay on hrt and i need advicepros are i could probably look good with a lot of money and luck, people might treat me nicer, i would like to look good, i wouldnt be a man, VERY LITTLE SEX DRIVEcons are the government and world in general would want me dead, i could probably never have a regular girl/boyfriend, i might look good as a guy if i really worked for it, and im not sure about the whole boobs thing, and im not sure if its agp or if i really want to be a woman.what do i do? im pretty early in transition so all i got thats permanent are itty little breast buds and some minor boob fat.
>>42175346what does the ideal you look like?
>>42175346When you think of your future do you see yourself living past 30 as a man?
>>42175462uhhhhhh maybe? all my fantasies of being a grandparent are of me as a man, a father etc. i couldnt put my (unlikely to ever exist) kids through having a tranny "mom".>>42175430no idea. i want to be a hot girl or something. i've always hated being treated like a "man"? but i love feeling useful, and those two feelings mix really badly and so i dont know. i think the ideal me is some kind of hermit living in the mountains alone forever. i'll give you a different answer every time you ask, tbhon.
>>42175540Are you okey with adopting? Or paying the large amount of money needed for in vitro
>>42175346t. someone who repped into cisvanafor me the cons were always too muchLike in your case you say you might look better and people would treat you nicer but I think 1) those are achievable as a man and take the same, or even less effort than trooning (esp saving for medical stuff)2) being ostracized by the whole world/govt plus never being able to have a normal dating pool just to look a bit better would be too much risk for too little rewardmaybe look further into why you wanna transition cus you might be making a mistake
>>42175540We sound similar tbhon.
>>42175346what r ur stats anon? height/age/race/weight etcwhat do you think are your odds of passing? trust me if you're at this crossroads where you can reasonably choose between being cis OR trans, you're better off being cis (yeah I know I sound crazy) but this life isn't meant for everyone
>>42175568adopting is also insanely expensive. and no, i think id be an awful parent anyway because i suck at emotions.>>42175582fair. i dont think i would ever like looking "good" as a male, but its better than tranny broken arm syndrome or being killed. i think i want to transition for the simple reason that i like looking like a woman, and not like a man? but when i look in the mirror now, all i see is the man even more than before.if i had a magic option that'd let me look like a woman but have everyone else see me as a (well kept) average guy, i'd take that. however, i will admit that since sexuality in general makes me uncomfortable, having boobs makes me feel weird. like in the way having a visible flaccid bulge would.
>>42175684would rather not go into detail, but basically, im a feminine looking guy but i got nerfed by my ribs, and a couple face things. everything else could pass if i tried. and got big boobs, which makes me uncomfortable but whatever.
to summarize for anyone skimming this:i would like to be a woman, and i dislike being a man, but society scares me. having boobs feels sexual and therefore gross to me, but i could probably get over that. i could pass with money and im a manlet. hrt is probably the move.
>>42175699I think you'd be better off living your life as an effeminate man than trooning desu